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Chapter 22
mom and Amit came as Maan requested them to.. they were worse than Maan, treating me so carefully thinking i am still a kid. we were having lunch in my room cause they didnt want me to walk to the dining table when mom started acting really dramatic, feeding me "mom.. i am not 4 years old anymore, i can eat on my own!"
"haan but just this for me please"
i looked at her "you have to eat or you wont go to London" Geet mumbled
we all looked at her and laughed, i grabbed the fork that had steamed carrot from mom's hand and ate it "see.. its easy to eat alone.. now all of you just eat.. alone!"
Amit giggled "you're still the 14 year old girl that i saw crying at the window"
i blinked at Amit then blushd as i remembered the first day we met "crying?" mom asked
"over dad" i said quickly "can you pass me the salt please?"
"no, no salt" mom shook her head
"God.. you are worse than Maan" i sighed
later that day, i was on my bed reading when my mobile rang "hello" i heard someone sighing.. "Maan?"
"Geet.. hey.. how are you?"
"im good.. how are you? how's Delhi?"
"its hot in here" he paused
"Maan.. kya hua?"
"nothing.. i just wanted to hear your voice" i smiled "Geet.. kahan hai?"
"ek minute" i put the mobile down "GEET, AIYE PAPA WANTS TO TALK TO YOU"
she came running and grabbed the mobile "pappa! did you find Barnie?" she looked down "oh.. ok" i heard him saying sweetheart "yay!" she jumped "i love you pappa!" she giggled then kissed the mobile "ok" she gave me the mobile and ran outside to finish watching Barnie
"i think i will have to ban her from this purple creator" i mumbled
Maan laughed "he is sweet" he paused and i got worried suddenly "i will be back this Monday.." he said as if i wasnt counting the days
then i heard a sound that i recognized.. that set my heart off "what's that pepping sound?"
"what?"
"i just heard it.."
"oh its.. Jorge" he giggled "i dont know how long he will have his pager with him.. i will have to go now ok? i love you.."
"i love you too" we hang up and i put the mobile down and looked at it.. i did recognize that sound, i started thinking of where Maan is really are... but i had to stop having crazy ideas.. i had to smile and tell myself that he is in Delhi, busy with meetings.
the time until Monday felt like entirety, if it was possible i would have counted the seconds to just see Maan again, and let this fear feeling vanish. it was 9 at night, raining in Mumbai, Geet was in bed.. ma and Amit already went back to their apartment.. and i was sitting on the sofa, waiting for Maan to show up. i heard the elevator open and i almost jumped.. i walked as fast as i could towards him but then stopped in the middle of the way.. i held the dining table chair.. my smile left my face as i looked at Maan, he looked tired.. pale.. like something had happened to him, my heart started pounding as i started linking things together, i looked down, faking a painful face "i cant walk.." i slowly looked at Maan "i miss you.." i said, he looked at me for a while, then started walking towards me.. his small steps gave him away.. i started crying "tell me you didnt do it.." but he was still walking towards me "tell me you didnt do it Maan please"
"do what?" he asked stopping in front of me
"you're walking in small steps" i looked at his face "you didnt do it, did you?"
he was smiling but tears on his cheeks "they said that i was doing a really generous job"
"no.." i started crying hard "why? why did you have to go through this pain?"
"i wanted to share yours" he whispered
but i shook my head "no.. i dont want to.." i paused "im leaving"
"kya?" he looked at me shocked
"IM LEAVING YOU.." i shouted "HOW DARE YOU MAAN!? how DARE YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF!!" i shouted louder "I HATE YOU.. and i dont want to see your face ever again.." i couldnt even walk.. i slowly sat on my knees as the empty area that was once filled with a kidney started to pain "im leaving you.." i repeated, he sat on his knees in front of me, looking at me shocked "to go all the way.." i closed my eyes "all the way and donate.. a part of your body, to prove to me that you love me"
"CHUP" he shouted, i looked at him "just chup!" he shouted again, looking at me angrily "do you think i did that just to prove to you how much i love you? how immature is that Geet? do you think i did this because i enjoy it Geet? ha.. do you.." but he stopped, he put his hand on his right side of his stomach and closed his eyes tight, i know he is now probably trying to think of something else, but here i was shouting at him like a drama queen. i pushed myself up and pressed my lips against his.. moved back but his hand was faster, he ran his fingers through my hair as he pushed me back to his lips "how could say you will leave me?" he said kissing me again "how could you say you hate me.." he kissed me softly and sighed "this could be my pain killer" he smiled but i didnt..
