And also to share Gunjan's pain, to understand her. 😊
I came across a song, MY IMMORTAL, from Evanescence. It fits the situation so deeply. With all the pain we have to go through when someone dies.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
''These wounds won't seem to heal.This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase''
Gunjan, wont seem to heal anytime soon. The vaccum Nupur has created in her lifes can not be filled. Her pain is too real and unbearable. It is something time can not erase.
''When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me''
Nupur was the support system for all of them. When Gunjan cried, she was there for her. When Gunjan screamed, she helped her. She has been her guardian, her support system from so long now. All I can say is that Gunjan has lost all of herself.
So, read this song, listen to it on youtube, and think, think from Gunjan's POV, what she has lost, and how is she paying for it.