Originally posted by: Gundamwing
Part 3 (Begum and KMK Back Home)
GUYS THIS IS JUST FIRST DRAFT I WILL EDIT IT FURTHER TOMORROW. TOO SLEEPY NOW.
Two things always consistent with MM. One they never fight in front of family, or let them interfere in their marriage. The other is that they only let obsessive lovers interfere in their marriage DUFFODSSSSSS. KMK defends his begum in front of fake parents and marches upstairs. Meerab tells her foster pops to buzz off, her husband is her only family and she only owes him answers.
Murtasim beast mode is only for others. Yes he can be frustrated and angry with her, but he will never cross the line again like he did with that slap. He wants to be the man she admires. He didn't want to talk he was raging, perhaps afraid of what he might say, but I am glad Meerab confronted him. He keeps his voice as low as possible, he was seething spoke too fast to even understand and with every word he was losing control fast, but he restrained himself not just for her sake but for her parents. She didn't lie about how she got to sticky notes place, it was coercion and she was tricked by a friend she trusted, that makes her foolish not a liar. Murtasim says he doesn't care how or why she ended up in sasta salman flat, that wasn't the main problem.
Meerab pointedly asked does he feel sharm or darr. Murtasim is feeling darr, but he cloaks it in sharm. His darr is three folds, first she put herself in harms way again, second another man professed his love for her, and lastly she didn't defend THEM. This is her running after baby goats 100 times worst. She doesn't know that he heard that phone conversation with Saba, what it must have felt like for him to hear a stranger say he is going to keep his biwi hostage, how frightened he must have been for her. Does she realize what he goes through when she is in danger, he told her during the kidnapping track that he dies every second. He didn't blame her for the kidnapping because she was ignorant in her joy, here she was just plain gullible.
The way he said 'make your character' sounded to me like he was chiding her saying 'you are better than this'. Your character isn't just your integrity, yes it is a big part of it, but it is everything else too that defines your personality like reliability, morality, wisdom, courage, intelligence, honesty, compassion. He knows she has all these qualities and more, he didn't mean her character failed her, but she making mistakes because she is naive has run its course. He is also reeling from the fake pregnancy drama, so he is now done with her immaturity.
Murtasim has different expectations from two different versions of Meerab. His 'Meri Meerab' the woman he adores can be bad as she wants to be, he will forgive her anything, he will spoil her, she can demand anything from him, she can be all Meerabish he will tolerate it and he will love her no less. But Khan Murtasim Khan (KMK) ki biwi is not allowed to cross the red line. He implied this in the car when leaving the first panchayat, Meerab can do anything but KMK biwi cannot. KMK izzat and jaan is his biwi Meerab, she is his pride and if she falters then he falls that means both their reputations are ruined. He also said he doesn't care what people think him but he will not her go down in esteem. If she compromised herself, society will blame her and that insults his love and even Meerab herself doesn't have the right to tarnish his love for her. Murtasim the husband is not asking Meerab to change, but KMK demands his biwi grow up and exercise better judgement.
She inspires him to rise to the challenge, and now he demands she does too. Ever since the walima slap he has taken a patient approach with her, trying to encourage her, keep her thinking positively, telling her she is Queen of the castle and she is capable of so much if only she allows him into her heart. But now no more he has returned to pre Walima MK, and he is putting his foot down. It is time for tough love for beloved begum.
Murtasim last two charges against her 'you were talking, Meerab, he was expressing his love for you, he was talking nonsense and you were listening quietly'.
In the privacy of their bedroom they can play I am not your biwi you are not my shohar games, but never in public will he allow such talk. Murtaism believes she didn't defend their marriage, and she just let another man say she is not his wife to his face. NOOOOOOOO this is a capital sin in Murtasim's eyes. Meerab did speak up for her marriage but Murtasim wasn't there to see it. As soon as Murtasim enters the flat from his POV everything is happening in slow motion and for Meerab it is all happening too fast like a car crash. While he thinks she had plenty of time to speak up she didn't.
His wrath that she thought it necessary to listen to another man talk about his love for her is unforgivable. He cannot accept this because for him only his love is worthy to be heard by her, anyone else saying those words diminishes his feelings. He isn't just another man in love he is Khan Murtasim Khan. Meerab is his pride he places her even above himself how can a mere mortal confess to his Queen, no one is worthy of that honour except KMK.
Why doesn't Meerab defend Murtasim's love for her in front of Sasta Salman, because she doesn't fully trust Murtasim, why doesn't she believe him is because he keeps his true self hidden from her. Meerab lost faith in the parents she loved that she thought she knew with all her heart, but what did they do they betrayed her. Given her past she can't trust a mystery box Murtasim. She needs to see him unmasked and uncloaked.
When Meerab caught him out with Haya, her instinct was to flee but she stood her ground, showed him her tears, her vulnerability, her pain and was honest with him. But Murtasim's reaction when cornered is to run and hide. In the fight in the room he didn't let her finish he just took off. He did this before as well post car accident, he yelled gooooooo because he was on the verge of a melt down and didn't want to cry in front of her. Is this a macho thing or is he frightened, yes he is frightened of being vulnerable around her.
Whenever her mood is off he is there to lift her up but can she approach him the same way. Does she not have the right or does he not allow it? She is the fuse that sets him off, twice when she tried both times he shuts her down, and this is a problem. Meerab doesn't see Murtasim like he sees her, because he doesn't allow it and if he wants her love he has to let his guard down. Murtasim for all his flirty advances doesn't love freely he holds back, whereas Meerab looks like she is holding back but when she gives in she will love bravely. He loves her more fiercely but she is the valiant one.
Part 4 (Murtasim grieving)
Murtasim outside going through the five stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. They are not in any sequence, it is unstable and dangerous like an active volcano ready to burst. He is angry trying to process that another man has said he loves his Meerab. The thought disgusts him and he doesn't know where to channel his wroth as he crushes the cigarettes.
Tears on his eyebrows glistened in the night highlighting his agony as he puffs away. Murtasim's belief that she loves him but just won't accept it is starting to slip away and his insecurities are feeding his depression. He was in denial before that he is content with just having her by his side, but today when another man held her hand he is forced to accept that if he doesn't have her heart, then anyone can steal her away.
He looks at the the gun and grabs it a symbol of violence, his good side is bargaining with his darker side, he slumps back in the chair looking dangerous as the volcano is ready to erupt. He holds the gun close to his face, he looks ominous as his dark side has won. He has decided that he will keep her by his side by hook or by crook, consent be damned as he fires the gun. Darth Murtasim wins Meerab watch out.
Conclusion Murtasim overreacted and Meerab underperformed. Neither are to blame, they were both wrong and right and that is marriage. Meerab is a mystery to us but not to Murtasim. And Murtasim is a mystery to Meerab but not to us. Meerab Murtasim call TBA we can exchange notes.
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