Chapter Seven
Prachi came and sat next to Angad placing her hand on top of his. He looked at with tear brimmed eyes. "Prachi I don't know what to do, sooner or later kripa will be awake, how will I face her after ---" he sobbed " I'm ashamed of myself prachi, how will I face her" his head lowered into his hands, with his elbows leaning on his knees.
Prachi's hand moved to his shoulder, "Angad, if you keep blaming yourself, you'll never be able to live in peace—"
She was cut off "I don't deserve peace" he exclaimed "I don't deserve peace" slowly turning into whispers.
"Angad, kripa was equally at fault, she's my friend and I know what you did with her was wrong but what she did was equally wrong, You can't live with this blame all your life and soon you and kripa are going to be parents, you have to comprise with the situation, you have try to work things out, once she's awake"
Prachi stood up and walked to the door where neev was standing with there almost one year old son, Arun in his arms. Prachi embraced neev, whilst he held her waist, both watching Angad stare at a motionless kripa. Whilst Angad drifted off once again with his memories.
Angad smirked, when he saw kripa's shocked expression, now she wasn't expected such a quick response, was she? but she didn't know who she had challenged. Angad may have seemed to be a sensible doctor but he was like a book at collage, he had the solution to everything, like how to make someone special say I do, how to make an evening special, how to save yourself from the professor, everything. He wasn't as innocent as he seemed.
"Angad, I'm proud of you son, you've made me more than happy today" his father beamed
"Dad, your happiness is my happiness, after all, I have my own selfish reasons for accepting, she's everything I wanted" he said looking at her dreamily while she glared at him.
And then he heard her speak impulsively "I don't want to marry him dad"
Everyone stood there stunned at kripa's rejection. How can she reject me? Angad thought, for that she would have to tell the truth and he was more than a hundred percent sure that she wouldn't make such a mistake.
"But, kripa, what happened, why not him?"
"Uh, um" kripa became nervous all of a sudden, maybe because everyone was gazing at her intently "Dad, uh, he lives all the way in America and my family, friends, relatives, everyone lives over here. How will I cope over there. There's a big difference from India to America, I don't want to take the risk, I mean god forbid, if something happens then how will I reach you"
"Kripa,there's no need to be nervous, I know how difficult it is to settle in a foreign country, we've experienced it, you were only four when we left, and Angad was seven, it took him almost a year to adjust, don't worry, it'll be fine" Angad's father assured her as he caressed her hair lovingly
"But there's still a difference, Angad was a child, but I'm grown up, I've seen the world and I'm mature, it will be much harder for me" kripa replied turning her face from everyone.
Angad's mother placed her hand on kripa's shoulder to comfort her, " Kripa, I understand, my experience may not be exactly like yours but after nine years of marrige I left for America, I left my parents, since then I haven't met them and now there no more, but your lucky, my parents couldn't afford to go abroad and we couldn't come back until we had the green card and when we did Angad became busy with his career, I've missed a lot, but I guarantee you that Angad will take you to India at least once in two years. If he doesn't then you can come to me. As for your parents, they can afford coming to America and they will come to see you, right Swati"
"Yes of course, come on now don't be stubborn, you should be happy your getting such loving in laws and --"her mother was interrupted
"a loving husband" Angad said slipping his arms around kripa's shoulder pulling her closer.
Kripa glared at Angad, pushing her elbow into his waist, while he suppressed his groan from pain, pressing his lips together. "Ok papa, I agree too, I was just concerned" Angad squeezed her in his arms, this time holding her elbow, whilst kripa silently struggled out of his grip.
The elders laughed at the couple, with joy, "Kripa it doesn't matter, there's no need to be shy" rajveer exclaimed.
Whereas, kripa embarrassed rushed up the stairs, straight into her room "She's too shy, she doesn't like me holding her in front of everyone" Angad explained flashing a grin.
Angad sat in front of neev and prachi, both looked depressed "ok, now that's it" Angad commanded "neev you read her diary, that was wrong of you and prachi you reacted stubbornly that's your fault, now neev why are you being stubborn?"
