Afraid to be happy?

Hey friends,
I know I tend to write strange topics but it seems I ma destined to write them....lolz....Ok coming back to what i have been planning to say. MJHT= Miley jab hum tum. A serial airing on star one which has gone pretty much down the drain. Serials like remix and especially sarabhai v/s sarabhai started making way for crap like DMG, sorry DMG fans I cant stand that serial. ...Now coming to MJHT...Hmmmmm...
What do I say? the serial which I can neither love nor hate completely. Not hate cause i dont hate easily. i do not give in to negative emotions cause I know it affects the cycle of life. And why i cant love? Well...for many reasons....
1) It doesnt allow me to love, the serial has gone through some serious ups and downs not to mention some randomness which I couldnt make heads or tails of.
2) my ideals and my conscience which does not allow me to enjoy things projected wrongly even if thats for pure entertainment.
3) My brain which has a tendency of searching out reason in everything...
4) I-F....lolz
All of you must be wondering why I mentioned I-F... well I-F does make influence me and my mood. At times I watch an episode and feel rather happy and see one of my friends disliking it and start feeling unhappy or sometime I affect the mood of my friend. When MJHT strated or before joining I-F I used to be equally interested to see how SG storyline would unfold along with MN. But now i am bothered with screen space.To be in sync with people or in a group i tend to talk and say that go according to the tide not what i really feel. I am afraid of bashing or being misunderstood and thus sometimes change my views to suit others. I am afraid to like a scene because in speculating I feel the next scene Might be bad...
Sometimes when I am lying down alone in my bed I wonder if i am loosing out on small happiness in trying to keep up some image. Sometimes I feel i have created a world around me which makes me suspect happiness.I wonder if i am complicating my world?
What do you think guys...does I-f affect your real views? have you ever felt you have made a complete U-turn from what you really felt because people expected you to?

I hope I made sense... I try to.... mainly I end up confusing and offending a lot of people...lolz
Do reply....

Thanx and regards
Rinky

since no one seems interested in replying i will spam my own topic....here is one reason i cant love MJHT.... see the banner at the back.. it has vectory instead of victory...i cant stand spelling errors....

i agree rinky abt the IF part..last night after watching the epi.i thought it was okk.....( i never expect anything from mjht...it make me enjoy thingas better.lolz)
but after reading some posts..well i still like the epi,but i got tensed abt future of MN,screenspece issue,character deviation etc.......& totally forgot abt the epi..i guess IF do effect my enjoyment some how!!!!!!!!!!!

Originally posted by: Mou.

i agree rinky abt the IF part..last night after watching the epi.i thought it was okk.....( i never expect anything from mjht...it make me enjoy thingas better.lolz)
but after reading some posts..well i still like the epi,but i got tensed abt future of MN,screenspece issue,character deviation etc.......& totally forgot abt the epi..i guess IF do effect my enjoyment some how!!!!!!!!!!!

aah mou thanx for replying....I know the screen space issues would never really bother me in real life I was not a aprt of MJHT forum or I-F.. if indeed i was unhappy with my faves being shown less i would forget it easier...bt not while i come here...the discussions affect me....

It also bothers me how i ridicule other characters to make my faves look great...another bad habit i have grown...

@luvsheart- u didnt understand the topic?

he he rinky.i never even think in my dream that i will defend & fight for my fav fictional characters with ppl here in the forum whom i donno .at all.....strange na!!!!!!!

Great topic Rinky!!

Good topic!
But my views are a bit diff regarding the first 3 points..
1.i love this show! Cos i have been a die hard dmg fan for a year or so and believe me it was soooo much more random than mjht LOL
2.i don think i have such strong ideals or something..and plus we know that in soap operas every thing is exaggerated and unreal! I don think there's a single show which actually presents the reality of life ! Not even balika vadhu acc to me ..
3.while watchin a tv i always make sure to keep my brain aside!! ;) i just watch mjht to LMAO! to destress myself! I don bother myself too much lookin for logics now!

But yesss your I F point i agree with! Frankly speakin i like sajan too ! At times they do get borin but other wise they are cute too! But wen am talkin to my forum friends i HAVE to say stuff against sajan !!even if i liked their date i have to say noooo their's wasn't better than Mayur duh!
There have been times where i actually liked some epi..but members dissection of the epi from every angle did influence me ..Like i loved the lib kiss scene alot and i was so excited to read views over here but jab main yahan aayi i saw ppl actually critizin it :( sayin things bout bad editing and background music and blah blah .. And after readin all that even i started feelin ..that the sbs kiss segment was better than the epi one! Huh!
Well its all psychological i guess! We want to be accepted by our friends and thats why we conform to other views!

ROFL @the vectory pic you've posted! But don know why such things hardly affect me now! Ab toh aadat ho gayi hai! Maybe its all cos of dmg! dmg se my tolerance power has actually increased!!haha

nidz its the first time i actually saw u coming across so honestly in any topic on the forum seriously.... yaah oms are indeed good and so are messengers... but most of my friends like to keep MJHT on I-F itself and not affect them any deeper... its like thats how the serial should be viwed or atleast i view the serial... not worthy of my messangers...lolz

yaah leaving MJHT forum or getting away is a good option but like me u will start missing it after a few days... i did move out but came back again...

@mou- i know its strange how people fight over fictional characters....i generally dont... my dunnot like the attitude of "my way or the high way" attitude.... so not me.... but thats always not applicable to all....i see silly fall outs over minor issues... i wonder why? and get no answer... i curse myslef for not understanding... maybe my understanding isnt strong enough....