"why did you do it Maan?"
he rested his forehead on mine "i told you.. i cant see you going through pain.. not alone"
"this is too much" i whispered
"im sorry" he apologized, then closed his eyes "we will.. now, walk in small steps together" he said, i looked down at his hand to see him holding his shirt tight "we will have our own diet.. and.." he leaned down and kissed me "i asked the doctor about.. making love and.." he paused exhaling heavily
"you need to rest" i said getting up "give me you hand" but instead he held the chair and stood up, we both were walking in small steps, he lied down on the bed and i started taking his wet clothes off, once i saw his knees i had tears in my eyes "whats this?" i asked
he looked at me "what?"
"there are.. blue marks on your knees"
he looked away "i told you, i hit my leg with the car's door"
"leg.. not knees" i wiped my tears away, he didnt say anything "ok Maan.. start talking or i will have this idea that you are just crazy" i said furiously
he slowly looked at me "remember that night?" i nodded "i slept on the floor"
i stared at him "for how long.." i whispered
he bit his lip "too long.." i looked back at his knee.. leaned down.. and kissed it "Geet.." he whispered, i held his hand tight as i started to kiss his leg.. then his foot.. he squeezed on my hand as i kissed it again.. i sat on the bed and he opened his eyes and tears dropped "that wasnt necessary" i smiled as i wiped his tears, he rested his head on my thigh, and i started playing with his hair "did you really mean it when you said you're going to leave me?"
i giggled softly "no.. but im supposed to hate you now"
"why?"
i looked at the window, covered with rain "you cant love me this much"
"kyon nahi?" i didnt answer him, he kissed my thigh "is it not allowed for someone to love his wife like this?"
"to hurt youself.."
"to share your pain.."
"it wasnt meant to be done literally" i smiled as a tear fell on him
he sat down next to me "you still dont know how much i love you..?" i bit my lip "well.." he sighed "i shouldve broken my knees na?" my jaw dropped and my eyes popped out, he burst out laughing "damn, it hurts to laugh"
"MAAN!" i hit his shoulder "not funny!"
"come here" he hugged me "just hold me.. this is painful" he whispered
i held him tight in my arms, wanting to take his pain away "i love you" i whispered, he kissed my neck and rested his head on my chest, i covered us and kissed his head holding him close to me
after 10 years, Maan celebrated his 50th birthday.. i celebrated my 38th, we have another daughter that we named Lara, it was a name that i loved always.. mom gave birth to her son, Ajay, few years back, he looks like Amit with his big gray eyes. few months after Maan's donation to his kidney, he quit his job, and sat with me in the house.. taking care of Geet and Lara.. his mother had already built another company building and the one we live in turned into a living building, where nice people live in and its owned by Maan.
just a week after Maan's birthday where i was standing in front of him in the bedroom "she wants to go out with him, i gave her the yes"
"Geet! i said no!"
"Maan.. Raj is her friend!!" i looked back at Geet who was hiding behind me "jao, and dont be late" she nodded and ran outside
"what was that about?" he looked at me annoyed
i sighed walking towards him "just let her go out with him, she tells me EVERYTHING about what they do.. she really likes him and he might be a good man like you .." i bit my lip and blushed
Maan slowly smiled "oh.. so this is why you agreed?" he put his finger on my jeans edge
"Maan.. Geet might see" i looked at the door
"she left" he said pulling me closer to him, unbuttoning my jeans
i hit his hand "Lara?"
he giggled already unzipping the zipper "she's with her cousins.. remember" i bit my lip, and blushed badly as the jeans is on the floor now.. he moved back in the chair and i smiled as i sat cross him on his lap "it's been a while "he said holding my waist "am i too old for this?"
"no!"
"maybe if i dyed my hair black.."
"you'll look UGLY!"
he laughed "Geet!"
