INSOMNIA!!!

Hiii everyone 😊
u wud be just wondering what i've written here with ma title being insomnia..it's true friends that the last few epis has had a huge impact on me that various thoughts kept crawling in my mind making me unable to get even a wink of sleep(this might be even due to the approaching exam 😉 ) so here i am..got up rite early in the morning..it's chill out here..thankfully i'm cozily wrapped in blanket...opened up am comp..instead of studying i'm going to do this bit of writing...i do feel that once i get all these feelings out of ma mind/system i'll feel a lot better n lighter!! so here i go!!
thanks to Dreamy Di for inspiration 🤗 n the epis that motivated me to jot down this!! it'll be like a jist of what everyone said..though mainly it'll comprise ma thoughts n feelings!! like in harry potter u've to look into the pensieve to enter the memory of a person...u have to lok into this to know what's going on ma mind!!(beware..coz this is a very very long one!!)
i start of with our hero...lallanpur ka devta...
Avdesh: the mention of his name itself makes the feeling of sadness crawl into my heart!! they say life is a complete circle n this is very true in his case!! barely few days ago he was the ruler...the mighty Ceasar of Lallanpur...but now he's no less than a normal criminal on the run!!! it seemed so that he was invincible n he just had to order men to carry his task out but now everything is the other way round!! "Pride goes before a mighty fall" though i defo do not want this to be true with Avi here but this is the harsh reality!! Arpi had warned him innumerous times but he never did care!! he was too confident about himself n this false prestige was boosted up by bhauji thus making Arpi's words fall to deaf ears!! a deep sense of pity is what i feel for Avdesh!! with the loss of his father n brother at the young age of 14 or so his sole protectors had been seperated from him!! where they to be alive Avdesh wud definitely be in their safe arms...in their shadows..far away from the dark-forbidden path he is on now!! imaging the feelings of a boy in that situation itself makes me shudder...what had life offered him...what had it snatched away from him!! there shud always be a balance in nature n that is the law of it...wen u give it...u get it...but what did Avdesh get to loose...his childhood innocence had been curbed out suddenly n he was no longer just a boy...he had to shoulder the responsibility of a man!! his childhood memories seem to be like a story taken fold ages ago with him moving nearer n nearer to the dark side of life!! looking at the way Avi has handled everything i feel proud of him...proud for whatever he's done..though it may be wrong but it was needed!! proud of his courage ...proud of his way of living!! had he been soft n easily giving up...he wud have lost the battle of life by now...had it been a normal boy...he wud have been shattered by now but Avi..he strived to once again strike a balance in his life as also his family's n i'm proud of it!! but i feel sorry for him that he's to learn the things the harder way...arre bhai..that's why we say life's not as easy n simple as we assume it to be!!! this reminds me of a regional song that says " is there dizziness or turmoil in your life is there confusion in your life, are you shaken in your life? So many things happen in life, there is pain/ problem or the other at each n every door-step..Whatever be the sorrow that comes your way, it wont run away if you remain dull and dejected....If you have a heart that can face anything, there is peace till the end. " whenever i listen to this i get reminded of Avdesh...that's what he's in..that's what he faces!! yet i say that he's extremely lucky..lucky to be loved n cared by so many ppl..with arpita beside him at each n every step he's bound to overcome the hurdles of life!! in the last few epis one can see that his eyes are filled with sorrow n guilt...which he clearly expresses to her..he's guilty of not keeping her happy..for being the sole reason behind her tears n anguish!!! in love there's no debt...but the way Arpita has showered the unconditional love on him he's indebted to her forever!! but she being a true wife is satisfied with his mere presence n well-being n this is one of the best traits in her!! so Avdesh is this gunda with a golden heart whoise never expiernced the joys of life n is yet to discover the new path guided to him by is dear wife!! i dont expect him to completely turn over into a new leaf coz Arpita,myself n we all love him for the reason that though he's a gunda he's good-natured by heart!! so i want him to be as he is feared..respected n loved but just that a few changes in his way of living so that he can lead a better happier life -a life that he so definitely deserves!! so once again i say i'm proud of Avdesh for what he is n no matter however he is he's always the BEST!!! Arpita: she has emerged out to be a very strong woman!! though intially she was of the crying types(i dont blame her for that...anyone in her situation wud!!) she's turned be a very..very strong woman indicating all the way that womanhood is not what everyone assume it to be..it's softness combined with hardness...love combined with anger all in proportions!! if a woman can be the soft-spoken one at times she can be the one to be raging with fury n determination!! as i've always said...i like this new arpita for her determination n dedication!! the way she caresses her husband..tries to revive him everytime he faints...filling in hopes though she herself is in despair..tries to assure him that nothing will happen to him as long she's there...all symbolises her deep-rooted love for avdesh!! till now whatever she's done she's done it without any expectations n with the only intention in her mind that her husband has to be safe at all costs..no matter what!! there's no rose without a thorn..n so is life...troubles keep brewing up everytime!! but one shud not loose hope n that what arpi exactly is!! in all these circumstances..she's never said ufff...she's never ever told that life is not what she had dreamt it to be..she never mentioned that all her so carefully web-drewn dreams had shattered into innumerous pieces.. finally she's never ever lost her hope!! she is a true wife as she accepted avdesh n his reality with all his flaws n is now trying to pave a new way for her husband!! her courage,her determination, n her unconditional love for her husband truly evokes a sense of pride in me!! she's proved that though being soft, beautiful n tender yet she can be strong,mighty n powerful when the matter is related to her husband..her sole purpose of living!! she's left no stone unturned to ensure that her husband is safe!!! if at all avdesh could change it would just be for her or because of her!!! her love is the only one thing that has already conquerded him completely!! n this will always remain true in the future!! looking at the way arpi prayed in the temple yest i was reminded of oe of the songs that says " whatever we think/we wish/we dream if it all gets fulfilled within a second or rather if all our thoughts become a reality will we ever remember god??!! will his presence ever be graced n notified??!! but at the same time if we keep on pondering over what has happened(the bad n miserable) there will be no chance of peace n serenity in life." likewise in utter despair Arpita found solace in god..the ultimate!!! n like the song says if there were no troubles Arpita wud never have understood the true meaning of life!! though we do feel sad for Avita now for the situation they are in it's a blessing in disgiuse for them..helping them to understand n love each other even more!! their bond has definitely grown stronger..so strong that the rustic iron chains(bhauji here) will not be able to break it!! Bravo Arpita n way to go dear!!

