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I was getting bored and thought of writing something on my fav. jodi... the cute SAJAN. so writing this OS. Press the like button if you like it and , in case you dont like it,.......... plzz😕 Dont hit me.........!!
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Love - We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it & Loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know what it'll be from one moment to the next. It is a ...short word, easy to spell, difficult to define && IMPOSSIBLE to live without.
He always wondered what position he holds in her life. They started as Dance partners in the college gathering, then friends, and then best friends. But for him, she was something more than that. She had taken a very important place in his heart. Well it is an understatement. She had stolen his heart. She was his Angel.
BUT… He never told her about his feelings. Maybe he was afraid of loosing her. Maybe he couldn't bear the pain of rejection, if she says NO. And for hiding those feelings for her, he always flirted with every other girl in front of her. But he always kept giving hints to her. He always made sure she's doing well. He always made sure that she smiles. He was caring towards all his friends, but for her, he was possessive too. She sometimes wondered why he has that concern about her only, but she never asked why, and he didn't tell her because maybe, he was too shy.
He knew he can't live without her. But he knew she won't reciprocate the feelings he had for her. She was so different than him; she would have never accepted his proposal. He remembered the conversation they had on a movie date.
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"Hey that was an awesome movie, and an awesome title too… 'If only'. Isn't it?" she chirped coming out of the movie hall.
"Yes! That was." He looked at her enthusiastic face lovingly.
"But I wonder who loves someone so much in today's world."
He sensed a disappointment in her tone. 'I love you sweetie! More than my life…" He wanted to shout. But he kept quiet.
"Hmmm… at least not people like you, who are constantly searching for a change!!" she said with a sigh and pulled his cheek teasingly.
'How I wish I could tell you… he thought. But smiled for her sake and said playfully, "Well, change yourself, otherwise change will change you!!"
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This day was bringing up hell lot of memories, her memories. But why… Maybe because of the dream he had last night.
Last night he saw her in his balcony… Dressed in a white salwar, she was looking very beautiful and serene. She smiled at him, and waved at him. She started walking towards him. His heart was pounding now. But suddenly her smile disappeared and she turned and started walking away fast. His smile vanished. He followed her, but she was very fast. He wanted to call her but he couldn't say a word.
Stop! Please stop…. He muttered under his breathe. But she didn't. And finally he shouted…
"Gunjan !! Please come back…" He got up in his bed, shivering head to toe, sweating badly.
'People say you do the things you can't do in reality, in your dreams. But I couldn't stop you, even in dream… Why? Why can't you be mine?' He wanted to cry.
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It was their graduation day. She was so happy to get a gold medal. Well of course she was the brightest students of excel. Samrat looked at her fondly and took her snaps as she hugged her Di. He took some more snaps of her with friends and faculty members with his Polaroid camera.
"Hey Photographer! Do you want to make it professional?"
"What?" he looked confused at her question.
"I mean, you're just going on and on and on with the camera."
"Ya. This is the end of college. We will meet less frequently now. I want to capture the maximum of it." He said openly. 'I want to capture every expression of yours, honey… he said in mind.
"That's okay! But don't you want to be seen with me in any of those snaps?" She said with a grin.
"No. I'm not photogenic like you" He smiled weakly.
"Don't you dare to say No to ME!! Ok? Now pass on the camera to Di and come here." She ordered as Nupur took the charge of the camera and signaled him to obey her.
"You are just too much!" He muttered.
"Yeh! Tell me something new. And now shut up and say Cheeseeeeee" she shouted the last word as Nupur captured them in a snap.
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The colors of that snap began to fade. 'I haven't preserved it properly … he thought.
"Sir, your conference call with Mr. Niranjan Das is scheduled at 6.30 PM."
The secretary got no response.
"Sir, you ok?" she asked again.
"Uhmm… oh , Sarah. What's the matter?" He came out of his trail of thoughts.
"Sir your call with Mr. Das…"
"Sarah… I'm feeling a bit low today. So can you please reschedule the call?" He asked rubbing his head.
"Sure Sir. Should I get some coffee for you" Sarah asked politely.
"No. Thanks for asking. You may carry on." He said as he took a deep breath.
"Ok Sir." And she walked out of the cabin.
He stood and walked towards the window, which showed a part of the garden. There were many plants in the garden. But his favorites were the yellow roses.
