~||KaSh fic:~||Agonizing Love||~(updated 25/10)

Hey guys n gals?well I know u all r gonna bash mah skull when I say that here?s another FF of mine coz I rarely update buh yaar?kyaa karun?mere dimag ke ghode rukte hi nahi hai..hamesha kuch na kuch imagine karte rehte hai n sooo I need to convert those thoughts n imagination into a fic?😆😆😆

Well this fic is abt the most HOT N HAPPENING couple on indian television i.e OUR ONE N ONLY??? KARAN SINGH GROVER N SHILPA ANAND ??😊

For u?r info. Tis FF is an imaginary FF..totally?sum scenes may resemble the serial DMG buh oder wise it?s gonna be totally dependin on my n u?r imagination?.😳

Well I?ve stopped watchin DMG a loonggg time bac from when shilpu left😭😭😭 buh still I can?t help buh tink?.how so very many times I want to stop tinkin abt em..(KSG N SA)?Buh I can?t help?tis thought had been in mah mind from a longgg time n now I wanna tell u all abt it?

Well I keep wondering how Karan wud hav felt when shilpa left...as a friend ....as a colleague ...as a actor..or even as an admirer?I also thought abt how Shilpa wud hav thought n felt?.U know tis thought kept stinging mah mind?so I thought of racking u?r brains wid yet another of fic of mine?.Well I?d request sum of the people..Loyal kashians to write in here too?I?ll first ask em n then if they agree to cont. then we?d be off wid tis FF?..😳😉😉

Their had been a post like tis buh their SUKIRTI was in a bad..i mean negative role?buh no such thing in tis FF..I won?t like to make a good person be potrayed like a negative character coz I believe it wsn?t sukirti?s fault cumin in DMG?though I haven?t been able to accept her as Ridz till now.🤢😭.buh still no bashing sukirti in here😊?.as I DON?T WANT THE MODS TO CLOSE TIS TOPIC. 😳

PLzzzzzzzzz plzzzzzzzz do reply n temme what do u tink abt tis FF..its not jus mah FF its ur?s too n feel free to give u?r suggestions n do criticize?as it will help me in learning more?.

Hope u like the theme?topic?.Do reply?..Waitin for u?r replies?.

Love ya allllll??t.cccccccc

-Ur?s Ever Madhu😳

Dear dearest friend Karan,

Jab tak tumhe yeh letter milega, mein wahan nahi rahungi…I wud hav gone far..far away. I know that I shud've told u abt tis the day I decided to leave this show…my show..your show..OUR show.."Dill Mill Gayee".. Mujhe pata hai ki this is a sudden decision aur mujhe tumhe pehle hi baata dena chahiye tha. Par agar mein tumhe pehle baata deti toh shayad tum mujhe kabhi jane hi na dete.

Karan, mera jana bohot zaruri hai, it's rilli important. I hav to go leaving u all behind. Itni zaruri ki mujhe tumhe, sunaina, pankit, drashti, mayank..aur baki Sabhi ko chod kar jana padega. Agar aisi koi situation na hoti, agar aise halat na hote toh mein kabhi sab ko chod kar nahi jati..kabhi nahi..par chunki situations aisi thi, that I had to leave. Mujhe pata hai, ki mujhe tumhe batana chahiye tha, buh coz u wudn't hav let me go, maine socha tumhe baad me..iss tarah letter likhkar hi bataongi..warna this firm decision of mine on which I've pondered for many sleep deprived nights..cud hav been changed.. Sunaina, pankit n all the oders knew abt me leaving from the day I made the decision..buh I asked them..or shud say pleaded to them to not to tell u nytin..they all were so very depressed..n so eagerly wanted to tell this to u..so that may be u cud stop me..n thus I pleaded them to not to tell u..coz oderwise my decision wudn't hav remained so firm n I wudn't hav been strong enuf to tell all tis to u..

