Lost Without You {AsYa FF} *on hold* - Page 22

Originally posted by: sj_qh_kabhi

Omg!!! The last part..! So excited to read further❤️

Thank you! Glad you're liking it! Btw, I have posted the prologue of the rewritten version of The Heart and the Mind. Here's the link!

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/160568873

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Wow…. I honestly thought Asad wouldn’t hurt Zoya like this….it’s breaking my heart! 💔

Heyyyyyy. *awkward silence* So... I'm sorry for the late chapter? In the last few weeks life had (and still is) taken it's toll on me. So hence the delay. I will try my best to update as regularly as possible from my side, but I can't give out any guarantees :\ Also, this is a pretty short one. Disappointing, yes, but all I can do right now is either give you guys long chapters which will take longer to write, or shorter ones which will come as regularly as possible. Please let me know in your comments!!!

Lost Without You

Chapter 18: Have A Little Faith In Me

He shut his eyes tightly, trying not to think about it. His fists clenched tighter than before around the railing. One of his hands rose to his face and he pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Again, who the f**k are you?"

"You know me, Khan. I'm the biggest baddest man parents warn their kids about. Ever heard of the Siddique clan?"

"Y-you're Gaffur? As in, Tanveer's father?"

"You're quicker than I thought."

"What do you want?"

"I want what's mine. And only you can get it to me. In exchange, I tell you what really happened to that dear mother of yours."

In irritancy, he readily said, "Deal."

The resonant sound of his doorbell brought him out of his thoughts. He whirled around and walked across the terrace which was also connected to the living room. Just as he entered the room, he saw that Tanveer had already answered it.

Cringing, he noticed that she was wearing only his shirt. A whole new trail of memories flooded his mind. Zoya Farooqui blushing after they'd made love. Zoya Farooqui standing in the kitchen, waiting for the Eggos to pop out of the toaster, wearing only his shirt and nothing else.

Just the thought of it made butterflies erupt in his stomach. Trying to peek from behind at who was at the door, he saw something that sank his heart faster than a ball of tungsten in the ocean.

He saw a pair of beautiful, honey brown eyes looking at him in disbelief. Brimming with tears. His heart shattered upon seeing her like this. But knowing that he had no choice, he put on a poker face and proceeded towards the door. He didn't stop until he was right in front of her, half a foot away.

"Yes?" He asked, as if she were a complete stranger. She closed her eyes, allowing a teardrop to make its way down her cheek. Asad clenched his fist to control his urge to pull her into his arms and soothe her.

Zoya shook her head in sadness and let out a soft sob. Tanveer smirked at her, watching from behind Asad's back. Zoya's eyes traveled back up to meet with Asad's for less than a second before she turned around and almost ran to the elevator. In the moment their eyes met, Asad could feel nothing but regret. Ayaan was right, he thought. He'd just lost someone that had ended up meaning a lot more to him than he'd wanted to, and it felt horrible. It was like losing his Ammi all over again. Ayaan was right about her, but...I have no choice! If I did, I would've chosen her undoubtedly. But now I...

He stood there, breathing hard and trying not to scream in anger. Anger at himself, and at that b*****d Gaffur. Why would anyone want to hurt someone as beautiful as her? Why her? He thought as he closed the grand main door behind him. I need to find out what he wants from her.

* * *

"I can't, I can't believe him! Why does he do this to me? If he doesn't want to be with me, why can't he leave me the hell alone in the first place? Why did he let me in, only to throw me out of his life?" Zoya snapped angrily at Mitch, who was looking at her sadly. She had evident tears in her eyes. She was raging and breaking at the same time. "Why does he act as if he's ready to commit, a-and as if he's in...in lo- oh god I can't even say it! And the worst part is, he chose to do it with Tanveer! She's going to play him, and trap him into marrying her and I don't..." She trailed off and threaded her hands through her hair in frustration.

Mitch sighed and said, "Listen honey, you just need to calm down! He's a d**k, we can't change that unless he himself wants it to. For now just...get your mind off him."

"That should easy while he's strutting around OUR office and is constantly visiting his gem of a father who practically lives right next door!" Zoya let out in one breath, sarcastically. She slumped down beside Mitch onto the small sofa and stared at the floor. Her doe eyes teared up again and her lower lip quivered. Noticing this, Mitch gently put an arm around her and hugged her. "Why am I never good enough?" She asked before letting out a long held sob into Mitch's shoulder. "Why does everyone leave?"

"Just let it all out darling." Mitch comforted. Zoya cried into his shoulder for an hour before they both fell asleep on the sofa. Mitch's shoulder was damp from Zoya's tears.

A knock on the door woke Mitch up. He looked down at Zoya who was still sleeping, he gently placed her head on the arm of the sofa and stood up to answer the door, rubbing his eyes as he did so. There was a knock again, it seemed to be of hurry. Mitch clicked the chain loose but didn't remove it from its latch, just to be on the safe side as it was pretty late. He looked through the small gap into a pair of chocolate brown orbs. He got a bit overwhelmed at first, but hardened his gaze later.

"What do you want?" He snapped.

"I-is...is she okay?" Came the worried reply. The concern in his voice almost melted Mitch. "Please...I need to know."

"What's it to you? Why don't you leave her alone now, go to the b***h you have laying in your bed." Mitch said angrily through the gap between the door and the frame, looking Asad right in the eyes.

