A LETTER TO MAYANK
Mayank,
Hi. How are you? Silly question. I know you are more than fine. What are you doing ? God, again a silly question. I cant help it. I guess it's the immense want to talk to you is making me ask these stupid question. Oh, I haven't introduced myself, right? Sorry for that. Well you don't know me, but I know you. I know you more than anyone alive does. I've seen you. I've felt you.
You know you even once came into my dream. I was in class eight then. And I woke up, ran to my mom. Told her what I saw and asked, if I 'd seen an angel. You were looking so handsome that I couldn't believe you to be human. And from that day I was taken. Taken by you.
Sometimes I wonder how can you be so perfect? How can you be so loving, so brilliant, so caring ,so handsome that I even don't care to notice any boy. How can you be all that I'd ever want? No. you're more than what I'd ever want.
I never thanked you for not leaving me from that day on. You were always there for me. When I was being victim to a nasty mean girls fight in high school, you were there, holding my hand. Supporting me. Perhaps you don't know the differences it made. It kept me alive. You kept me alive.
I'd stopped dreaming. You brought them back. And now I dream a lot. But even if it's a dream, you don't leave me. I'm so used to have you with me now. I cant even think of my existence without you.
I am not a beauty queen, mayank. I'm not that funny nor have I mind blowing heavenly smile or dove shaped eyes or long black cloudy hairs. I'm not the life of a party. And I don't have a heart of gold. I'm just a common girl with a really common life. And I know there is no reason in heaven and earth for you to want to be with me. And I would really understand if you decide not to come . But I hope you do. This is not my fault, alright. Its yours. You gave me hope and I cant let it away now.
So if you never come, I'd be hurt but still I'd have the hope. But if you decide to come and make my life the most special in the world, then I'd request you to hurry. See I can wait my whole life for you but the society cant. In about five years, there will be immense pressure on me to get settled. And I'm not a Jhansi ki rani. And I won't be able to resist them for longer. So you better come quickly.
Waiting to see the day when you walk out of my world and enter the real one.
Yours only,
Me.
index
arti os Without You, All That I'll Be, Is Incomplete page 6
mayur os The Nameless Relation page 12
mayur os Talking to the heart page 21
Anupamaa