Although now em being very candid to u abt my leaving the show..Mujhe pata hai that by leaving the show all of a sudden widout a prior notice to u n all the viewers..I'm not doin a win-win thing..as this behaviour of mine is wholly unacceptable. I know em risking both: your n my career..the show, the TRP, the stardom, the popularity, the peak..buh still plzzzz try n understand that coz the situations, luck, time r not in our favour..of u n me wrking together..our destiny our luck..don't want us to wrk together nymore..it wants me to go away..n so em goin..there are reasons Karan..so many of em...that u'll cum to know or might be knowing by now…

Coz of these reasons..inhi ki vajah se mujhe yeh show chodna padd raha hai…I know very well that em risking your career along wid mine…and em well aware of the fact that many people will not take all this positively..they jus won't accept it..the fact that I've left…they all will want me bac (my fans..if I hav any)..want us bac (here there'd be many fans u know..)together..which means that there'd be a slump or shud say a downfall in our career graph..Don't think that em callous to not care abt you, think abt your career, buh situations n time r proving everytin against us..

Hum dono ne saath saath yeh stardom..popularity, love, awards hasil kiye hai..We reached the pinnacle of success together. We were the BEST and I know that. And I sincerely hope that u give u'r best as Dr.Mallik in this show even after I leave. U know that Sukriti has been selected as the new Dr.Riddhima, well now knowing u'r nature, I know u'll support her, get her goin, exploit her full potential n bring out the natural actress. You shudn't say that she doesn't know how to act n all jus to get me bac, coz em the one who chose her as the new Dr. Riddhima. She's a vry sweet n cute gal and is vry talkative. Buh I know u'll help her adjust b/w everyone n will help her n support her wid the acting n all.. waise bhi TUM JISKE SAATH BHI RAHOGE VOH STAR BANEGI…( Personal experience you see)…

I wish I was still a prt of this show..still playing Ridhu's role..being Dr.Riddhima Shashank Gupta..or shud say to be Dr.Riddhima Armaan Mallik, buh unluckily, unfortunately..fatefully I can't…Till date I remember our first meeting, our first day, our first act, our frist intimate scene… I remember everytin so clearly, that I fear, I won't be able to forget it even if I get Alzheimer's disease ( me bac to my zany humour)….the memories of this show n all of the cast members will remain forever engraved..carved in my heart..n will only fade away when I die..or may be not..coz according to me they are ebbed so deeply that I fear they'd never go away..as per my wish..( I never want these memories to get away)..U know better than oders how much I loved potraying the role of Ridhu, I jus loved it..it was one of the bestest chance I ever got..the chance..the opportunity to potray Dr.Riddhima…

well em getting too wistful n weary of the talk abt the show..which I once loved n will keep on loving forever..n ever n ever..till eternity……..

Now this is for u..only u….

I'll never forget the camaraderie, the special friendship we developed while wrking together.

Will miss u like my puppy..hehe..U know na karan how much I love my sweet lil puppy..usse bhi zyada..I'll miss u..U were one of my best friends n the bestest collegue any one cud eva get..mujhe bohot dukh ho raha hai that I need to leave tis show of our's..humara show..this show Dill Mill Gayee…

Agar ho sake toh maaf kar dena..plzzzzz forgive me if u can..(I know u will..tumhara dill bohot bada hai..aur phir apni shilpu ko kaise bhul sakoge)..plzzz I can't afford to lose as g8 a friend like u..mujhe pata hai pehle tum gussa hoge..par baad mein..u'll understand..plz try n understand..mein jaan-bhuj kar nahi chod rahi karan…plzzzzzz…

U know..mujhe pata hai ki yeh padhne ke baad u'll hav that angry look on u'r face I love soo much..I'll miss it..phir jab tum voh puppy dog face banaoge..thinking em watchin u..so that seeing u'r puppy dog face I'll melt n cum..tab I'll miss u..I'll miss u for each n every gesture of ur's..Tumhari mere dill mein ek alag jagah hai karan..a special place..n u'll 4eva stay there..4eva…chahe kuch bhi ho jaye..mein tumhe kabhi nahi bhula paongi..kabhi nahi…A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me
together forever and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in
heart.