"Can I...can I see her?"

"Why?"

"Please." He begged desperately.

"She doesn't even want to look at your face after what you did to her."

"I know. I screwed up okay? There's something else I need to tell her. Its something I think she deserves to know. And I don't care if she rejects me, but I just... don't want her to suffer any more because of it." Asad finally admitted. Mitch speculated for a moment and opened the door.

"She's asleep. Whatever you want to tell her, you'll have to tell me first." He folded his arms and sternly placed his eyelined gaze on Asad. Asad sighed and rubbed his hands down his face roughly.

He took a long pause before saying, "Fine." Mitch gave him a curt smile and stood in front of the door, not closing it fully so that he could go back in again.

"I...I did this because of..." Asad flinched, remembering Zoya's terrified face whenever she saw Gaffur.

"Yes?"

"B-because of Gaffur." He said and hung his head in shame. Mitch gasped and his eyes widened in horror.

"You... you're with that son of a b***h?! How dare you even-"

"Wait! Just...just hear me out. Please!" Asad pleaded. "I'm doing what he wants because I have no choice. I'll tell the whole story sometime later but-"

"But what? You just expect me to let you in because 'boohoo' you finally realised my best friends worth?" Mitch spat at Asad. Glaring at him with all the anger he could have. Asad calmed himself down.

"I realised her worth the moment I-" He paused. Realising what he was about to blurt.

Asad listened to the cold, shrewd voice emitting from his phone, "I'll send in the men, and Farhan. All you have to do is 'rescue' her."

"Isn't there any other way?" He asked. There was a small voice in his head that kept telling him to stop hurting her. That there were other ways he could find out more about the current mysteries of his life and hurting her wasn't worth it. That should he do this, he would lose probably the only woman he felt something about.

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The deed was done. Another lie that will follow him around like his own shadow. He poured the hot tomato soup into a bowl and placed the garlic bread slices on the plate. He worked in a daze. Gently lifting up the tray he went into the room where Zoya was resting.

He sat by her and watched her eat. His own mind bubbling with turmoil and conflict.

There were moments where he wanted to hold her in his arms. Comfort her, and tell her that he was sorry. What did she do to deserve this? Whatever Gaffur had put her through, he wanted to cocoon her, to protect her from all of it. He wanted to whisper in her ears, that she deserves so...so much better. He wanted to spill out the whole truth, and tell her not to fix hopes on him because she may just end up hurting herself more than she already has.

With this thought in mind, he later made love to her so passionately, as if he was never going to do so again. He didn't know it, but Asad Ahmed Khan had fallen in love.

"The moment you what?" Mitch asked raising a brow.

Asad shook his head. "The moment I realised I actually care about her."

"What do you mean?"

"I hadn't realised it, but while doing everything Gaffur asked me to, I...I think I actually fell for her. I can't stop thinking about her, wh- when he asked me to sleep with...with Tanveer I felt ...disgusted. You know? It didn't feel right. I thought I could manage it, since I'm known for being a player, but I was wrong. She doesn't deserve this from me. Hell she doesn't deserve anything bad that's happened to her. I need to tell her the truth, from my own lips." He finished and looked at Mitch desperately. "Please. Let me see her. I need to tell her that I'm sorry!"

"Mitch who's ther-" Came her voice from behind the door, but she paused as soon as she saw who it was. Asad looked into her honey brown eyes, he simply admitted to himself that he could look into them all day if he had the time.

"Zoya!"

That was whatever I was able to write whilst waiting in line for something important lol. I don't really get a lot of free time to write nowadays but I will try my best to update!!

Love y'all 💖

Hey. .thanks for taking your time and updating for us dear ..whatever the reasons might be manipulating Zoya was wrong ..I don't want her to forgive Asad soon

Poor Zoya…my heart broke with hers too…

I don’t think any reason is good enough to break someone like that…there’s always a choice and Asad made the wrong one. Zoya shouldn’t forgive him easily but we all know she will the minute he mentions his Ammi….

I can’t believe he actually slept with Tanveer…that’s so sick! Sorry I know it’s your story but I can’t help but feel all these emotions when it concerns Asya!

Originally posted by: kavyapramod99

Hey. .thanks for taking your time and updating for us dear ..whatever the reasons might be manipulating Zoya was wrong ..I don't want her to forgive Asad soon

Thanks for reading and waiting so patiently! I was worried y'all might've forgotten me lol.

And don't worry, Zoya is not one to quickly forgive people. She's stubborn xD

Love ya 💖

Originally posted by: fatima30

Poor Zoya…my heart broke with hers too…

I don’t think any reason is good enough to break someone like that…there’s always a choice and Asad made the wrong one. Zoya shouldn’t forgive him easily but we all know she will the minute he mentions his Ammi….

I can’t believe he actually slept with Tanveer…that’s so sick! Sorry I know it’s your story but I can’t help but feel all these emotions when it concerns Asya!

Yes Asad did make the wrong choice, but he wasn't really lying when he said he wanted to be in a relationship with her. He meant what he said, even though what he said was thought to be on Gaffur's orders. She won't forgive him, but...oh well keep reading to find out! 🤣

Love ya!💖

I am waiting for an update! Itching here!!!!

Awesome update! Thank youu❤️