"seriously, i dont want you to dye it.. i love it like this, gray mixed with black.. and your beard too" i giggled "you know i have a gray hair somewhere.."
i was blabing about the gray hair, looking for it when he put his finger on my lips, i looked at him "you know how i feel when.. your eyes look away from mine.." he smiled "when you get busy with something.. or just as simply as talking to someone else.." he tighten his arms as he whispered "inconsolable" i bit my lip when i heard him saying it "its as if.. i was meant to live to meet you, and now the empty space can not be filled by anyone else but you" a tear fell on my cheek and he wiped it away "you made my life livable.." he smiled "just.. livable" he paused "and you still.. the same 18 years old lady that i love.. still have the same love in your eyes that i see.. for me only.." i looked into his eyes.. at the edges you'd notice the signs of age but, he still has those dimples that race my heart beat.. his beard still there.. even and clean, his hair.. still thick as ever.. i leaned towards him and kissed him "still needy"
"Maan" i blushed smiling
"and, still blushes" he giggled looking into my eyes, he put his warm hand on my cheek "for someone who never believed in marriage.. and still in love with his wife after 20 years.. that's.. achievement hai na?" i smiled "without you.. i wouldnt be here.. i wouldnt be this happy.. i wouldnt.. forgive my father" i lowered my gaze "or share my pain.. my love.." he paused "i just have a fear that i will not.." he looked down "just.. not be able to.. drop your tears"
i looked at him confused.. then i realized what he was talking about, i put my hands on his cheeks and made him face me, kissed him softly "we'll have to try then" i teased
"what if i dont?"
"we'll see.." i smiled at him and kissed him again..
we were bare.. hugging each other when he whispered in my ear "what if i dont Geet?" i moved my head towards him and kissed him.. that's when it happened.. and after it, he held me up to him.. moving together.. he was the 30 years old man i fell in love with, and i was the 18 years old girl that he's madly in love with.. my tears dropped and i felt his tears too "you complete me" he said when i whispered his name
if it wasnt for him, i wouldnt know who i am.. i wouldnt know where i would be.. i wouldnt learn how to love, and give.. how to care and forgive.. if it wasnt for him, i wouldve been Inconsolable
i am Geet Khurana, that was my story.
this is the last chapter of Inconsolable
i hope you guys enjoyed the story.. 😊
thank you all for the comments and the support! i really appreciate it! 🤗
love,
Ru
mom and Amit came as Maan requested them to.. they were worse than Maan, treating me so carefully thinking i am still a kid. we were having lunch in my room cause they didnt want me to walk to the dining table when mom started acting really dramatic, feeding me "mom.. i am not 4 years old anymore, i can eat on my own!"
"haan but just this for me please"
i looked at her "you have to eat or you wont go to London" Geet mumbled
we all looked at her and laughed, i grabbed the fork that had steamed carrot from mom's hand and ate it "see.. its easy to eat alone.. now all of you just eat.. alone!"
Amit giggled "you're still the 14 year old girl that i saw crying at the window"
i blinked at Amit then blushd as i remembered the first day we met "crying?" mom asked
"over dad" i said quickly "can you pass me the salt please?"
"no, no salt" mom shook her head
"God.. you are worse than Maan" i sighed
later that day, i was on my bed reading when my mobile rang "hello" i heard someone sighing.. "Maan?"
"Geet.. hey.. how are you?"
"im good.. how are you? how's Delhi?"
"its hot in here" he paused
"Maan.. kya hua?"
"nothing.. i just wanted to hear your voice" i smiled "Geet.. kahan hai?"
"ek minute" i put the mobile down "GEET, AIYE PAPA WANTS TO TALK TO YOU"
she came running and grabbed the mobile "pappa! did you find Barnie?" she looked down "oh.. ok" i heard him saying sweetheart "yay!" she jumped "i love you pappa!" she giggled then kissed the mobile "ok" she gave me the mobile and ran outside to finish watching Barnie
"i think i will have to ban her from this purple creator" i mumbled
Maan laughed "he is sweet" he paused and i got worried suddenly "i will be back this Monday.." he said as if i wasnt counting the days
then i heard a sound that i recognized.. that set my heart off "what's that pepping sound?"
"what?"
"i just heard it.."
"oh its.. Jorge" he giggled "i dont know how long he will have his pager with him.. i will have to go now ok? i love you.."
