I betrayed his trust-Arsh(OS)

I still remember the day he entered the college gates? being the gang-stars of the college we knew that he would be our target for the next prank?

I mean common anybody could guess that a fatso like him was gonna be the centre of attention, what???! with a body weight like that he couldn't get away could he?I know I know it sounds cruel and mean and all that crap but hey that's what ragging is all about,right??but this kind of ragging was exclusively for fat people?

Ok look u guys must be thinking that I am a horrible female but hey m the sweetest one in the group?believe it or not..

The first day of college was horrible for him as we made him run about, tricked him to fall into mud and what not!! In the end of the day when we were finished with him, we let him go?

he had got into his car and had driven off .Even though he was fat, there was a certain style in him which well I have to admit I kind of liked and ya those blue eyes had so totally killed me??*phew*

BUT the reality was that I had lost my heart on that fatso on the first day of college only!!i don't know what attracted me more towards him, his smile or his charm or his personality?well u must be thinking that m a relly confused soul so let me tell u? my parents,sister,friends and armaan (ofcourse he doesn't come under my friends afterall he is someone special.. *blush* *blush*)where was i?? oh ya..all of them agree to the fact that when I was born I was born confused..

I mean I know I cant decide b/w strawberry iecream or chocolate ice cream and also I cant decide what to become in the near future a lawyer or a fashion designer but still I.AM.NOT.CONFUSED..!!or am i?? oh forget it,where was i??oh ya..

So Thanks to sir Steve (our English teacher) I got to know the real him..!!

Armaan was like no one I had met so far, he lived life on his terms and at the same time balanced fun and studies, he had 1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11?oh!! forget it he had more friends than me..!!!and I thought that people became your friends only if you were rich and beautiful and I was both rich and beautiful.. the latter(beautiful) part I don't know..!! armaan was rich, he was pratically rolling in money..! but he wasn't arrogant like me nor did he look down upon others like ME!! He made me feel guilty and brought out the real shilpa in me?

He told me that I would look stunning in indian clothes but I refused to pay heed to this request? until it was too late..!!!

We had become good friends.. I wont say best because we weren't best friends just good friends? I used to hang out more with his group than with my group?

And so the rumour mills went to work and the news was that he and me were dating?

He was worried and told me to stay away from him but I would just ask him 'why' and he would reply 'because it might hurt u' and I would just ask him if that bothered him he would say it did and then I would again ask him why with an amused smile on his face he would say because he cared for me?.

Everything was fine till he started avoiding me? reason being 'he liked me' what was the problem in that I did not understand but soon enough tired of this simple shilpa my friends made the old arrogant shilpa return,with armaan not on my side I turned into the old shilpa and as luck would say he proposed infront of the whole college confident that I would accept but I refused.. why?? Becoz the old shilpa who was a b***h returned thanx to my friends I lost him?

I laughed at him and told him that I would rather date a donkey, I laughed at his weight, I laughed at his friends,I laughed at his proposal that was so plain.. I laughed and laughed until he got up and said the words which freed the real shilpa in me? his words still make me shiver as they had reflected the hatred in his eyes and heart..

"I never knew you could be molded so easily shilpa, it kills me to know that the person I loved is hiding somewhere inside you and that you are not ready to unleash her..."

All I knew was that I had betrayed his trust..!!

I never saw him after that day and nobody saw the old arrogant me after that day? he had left me to live between the arrogant and the simple me and I had chosen the one in middle.. the one who wouldn't dare to talk?

As per his wish I wore indian clothes and took to seclusion, my so called friends left me and armaans friends never talked to me? I deserved what I got and I accepted each blow i.e the death of my parents and my sisters marriage ,graciously, I concentrated on studies rather than boys and books became my best friends?

A year later rumours had it that fatso armaan had returned but now he was the hottest guy on this earth or as the girls would say he was a Greek god..!

I was least interested because I knew that even if he returned he would not even look at me or for that matter talk to me..

He returned and I saw him quite often, my heart did THUMP but I ignored it like he ignored me?they were right he was down right beautiful, the only problem was that he had changed and the worst part was that he was now a part of the star-gang?my old gang..!! it hurt me but I knew I had hurt him?

His reputation was that of a Casanova but I hardly cared, he had returned but he was not the armaan I had fallen In love with?.

Coincidentally we were paired again by sir Steve but this time armaan refused to work with me? nobody wanted to pair up with me.. didn't blame them, I was used to loneliness? so I did the project on my own?

One day I was taking out my books from my locker well aware that sophie standing next to her locker which was next to mine and armaan was totally in her neck like totally? suddenly sophie popped up a question and the answer killed me?

"armaan what happened to the fat,stupid armaan that was I love with riddhima?? He used to be quite innocent"

He looked at sophie and hinting towards me said..

"somebody killed him.."

Closing my locker silently I bowed my head and walked into the library? the only place where I found solace and peace?

Weeks later while I was trying to stuff my books into my locker, he came over to me and randomly asked me?

"what happened to the arrogant and the simple shilpa we all knew??"

I turned towards him and ignoring the pain in my chest I gave him a faint smile and said..

"she died after killing the only person she loved"

Looking at his stunned face I could make out that he had got the right meaning of the sentence, I turned around and walked of wiping off that smile which were not replced with tears?

It was true that the hardest moment in life is not when you lose something and tears come out of your eyes, it is when you are losing everything and yet you are forced to smile..!

Looking down at my mehendi I still remember how in the next few days I had seen the old armaan surface again as he learnt about my sufferings in that one year...

It all started with those pick up lines which were sms'd on my cell, some of them I still remember?

"Excuse me, but I think I dropped something!!! MY JAW!!"

"If I could rearrange the alphabet, I would put U and I together."

"Was your father a thief? 'Cause someone stole the stars from the sky and put them in your eyes."

"Hello. Cupid called. He says to tell you that he needs my heart back."

"If stars would fall everytime I would think of you, the sky would soon be empty."

"Your lips look so lonely.... Would they like to meet mine?"

"Please do not be alarmed if a big man wearing a red suit picks you up and throws you into a bag. (Why?) Because I asked for you for Christmas."

I knew it was him the very instint he messeged me these lines we had gone over these a thousand times?

But the one close to my heart was the time he had proposed me..he sat down on his knees n I knew what was coming but he confused me when he said "can I have a photo with you??"

And I like a total idiot had asked "why" ; "because" he said "I want my children to know how their mother looked" I smiled and this time to his satisfaction I said "I have forgotten my surname? can I use yours???" and that was it we had got the desired answers?

Look here I am now on my hubbys bed waiting for him?

I looked at him as he entered?he looked tired but I didnt care, I had changed into a nighty which was pink with a low neck cut ?irritated i closed my eyes but gasped when I felt his lips on my clevage?.

I turned around to look straight in his eyes as I saw passion brewing in them?as he kissed me I deepened the kiss because now there was no turning back?separating from the kiss as he tried to get rid of his clothes I smiled at his words which he had whispered before kissing me?.

"Are you a switch??? Coz I wana turn you on!!!"

I saw him taking off his shirt as I leaned against the pillow?

He was mine even though I had betrayed his trust? HE WAS STILL MINE!!!