"I'm not, but whatever I said is true, she doesn't tell me anything, she doesn't share her feelings with me openly, she doesn't trust me, then how can she love me, she screams at me for small things and--"
He was cut off by prachi "neev I do love you and I trust you, I said I'm sorry, please forgive me" she pleaded with tears swimming within her eyes.
"Prachi, you always do that, you always be angry, always hide things, what do you expect me to think"
"neev please, If I didn't love you then I wouldn't come all the way from America for you, I'm sorry, I hurt your feelings and I always do, I don't even deserve you neev but you always---"
"Prachi, you do deserve me, we're both as stubborn as each other, don't ever say you don't deserve me, I'm sorry, I was being stubborn, I love you prachi" he said taking her in his arms
"I love you too, I'm sorry" she sobbed into his chest
"Ok, now if you two are done, let me talk now, I'm sorry, it was all my fault" Angad said looking at his friends.
"It's ok" they said together, wiping there tears, with there arms wrapped around each other.
A few minutes later prachi spoke "Oh Angad, in our fight we forgot about you, what were going to tell us in the morning and what was all that downstairs, I mean--"
"Well, I read kripa's diary and from that the only valid reason I find is her particular hatred towards men" he answered, taking a seat on the bed.
"Really, but then, why does she tolerate her dad?" neev asked foolishly
Prachi hit his head lightly "stupid, he's her father, why would she hate him"
"Yeah but then why is her father excluded, he's a man too and she doesn't---"
"Neev, fathers are different, you never see them like the rest of the world, they always have a special space in our hearts, after all they bring us up" Angad said "and for kripa, well, maybe her father has influenced her hatred but her father still plays an important role in her life that's why she's been lying to her parents, giving other men before me a hard time and kind of forcing them to reject her. That's what she's been trying to do with me" he slumped back and leaned against the headboard of the bed.
"How many men do you reckon she's given a hard time to?" neev popped out joking
"Don't be shocked but I'm her eighty forth one" Angad replied straight
Prachi and neev's mouth were half open "eighty four" they screamed
"Yeah"
"Freaking hell how did she mange eighty four guys" prachi exclaimed
"Correction, she managed eighty three guys, I'm the eighty forth and I'm going to manage her and that too for life"
Angad broke out of his thoughts with the feel of movement. He looked towards kripa but she was still. There wasn't a sign of movement. That's when he noticed his hands on top of her abdomen, her abdomen, where his baby was living, where their baby was living, that meant the baby kicked.
Angad got a little excited and spoke"kripa, our baby kicked, my baby, your baby, our baby, it kicked and-"and then reality sinked into him, the baby was the result of kripa's state, it was because of this baby, no, he said to himself, no, he couldn't blame there baby, it was him who was at fault, it was he who was responsible for kripa.
His head slowly lowered down towards kripa's stomach and his quiet, soft sobs, turned in to loud painful sobs.
Kripa felt giddy in her sleep, feeling the wetness of Angad's tears on her skin, whilst her baby sent sensations down her spine kicking her. Tears, that reminded her of her own tears, when she cried.
Kripa silently sobbed, in the corner of her room, how was she to refuse to her marriage, it had been almost two weeks since Angad agreed, just a week ago she went to her father gathering courage to tell him her real intentions, but he suddenly suffered a severe heart attack.
Thank god Angad was a doctor, he took control for a while, and her father survived. But then again, her father requested her marriage as soon as possible; she couldn't refuse her father and promised him to marry Angad. Now she would be imprisoned for life, for the sake of her father, she thought. She didn't want to get married but she didn't want to risk her father's life, she would never be able to face herself.
Today, the Indian priest was coming to fix the wedding date. Oh how she wanted to run away, but her fathers' illness had become her barrier and her defeat in front of Angad.
Kripa quickly washed her face, making sure the tear stains weren't visible. She enhanced her beauty, wearing light pink make up, with a hot pink and black salwar kameez.
