Vahini

"I refuse." Honourable Judge I refuse this severance in your legal court which attempts to nullify the Witness of our Lord at sacred fire. I retrace my folly in applying to your court in the first place.

I had resolved to repent my distrust and heal your deep wounds. And in its carriage I became disobedient to my parents for the first time. I was heading straight in to the storm of your Aai's scorn. I was seeing the accusation in the eyes of Vandu and Kaka and ridicule in the eyes of neighbors. But the chill in your eyes was freezing my soul. The refusal in your eyes was melting me into nothingness. This universal dismay was making me feel like a leaf shaded by the tree but perpetually suspended mid air and at the mercy of pushes from every wind. And yet I had braced to pass the storm with the help from unbound mercy and kindness of Baba.

And then the foolishness of my act was revealed by you. Alas, I have again harmed your purpose. Had I known it earlier I would not have heeded to Baba's benevolence. And here I am being thrashed upon you as a hindrance in discharge of your duty. This I lament.

But I support you wholly in your noble purpose. I will be your helpmate in fulfillment of your commitment. I will join you in undoing this hindrance after three months. That shall be the least homage from me to a dear brother lost for ever. One more task is left. That scoundrel will be punished. He was checked once before at his betrothal but he stays heedless. Enough destruction is brought upon by him to let him roam free. And if I am found overmatched in this effort I will invoke Aai Durga to grant me the weapons of Her Mount. I will not rest till that villain is undone.

These, I resolve.

When I look at Vandu, I realize what an honour I have lost –to be lovingly called Vahini: the bearer of Your Linage.

Before slipping into oblivion, one last time I want to reach you, O Dearest. If only for a moment I may gain a comforting rest within the girdle of your strong arms, if only for a moment I may claim a lean on those broad shoulders, if only for a moment I may attain a soft caress from that chiseled nose and slightly parted leaps to my hairs, this weariness of my soul shall stand mitigated for entire life.

no words.just an awesome post.if i hadn't cry so much and used up all my tears after today's episode i would have cried while reading your post especially the last segment
Before slipping into oblivion, one last time I want to reach you, O Dearest. If only for a moment I may gain a comforting rest within the girdle of your strong arms, if only for a moment I may claim a lean on those broad shoulders, if only for a moment I may attain a soft caress from that chiseled nose and slightly parted leaps to my hairs, this weariness of my soul shall stand mitigated for entire life.

thank you

beautiful , specially the way it was ended .So sad but very romantic .

Oh my god! Its just marvellous Samarth.... just as in your previous articles, this time too I love the choice of words, and the way you have given an archaic feeling to the whole article. Archana's feelings have been voiced so beautifully by you. Hats off!! By the way... are you a writer or something? Cos your articles are absolute literary delights!!!

Wowwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Simply Wonderful..!! Are you an English Professor or Creative Writer..?

That was beautiful! I love your presentation and choice of words, really excellent! The last paragraph was especially lovely.

The choice of words is just amazing you relived the character of Archana through your wonderfull words. People who haven't wept watching the miseries of Archana would bound to weep once they start reading this wonderful lines what u have choosen. Boy o boy you gave a new definition for Archana's struggle, especially the end part. i have no words to describe what i am going through!😭 Samarth you just rock, Cheer's

@Lyna@TanyaZ@iamindian@Nikitagmc

Thanks for your appreciation. As I have mentioned in my earlier post I have never been a writer which must be apparent with numerous grammatical mistakes in my writings. First I perused Engineering Degree and currently in Business. This leaves almost no tome for serious writing beside some interesting discussions in my circle of friends through E-mails. Like I have to snatch the time and two, three seatings to complete this one.

@Nikitagmc

May I seek your help on two counts? Being a Gujarati I do not have much access to Marathi Literature. I have imagined the meaning of word 'Vahini' as per Gujarati context: 'Vahini'- career [feminine]. In Hindi this word means Brigade-Army. So I am little confused. As you must have better access to Marathi etymology [I have read somewhere you are Maharashtrian] will you please be kind enough to explain its Marathi context beside the obvious Sister- in law.

@toothbrush13 @ Ahashspartan

Thanks for your generous praises. I am little late as other occupations were not permitting me the time.

Akash, you are too generous but I am not happy with this one. I am feeling it is impossible for me to fully comprehend the complexities of Archana's mind and therein lies my shortcoming. I am acutely feeling something is missing and I am trying to perceive it. Some explanation is dawning to me but it is involving some other contexts and hence I am feeling like discussing further in a separate post. I am not sure.