Originally posted by: anu41982
@Bold - This question actually bothered me a lot too. When did her 'feelings' took 180 degrees turn. There was definitely no 'turning point' shown. It confuses you to no end, because you can keep questioning everything MJ does - Was she faking it? or was she genuinely putting her effort? What I have realised is Mubashira's thoughts do not follow a straight line - her reactions are always at extremes. Some where in early episodes (in one of her monologues, I think), she says that loyalty in her partner is what matters to her, not love. And she was actually ready to divorce Zaid many times and it was her dad who kept pushing her reminding the social stigma of a second divorce and forced her to compromise. After one of those reminders she genuinely went to Zaid and extended the olive branch - alas, the man was too gone. But Mubashira's effort, though was genuine, was not coming from her , rather it was a result of her father's emotional manipulation.
As per my opinion, there were two major instances where Mubashira went against her 'mein' directly to accommodate Zaid in her life - first, when she decided to come back to Zaid's home on her own and apologise Kash for misbehaving with her and second, when she went to Asif and asked him to go to Aira's house with the proposal - in both times she was at an emotionally very vulnerable state. The first one is seemingly unimportant, but I like to perceive it as an important turning point of her thought process. What triggered her to go to her father and to tell him that she want to be with Zaid and that too she wanted to go back in the night it self 9this was after their disastrous honeymoon, if I am not wrong)? She saw Mohib with his wife happily selecting clothes (clothes for a toddler?), then we see her thinking on her way back - now we did not get a monologue there. But I like to think what she saw made her sad and angry in equal, she was still becoming a source of gossip (she remembers what her father and brother were saying about her insanity, if I recall correctly), here her ex is happily in love with his wife. Some where deep down she wanted that too and Zaid was her one chance at that. She was totally vulnerable when she went to her father to make that request - almost a helpless child. I'd like to think that reaction came from a much deeper place than the 'I cannot be a second-time divorcee and what would people say' kind of a place. However, in her head, she neither values the concept of 'love', nor she wants it - so she brings it forward as her attempt to save her marriage. Same thing is true with her agreeing to Zaid and Aira's marriage and all her compliances in other situations as well. What I think is she is still plotting to save her marriage, but with each of her attempt she is gravitating towards him. Though she said she loves him, I don't think she has fully understood her feelings yet, let alone of the awareness of being in love. I agree with you that Zaid's unwavering loyalty and trust towards Aira have a huge role too - during that thod pod imitation scene when he said with so much confidence that 'it was a lie' she mentally stepped back, as she could not believe that kind of devotion! So what I feel is, we time to time doubt her feelings, only because she herself has not fully understood or acknowledged it yet - she has started to realise, but for a person who only has loved herself for a life time and has not believed in love, it may take a while. I believe a real game change moment, if they give us any, would be when she does something completely out of her character - a completely selfless act for him, then both you and me would be fully convinced - then both Zaid and Mubashira will realise her 'love' too. Just my thoughts.
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