As she stepped down the stairs, her eyes lowered, she heard her father call her.
"Yes Dad"
"Kripa, go and call Angad from his room, the priest has arrived, he's here, and he's waiting for you and Angad"
"Ok Dad" she turned herself towards the stairs again, going up the stairs, she turned right, and knocked on the door, there was no response. Again she knocked but there was no response.
What the hell, she thought, I'm not his servant, I'm not waiting for him, and she barged into his room, whilst he walked out the bathroom stripped to the waist, with a towel around his waist.
Kripa became nervous, and turned around to leave when he called "kripa"
"What is it?" she asked coldly, her back still facing him.
"You know, you can talk politely for once" he said rubbing the towel on his bare chest.
"Well, I don't want to, now get to the point"
He wore a black shirt with white and silver lines leaving the first three buttons open "all I wanted to ask is why were you knocking"
Kripa turned around "you mean to say you were" and shrieked, he was wearing his black jeans, thank god he still had the towel around his waist. She turned around once again, embarrassed.
Angad quickly shoved his jeans on, walking to her, he bent down towards her ear "get use to it, you'll see more of me after our marriage" he commented
She turned red with embarrassment "whatever, dads calling you down" and she escaped the uncomfortable atmosphere.
Downstairs, the priest had arrived; he sat in front of kripa, whilst kripa was simply stuck with all the eyes on her. She was just thanking god that Angad hadn't come yet, when he showed his face with that annoying smirk of his. I swear if he doesn't stop smirking I'm going to end up killing him kripa thought.
To her misfortune Angad came and sat right next to her, on the small, beige, two seated sofa. He lightly nudged kripa, who glared in return.
"What's your problem" she angrily whispered
"Hmm" he caught her hands in her lap "nothing, it's just that, you look beautiful, and I can't help myself"
"Oh shut up and keep your hands to yourself" she replied pushing his hands away.
"I don't—"
There small conversation was interrupted by the priest "The engagement will be five days from now and then the wedding a week after" he announced.
Angad grinned with excitement, while kripa felt flabbergasted, she wasn't expecting it this soon, but now that her father's health had pressurized her, she couldn't back out.
Kripa stood at the balcony of the terrace, watching the night sky with prachi blabbering on about how she just hated it in her dad's company since he was over protective.
"Kripa, are you even listening?" she finally asked, seeing a dazed kripa.
"Uh, well yes"
"Ok then tell me what did I just say"
"You were saying that your dad drops you off everywhere and he never leaves you alone"
"You weren't listening; I was talking about neev and my dad, where are you lost madam?"
"Nowhere, I'm just watching the moon, isn't it beautiful, with the stars accompanying it, it's just like a mother with her children scattered around her"
"Whoa, kripa, cool it, aren't you planning children too soon, your not even married yet"
"Prachi, I didn't say that, I still don't feel I'm ready, I'm not ready for marriage, I'm only doing this for my father's sake"
Prachi probably felt bad for kripa; well that's what kripa could see written on her face,
A while later prachi left, her lover boy neev had called for her. Kripa hugged herself trying hard to suppress the falling tears, when she felt someone wipe them.
To her surprise Angad stood besides her with the drops of tears on his forefinger. "Don't waste these, there precious" he said looking towards the tear.
"You're the reason for these tears Angad; I told you at the very start I didn't want marriage"
"trust me kripa, you wont regret this marriage, I know I've been a fool, and practically forced you into this marriage but there's something good behind everything" he turned around and wiped her tears with his thumbs.
Kripa broke down into his arms, sobbing violently "why Angad, why are men so selfish? Even you are, your forcing me into something I don't want and now I cant refuse due to my dad's bad health, why, why does this always happen to me?" she questioned, while Angad patted her back, comforting her.
A few minutes later kripa, realized her position, pulling out of his hold, she walked down the stairs, to her room, giving herself time to suppress her dreams and desires.
Faiza
Edited by *F^a^i^z^a* - 17 years ago
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