White Girl Comming out of Saree Closet

Hello all

I'm new to the forums so Hello and here is a bit about me

I'm Tall

Slim (ish)

Shy

Not out going

Reserved

White

AND TOTALLY HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH INDIAN SAREE's

So I have a few issues on my hand.

It takes a lot of courage for me to leave the house in my saree as I have been conditioned to feel that what I am doing is so wrong and a bit odd.

The times I have gone out in my saree, once to a high profile Summer Ball, another time to a Bollywood show and another time to a Mela I have had nothing but complements from Indian men and women saying how fantastic it looks how well I wear it, how comfortable I look in it and they are surprised to find that, yes, I did put it on my self.

I wear bangles and earrings to match, my hair is up in a beehive adorned with flowers, the only thing that lets me down is a decent necklace, I have always been hopeless with choosing necklaces.

I rarely get complements from the white girls I like to think that this is because they are jealous. And I never get complements from white men, which by the way does not bother me one bit, I assume they totally disapprove which suits me fine. All that matters is that my fianc loves them and he supports my passion for Indian Fashion.

I recent trip to London's Ealing road left me in tears, in my purse was a lot of money to purchase a silk saree intended for my wedding reception. I wondered around a certain exclusive shop, and was not approached, like everyone else that walked in, when I asked for help they showed me where the western infusion dresses were, another shop was exactly the same, but this time I was shown some sarees, everyone around me was being offered a drink and I only got evil looks.

It only added to my insecurity, am I doing something really wrong?

I left London without my reception saree, and now having doubts about the wedding Lenga I have.

I have no Idea where this obsession for Indian fashion has come from but it has been a huge part of my life for the past 10 years. A lot of my purchases have been made using the non-judgemental Internet shopping. And some purchases there have been a total disaster. As this purchase is for my wedding, I want to be sure what I am getting.

My family are also anti this passion of mine, and I feel so alone with only a few strangers showing interest when I have the courage to leave the house in my best sarees.

I read some forums and there is so much hatred directed toward non Indian women in sarees, some are well deserved, like Madonna, yes that dark purple and blue saree with her extremely pale skin and black hair at the time absolutely awful, , and then those that clearly have not put them on correctly should not be let out. Then look at Helen Mirrem, wonderful silver and red saree.

Should I stop this fantasy of mine? Is it just a bit too crazy for a white girl to want to wear a saree all day everyday? I don't wear them to insult, I wear them because I feel that they are the most awesome item of fashion in the world, ever, timeless, enduring, passionate, romantic, all at the same time being everyday wear.

At this time I am currently stepping out of my hypothetical saree closet should I retreat and shut my self back in there, keep it behind locked doors like some sort of dirty secret or should I come out fully?

What do you think?

Many thanks for you kind replys. I feel good in a Saree and I have a real pasion for them, I would hate to give them up!