"i love you too" we hang up and i put the mobile down and looked at it.. i did recognize that sound, i started thinking of where Maan is really are... but i had to stop having crazy ideas.. i had to smile and tell myself that he is in Delhi, busy with meetings.
the time until Monday felt like entirety, if it was possible i would have counted the seconds to just see Maan again, and let this fear feeling vanish. it was 9 at night, raining in Mumbai, Geet was in bed.. ma and Amit already went back to their apartment.. and i was sitting on the sofa, waiting for Maan to show up. i heard the elevator open and i almost jumped.. i walked as fast as i could towards him but then stopped in the middle of the way.. i held the dining table chair.. my smile left my face as i looked at Maan, he looked tired.. pale.. like something had happened to him, my heart started pounding as i started linking things together, i looked down, faking a painful face "i cant walk.." i slowly looked at Maan "i miss you.." i said, he looked at me for a while, then started walking towards me.. his small steps gave him away.. i started crying "tell me you didnt do it.." but he was still walking towards me "tell me you didnt do it Maan please"
"do what?" he asked stopping in front of me
"you're walking in small steps" i looked at his face "you didnt do it, did you?"
he was smiling but tears on his cheeks "they said that i was doing a really generous job"
"no.." i started crying hard "why? why did you have to go through this pain?"
"i wanted to share yours" he whispered
but i shook my head "no.. i dont want to.." i paused "im leaving"
"kya?" he looked at me shocked
"IM LEAVING YOU.." i shouted "HOW DARE YOU MAAN!? how DARE YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF!!" i shouted louder "I HATE YOU.. and i dont want to see your face ever again.." i couldnt even walk.. i slowly sat on my knees as the empty area that was once filled with a kidney started to pain "im leaving you.." i repeated, he sat on his knees in front of me, looking at me shocked "to go all the way.." i closed my eyes "all the way and donate.. a part of your body, to prove to me that you love me"
"CHUP" he shouted, i looked at him "just chup!" he shouted again, looking at me angrily "do you think i did that just to prove to you how much i love you? how immature is that Geet? do you think i did this because i enjoy it Geet? ha.. do you.." but he stopped, he put his hand on his right side of his stomach and closed his eyes tight, i know he is now probably trying to think of something else, but here i was shouting at him like a drama queen. i pushed myself up and pressed my lips against his.. moved back but his hand was faster, he ran his fingers through my hair as he pushed me back to his lips "how could say you will leave me?" he said kissing me again "how could you say you hate me.." he kissed me softly and sighed "this could be my pain killer" he smiled but i didnt..
"why did you do it Maan?"
he rested his forehead on mine "i told you.. i cant see you going through pain.. not alone"
"this is too much" i whispered
"im sorry" he apologized, then closed his eyes "we will.. now, walk in small steps together" he said, i looked down at his hand to see him holding his shirt tight "we will have our own diet.. and.." he leaned down and kissed me "i asked the doctor about.. making love and.." he paused exhaling heavily
"you need to rest" i said getting up "give me you hand" but instead he held the chair and stood up, we both were walking in small steps, he lied down on the bed and i started taking his wet clothes off, once i saw his knees i had tears in my eyes "whats this?" i asked
he looked at me "what?"
"there are.. blue marks on your knees"
he looked away "i told you, i hit my leg with the car's door"
"leg.. not knees" i wiped my tears away, he didnt say anything "ok Maan.. start talking or i will have this idea that you are just crazy" i said furiously
he slowly looked at me "remember that night?" i nodded "i slept on the floor"
i stared at him "for how long.." i whispered
he bit his lip "too long.." i looked back at his knee.. leaned down.. and kissed it "Geet.." he whispered, i held his hand tight as i started to kiss his leg.. then his foot.. he squeezed on my hand as i kissed it again.. i sat on the bed and he opened his eyes and tears dropped "that wasnt necessary" i smiled as i wiped his tears, he rested his head on my thigh, and i started playing with his hair "did you really mean it when you said you're going to leave me?"
i giggled softly "no.. but im supposed to hate you now"
"why?"
i looked at the window, covered with rain "you cant love me this much"
"kyon nahi?" i didnt answer him, he kissed my thigh "is it not allowed for someone to love his wife like this?"
"to hurt youself.."
"to share your pain.."
"it wasnt meant to be done literally" i smiled as a tear fell on him
he sat down next to me "you still dont know how much i love you..?" i bit my lip "well.." he sighed "i shouldve broken my knees na?" my jaw dropped and my eyes popped out, he burst out laughing "damn, it hurts to laugh"
"MAAN!" i hit his shoulder "not funny!"