N remember : If you love someone more than anything,
Then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart…so if u rilli love me..mujhse sach mein pyaar karte ho..toh U won't mind where eva I am..coz I'd always be safe n sound in a small corner of u'r heart…afterall I know u will seriously forgive me..once u know the reasons..n I know u won't let down u'r shilpu..we'll be friends 4eva karan.. n at last..as it seems to me I wish u all the best in life…All the luck in all u'r future endeavours…for all that u do..for u'r relation wid shraddha..Do tell her I'll miss her..I know she'd kill me for not meeting her..buh plzzzzz pplllzzzzzzz pull on u'r puppy face when u go in front of her..n say sorry from my side..I'll talk to her sn…tell her I'll miss her..as I'll miss u..may be evn more than u..MAYBE..( now u dare not get jealous kkk)..always remember me..don't u dare forget me..samjhe..warna…Mr.Kickboxing Champion jante ho na mere NAILS kitne bade hai..lolzz..A part of us remains where ever we have been…so don't u dare say mein tumhe chod kar chali gayi..I'll always be there for u..bas dill se awaz lagana aur app hume apne samne khada payenge…

…May all the success be at u'r feet..may all that u ever wished for cums true…

Wishing u all the luck, prosperity, happiness, love n success…

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand.
So now I leave you without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground

Tumhari 4eva :~ Shilpu.....

Tap..tappp…tapp…moti jaisi badi badi bonde..uski baadi, dilkashi ankhoon se ludhak kar..fisalkar uske gore gore galoon se hote hue uske shabnami adhroon par jakar ruk jate..Big pearl like tear drops fell down from her large, beautiful, big, expressive black kohl filled eyes..eyes..goin thru her rosy cheeks…her cherry blossoms n then on to the letter..She had jus finished writing the letter n wud leave it here..safe n sound..she was sure that He'd read it..he will find it here..she knew it…she soo wanted to be there buh cudn't stay for long as she had to leave from there b4 he arrived from the shoot..she had to leave..as she knew she wudn't be able to face him..she had to leave…...tears continuously falling..she ran out..she had to leave…….b4 he came bac..or else…..

Writers Note:

For now..this is a thought to nurture n refresh u'r mind…..

'Tis said of love that it sometimes goes, sometimes flies; runs with one, walks gravely with another; turns a third into ice, and sets a fourth in a flame: it wounds one, another it kills: like lightning it begins and ends in the same moment: it makes that fort yield at night which it besieged but in the morning; for there is no force able to resist it.

Originally posted by: kvn1983

waoh another kash⭐️ ff its going to be superb😊😉 im so excited😊😉 plz continue it soon😊 and plz send me pm when u update😳 Awwwww Nidha di..thank u soooo very much for such a beautiful compliment..thanx a lot.....Well I hope mein apki umeedon par khari utroon.....Will surely PM when I update nxt...😳

"bewajah kisiko sataya nahi karte,
hadh se bhi zyada kisiko tarpaya nahi karte,
jin ki saans chalti ho aapke didar se,
unhe apne didar ke liye rulaya nahi karte".

WOOOOOOWWWWW!!!!!!THAT WAS G8888

Without You (KASH)
my mind stops thinking?
without you (KASH)
my lips stop speaking?
without you (KASH)
my night are sleepless?
without you (KASH)
my eyes stop dreaming?
without you (KASH)
my ears stop hearing?
without you (KASH)
my heart beats in distress

Same in here...it's the same case wid me..widout KASH Armaan n Riddhima r notin for me.😭..notin....

Love ya nidha di.....t.cccccccc

-Ur's Ever Madhu😳

Originally posted by: yachna

hey maddhu..Hello yachu di.. wow yaar nothr kash ff Hehe..shocked n surprised aren't u..wow yaar tumhara dimaag bhi na kabhi rukta nahi hamesha kuch na kuch imagine karti rehti THAT'S SOOOOO TRUE..yaar mera dimag kabhi imagine karna band nahi karta..not even in exam time...;lolzzzbt tts a part u know i cnt wait yaar plzzz cont soooooooon its gonna be superb nd snd me pm kkkkk awwwww thank u soooo much yachu di..thank u sooo much..U don't know how much boost hav I got wid u'r compliment..thanx a lot..

Luv ya jaanu....t.cccccc

-Ur's Ever Madhu😳
luv yachna

Originally posted by: swetha10

Hey Madhu cant wait to read ur FF............PLzz update n PM..............