Originally posted by: unicornhugs
I feel Bilal recognizes this about Sadaf and it’s why he’s hesitating to start a relationship with her. He also identifies how she’s viewing love as transactional. That isn’t how he views love. He laughed at her taking poison example. He already felt dead on the inside when she married Ammar, he didn’t need to put on a show to get her. I believe it’s also why he responded saying that he perhaps doesn’t have those feelings to make a higher offer or whatever.
Let me add these notes to my previous message: Sadaf and Amaar have one common trait – they are both liars. Sadaf was never in love with Amaar before marriage, and she wasn’t after marriage either. This lie of hers is the biggest barrier between her and Bilal. Bilal died three times because of this lie. He didn’t die when Sadaf rejected his marriage proposal, but he died when she said she loved Amaar. He died again when she married Amaar. Finally, when Sadaf believed that the downfall of her relationship with Amaar was her fault and drank again, she died once more. When Bilal hears that Sadaf was never in love with Amaar, he will die again. In this case, it will bring Bilal back to his old life. Sadaf has not fully understood Bilal's love yet. When Bilal says, 'I don't have much feeling left to buy you, I would rather drink poison and die,' and then says, 'I love Amaar,' it means 'I died when I said I loved you, and I died when I married Amaar.' I believe Sadaf will experience similar emotions. Bilal's constant rejection and his return to drinking will awaken these feelings in her, and I hope she will understand the depth of Bilal’s love.