"come here" he hugged me "just hold me.. this is painful" he whispered
i held him tight in my arms, wanting to take his pain away "i love you" i whispered, he kissed my neck and rested his head on my chest, i covered us and kissed his head holding him close to me
after 10 years, Maan celebrated his 50th birthday.. i celebrated my 38th, we have another daughter that we named Lara, it was a name that i loved always.. mom gave birth to her son, Ajay, few years back, he looks like Amit with his big gray eyes. few months after Maan's donation to his kidney, he quit his job, and sat with me in the house.. taking care of Geet and Lara.. his mother had already built another company building and the one we live in turned into a living building, where nice people live in and its owned by Maan.
just a week after Maan's birthday where i was standing in front of him in the bedroom "she wants to go out with him, i gave her the yes"
"Geet! i said no!"
"Maan.. Raj is her friend!!" i looked back at Geet who was hiding behind me "jao, and dont be late" she nodded and ran outside
"what was that about?" he looked at me annoyed
i sighed walking towards him "just let her go out with him, she tells me EVERYTHING about what they do.. she really likes him and he might be a good man like you .." i bit my lip and blushed
Maan slowly smiled "oh.. so this is why you agreed?" he put his finger on my jeans edge
"Maan.. Geet might see" i looked at the door
"she left" he said pulling me closer to him, unbuttoning my jeans
i hit his hand "Lara?"
he giggled already unzipping the zipper "she's with her cousins.. remember" i bit my lip, and blushed badly as the jeans is on the floor now.. he moved back in the chair and i smiled as i sat cross him on his lap "it's been a while "he said holding my waist "am i too old for this?"
"no!"
"maybe if i dyed my hair black.."
"you'll look UGLY!"
he laughed "Geet!"
"seriously, i dont want you to dye it.. i love it like this, gray mixed with black.. and your beard too" i giggled "you know i have a gray hair somewhere.."
i was blabing about the gray hair, looking for it when he put his finger on my lips, i looked at him "you know how i feel when.. your eyes look away from mine.." he smiled "when you get busy with something.. or just as simply as talking to someone else.." he tighten his arms as he whispered "inconsolable" i bit my lip when i heard him saying it "its as if.. i was meant to live to meet you, and now the empty space can not be filled by anyone else but you" a tear fell on my cheek and he wiped it away "you made my life livable.." he smiled "just.. livable" he paused "and you still.. the same 18 years old lady that i love.. still have the same love in your eyes that i see.. for me only.." i looked into his eyes.. at the edges you'd notice the signs of age but, he still has those dimples that race my heart beat.. his beard still there.. even and clean, his hair.. still thick as ever.. i leaned towards him and kissed him "still needy"
"Maan" i blushed smiling
"and, still blushes" he giggled looking into my eyes, he put his warm hand on my cheek "for someone who never believed in marriage.. and still in love with his wife after 20 years.. that's.. achievement hai na?" i smiled "without you.. i wouldnt be here.. i wouldnt be this happy.. i wouldnt.. forgive my father" i lowered my gaze "or share my pain.. my love.." he paused "i just have a fear that i will not.." he looked down "just.. not be able to.. drop your tears"
i looked at him confused.. then i realized what he was talking about, i put my hands on his cheeks and made him face me, kissed him softly "we'll have to try then" i teased
"what if i dont?"
"we'll see.." i smiled at him and kissed him again..
we were bare.. hugging each other when he whispered in my ear "what if i dont Geet?" i moved my head towards him and kissed him.. that's when it happened.. and after it, he held me up to him.. moving together.. he was the 30 years old man i fell in love with, and i was the 18 years old girl that he's madly in love with.. my tears dropped and i felt his tears too "you complete me" he said when i whispered his name
if it wasnt for him, i wouldnt know who i am.. i wouldnt know where i would be.. i wouldnt learn how to love, and give.. how to care and forgive.. if it wasnt for him, i wouldve been Inconsolable
i am Geet Khurana, that was my story.
this is the last chapter of Inconsolable
i hope you guys enjoyed the story.. 😊
thank you all for the comments and the support! i really appreciate it! 🤗
love,
Ru
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