'She likes them very much…. He sighed.
*tring tring*
He looked at the Phone. Its 6.30. He frowned.
'I told Sarah to reschedule the call. The least I can think of now is business…
The ringing continued. It made his head spin. At last he picked up the call.
"Hello?" a soft voice called.
Its her!!… His heart took a flight.
"Gunjan? Is it you?" his voice was full of excitement.
"Samrat! You still remember me, after 4 long years…"
"Now that was a joke Chashmish. How can I forget you?" He beamed with joy now, "you have no Idea how delighted I am to hear from you. You know what, I was just thinking about you."
"Oh. That's great. So how's life?" She said calmly.
"Chashmish? Your voice sounds very low… is everything ok?"
"Hey! I'm fine. And I have called you to check on you. So answer me first."
Samrat was relieved by her answer. She's still the same. Doesn't like a question in reply to her queries.
"I'm doing good. Running a shipping company. Business is good."
"And family?"
"Family? You know na… I have no one…except…", 'you.. He wanted to say but said "Friends" instead.
"I mean to say didn't you start a family, you know, got married?"
"Uhmm… no."
"Why? Someone rejected?" and a chuckle followed.
"No. I didn't propose her because of the fear of rejection." He said in a low voice.
"Oh My…! So you loved someone… and didn't tell me?"
"Hey, leave it. You tell about yourself. Did you… ummm.. Get married?"
"No."
"Why? Ooh jeez" He said as the lights in the room switched off.
"Samrat? You ok? What happened?" her voice was full of concern which brought a smile on his face.
"Yeah, I'm fine. It's a power cut. You were telling me the reason of being single till date."
"Because you never proposed me."she said playfully.. " I tell you, if you'd have proposed me, I …"
"Chasmish!" samrat stopped her in between and sighed, "Gud joke! But stop it"
"No samrat!" Her voice was serious this time. "If you'd have proposed me, I'd have accepted."
"Chash…" samrat chocked.
"Yes samrat. I never told you, but I always had a crush on you, which then transformed in liking. I always hoped that you too will feel the way I feel, someday… but the day never came. I thought you would say someday, that you too love me as much as I love you. But you never said that." Her voice was thrashing his heart.
"Chashmish , I… why didn't you tell me before?" he said with pain.
"I wish… But now it's of no use."
"No! Don't say that. Even I hid it from you, but I love you… "
"Thanks for loving me samrat. But it's over now"
"But chasmish…"
"No samrat! I'm gone now…" Her voice was husky, "and I can't come back. I'm sorry…"
"What are you saying? Where have you gone? Why can't you come back?" he said frantically.
"Samrat, I passed away last night." She said calmly.
Passed away… did I hear it correctly? He thought.
"Why are you behaving so strangely… Oh wait" he paused, "are you making fun of me? Is this it? Chashmish… I … this is the most ridiculous prank ever played by anyone." He said fuming.
"Sir?" Sarah was standing at the door of his cabin with an emergency light in her hands, and confused looks on her face.
"Yes?", he said covering mouthpiece with his hand.
"Sir? Whom are you talking to?" She said skeptically.
"Well, it's a personal call Sarah. I wont shout on the conference call." He said with irritation.
"But Sir, I told the receptionist strictly not to bother you by any call. So he had disconnected your phone from the network."
As Sarah said this, the receiver fell on the floor with a thud, and a moment later, her boss also.
"Sir! Sir…you ok?" a horrified Sarah shook him vigorously.
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They were sitting on the bench in the hospital lobby when the ward boys were rushing in the OT with his body.
"It's of no use." Samrat smiled and held her hand " As I'm already dead now!"
"I'm sorry. I just called you to hear your voice one last time, to tell you that I love you so much that I cant even go from here after death. But see, what I've done. I killed you too!" Gunjan said sadly.
"Hey chasmish. Do you think I'm scared of ghosts? Well let me tell you, I love one beautiful ghost so much, that I thought of becoming a ghost myself. And you know what; I didn't want to live in the world where you were not there. We couldn't live together in that world. But see; now you are with me forever. And no one could steal you from me."
She looked at those brown eyes and saw immense love. They got up from the bench and started walking holding hands.
They've found their love and they knew it will last till eternity.
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Hey guys,
I know the concept was a little awkward. But maybe i've read a lot abt life after death recently... 😕
Dont forget to comment! 😉
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