I believe I am God’s child: Monica Bedi

I have always believed in God, but was never a firm follower. My belief in Him was casual until I went to prison. I also became spiritually inclined. This strengthened my belief in Him and that helped me stand firm during my toughest time. During the initial days of my stay in prison, I blamed myself for everything that led to such consequences. I analysed my mistakes and searched for ways to come out of it. It was depressing and heart-breaking. I wasn't able to control my tears. I felt miserable. At this point, I needed someone who could support me and show me the right path. And then, I felt God was standing beside me and telling me not to get discouraged and move on with a clear conscience.

The praying sessions in prison created a bridge between Him and me. The readings from the Bible soothed me. It helped me realise my mistakes. Gradually, I felt that unless one goes through tough times, one can't realise His importance in life. I started confiding in Him. At times when I felt lonely, I went through the Bible in order to find the reasons behind my mistakes. These reading sessions then became regular and helped me understand myself better. The sayings in the Bible brought me closer to Him. I felt the more I read, the better I became.

Reading just one paragraph helped me understand a hundred different trivialities of human life. I felt that God sensed my urge to get closer to Him. So when I took one step towards Him, He took several steps forward to give me solace. I realised that He might not heal instantly, but He will definitely come to my rescue. I spent five long years crying and cursing myself in prison, but once I came out, it was a different me. As a person I may not have changed much, but my thoughts have changed and He has provided me with the ability to differentiate between right and wrong. God made me strong enough to face the masses with Bigg Boss 2, where I got noticed for my good behaviour. Now, I don't have any fear, I am God's child.