oh my my

i dont know what to say here

our emotions run very high with the show

and yet some ppl dont understand what the show is about..


kudos to entire gkd team for providiing such breathtaking entertainment where the next scene is totally un predictable.

and finally 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏


for u to be able to write this

beautiful totally

oh my my sia

Soumya,👏👏👏

I am speechless.....almost.😊😉..Here's some hugs for you🤗🤗🤗..and go back to bed if you can...though I can understand the insomnia..😉

Soumya,
Very well written..Aapke shaan mein kahne ke liye shabd kum padh rahe hai..I really don't know how to express but you will definitely get this👏👏👍🏼🤗🤗 Loved every bit of your thoughts...WOOOOWOOOOOWOOOOOOWOWOOWOO good one

hi sia

i m cleaned blowed.....wat a write up.....simply beautiful........
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very well written yaar. i always think same about Avi's courage. and i am still confuse that how can they show so easy to end up Bhayya ji's strength and rule on city and as well as on the people

Originally posted by: chatterbox

oh my my
i dont know what to say here
our emotions run very high with the show and yet some ppl dont understand what the show is about..
kudos to entire gkd team for providiing such breathtaking entertainment where the next scene is totally un predictable.
and finally 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏
for u to be able to write this
beautiful totally

thank u so much di... 🤗 🤗🤗

Originally posted by: MonyP

oh my my sia

👏👏 👏 👏

I am speech less. What an emotional post😭 😭😭

great post dear

please keep writing.

thanks a lot di 🤗🤗 it was a bit senti di n yeah i will surely keep writing 😊