Happy Holi Partner

Today's conversation was so intricate.

The part that stood out to me the most was Imlie's anger. She hates his close book manner. Woh apne zindagi ka har pehlu uske samne rakh chuki hai aur Aryan ne uss se itna bada sach chupaya. There were so many opportunities but he never shared the vengeance in his heart. He's an enigma that she can't wrap her head around and it sucks cause she wants to. She so wants to. She wants to be there for him. That day in the office when Aditya got stripped of his awards, she went to him and tried to hard to listen to him. She doesn’t want to doubt you Aryan, and the fact is, she doesn’t. Not entirely at least. She isn’t asking you to defend yourself or your intentions, she’s asking for reassurance. Is my heart right for believing in you, for believing in us? She’s asking for clarity cause her heart and her fears are in different directions.

But, everything he does is followed by a contradiction. dard dete bhi ho aur sehte bhi ho. For example, he's hurting Imlie by putting her into this marriage situation but he's putting himself in danger by saving her from Doll's attack (I presume acid), without ever expressing it as a favour. Ankho ko dekhne ke liya kehte ho aur phir khud unhe bandh kar dete ho.

I'd like to think she's worried for him, for everyone around him, and for them. The state of their relationship is in shatters, she wants to trust him and she does, unconsciously, she just doesn't trust herself enough. Imlie is underconfident in ways that matter the most. She jumps between thinking her success is Aryan's charity to his badla, not recognizing that she did it. She wrote an article that was front-page worthy, she became a writer because of that article and her junoon to get into the office. She learned of his revenge and automatically assumed that her accomplishments were rubbish, a part of that plan. And Aryan amazes me. I don't know whether to pity him or love him. He gets so angry when she thinks he's using her because he doesn't want her to think of herself in derogatory terms. He's said so many times with equal frustration and desperation, how could you think so lowly of yourself? And it wins my heart.

I'd like to think a part of her doesn't want this marriage to save him from himself. To save him from becoming her enemy. Cause she knows she means something to him and she knows her resentment hurts him.

Aryan becomes beside himself when the idea of Imlie leaving him comes to mind and I'm glad he's voicing that. Tum waapas aaogi na? And the way he expresses his complaints to her. He feels ignored, he feels unloved and he doesn't hide that. Tum chati ho ki main jaon when he lived at the Tripathis to her worrying about her chappal (jokingly) than him. Mr. ABP, I think you're forgetting the girl almost called an ambulance for you and was broken at the thought of your death so, I think that should come your insecurities and fears a little. There's so much more I can say on this but I have a paper to write 😭

The song

Kar jaaniye raanjhe, ho darr jaaniye ranjhe

I keep doing it, I keep getting scared

Upparon teriyaan sochaan, mar jaaniye raanjhe

Thinking of you all the time, it kills me.

These lines sum up Imlie's dilemma so well. It scares Imlie that Aryan's slowly becoming a part of who she is. He became her himat, he became her support, but she can put that off as a friendship. But this, this thinking of him all the time, quoting him without trying to, how can she pass that off.

Mera Ranjha, main raanjhe di

My beloved is mine, and I am his

The words 'apna' and 'partner' keep making their way into dialogues because it signifies the sense of ownership they have. They don't know how to define this relationship, partly because it terrifies them, and partly cause they don't understand it much themselves. but these words keep them together. Woh shayad Aryan ko kabhi uska Ranjha na bulaye, par usse apna partner bulana kabhi nahi chodegi and for me, that's more meaningful. Likewise, Aryan will never stop counting her in his apne.

Ranjha hai chit-chor

He is such a heart stealer.

Aryan definitely is. Imlie stares at her mom these days wondering what magic Aryan's done to her kyunki kabhi kabhi toh lagta hai ki Aryan Meethi ki alaud hai, Imlie nahi. He stole Meethi's heart and he's stealing hers, without her knowing.

Je karke wo mil jaaye ta, Ki chahida hai hor

If by doing anything we become one, I'd want nothing else.

When he coloured her today, they looked like one. The softness, the way he grazed her cheeks, it was like the most intimate way to colour someone.

Other thoughts:

• I wish we got to see the aftermath of Holi - everyone seeing the red colour splashed on Imlie's face (and maybe the yellow on Aryan's back) and teasing them about it. Imlie blushes when everyone asks how he cornered her cause she's thinking of their intimate moment. Aditya's face burning in jealousy.
• How will Imlie get away with that? Like how did she put that sheet layer on her hand without anyone thinking it's abnormal?

I love this breakdown. I definitely expected a lot more today and felt a little let down but the way you explained it is so beautiful! ❤️

Originally posted by: Juwii29

I love this breakdown. I definitely expected a lot more today and felt a little let down but the way you explained it is so beautiful! ❤️

I am let down too, because of the hasty jump to another ritual and because they’re going in circles. They’re no better off at understanding each other than they were two days ago. Those shikayats have been said before, those confusions have been felt before. What I see is two people breaking every second, and wearing the other one down while they’re at it. I need the other to start hearing those shikayats. Aryan, I know you’re trying to keep your promise to her mom but I need you to see the situation from Imlie’s eyes and hear what she’s saying. And Imlie, I need you to hear his insecurities and rid them with actions, not words. Defend him like you did that day to Aditya in the Mandir and choose him. Fight harder to be let in.

Yes i agree with you that i was let down with episode... I was expecting much more from past two days ....like yeh aayega woh bhi aayega but there was confrontation nothing else.. N they are running fast bcoz of ipl once it get started trp will definitely effect n this marriage track has to gain trp asap... Bcoz they are working hard.. I am little upset after aryan applied holi colour to her cheeks she feels something for him but next day she is again trying to escape from wedding or trying to not perform rituals of marriage... I just want before marriage they should sort of some of part of their MU that will make base for their new married life... Just hope this week some if MS they will get sort out... Just hope for best

How did you managed to sum up so nicely? The whole marriage track is in circles. Every ritual comes but their state of mind is same and so their shattered relationship.

But trust is still there somewhere so I hope it brings back the charm of their own bonding to them❤️

Was it just me that saw Imlie’s heart break a little more during the Ranjhaa sequence? She was so resolute the whole time to not let him colour her. But when he went against her will and did it despite her strong resolve, and that too after an emotional conversation where she poured her heart out again, told him she trusts him again, and begged him for reassurance again, she became helpless and resigned in that moment again. She couldn’t stop this too from happening, like everything else that’s happening. I felt like I saw her hopelessness. It was too sad.

Originally posted by: handlerxsaviour

Was it just me that saw Imlie’s heart break a little more during the Ranjhaa sequence? She was so resolute the whole time to not let him colour her. But when he went against her will and did it despite her strong resolve, and that too after an emotional conversation where she poured her heart out again, told him she trusts him again, and begged him for reassurance again, she became helpless and resigned in that moment again. She couldn’t stop this too from happening, like everything else that’s happening. I felt like I saw her hopelessness. It was too sad.

Than sadness she was overwhelmed with what happened. Did he really went a head to win this challenge or did he really mean it what he done?? She experienced something different which she don't know the word to mark it.

Originally posted by: gayatherry88

Than sadness she was overwhelmed with what happened. Did he really went a head to win this challenge or did he really mean it what he done?? She experienced something different which she don't know the word to mark it.

Really liked your post, it's super balanced and we'll thought through ❤️

Aryan...is becoming harder and harder to support, which sucks because I love him and he was my only draw to this show. His current behavior is so gaslight-y, it's painful to stomach. He himself calls what he's doing to her a betrayal, he's deliberately creating this illusion around her, and then is all upset and hurt that she's confused by his mixed signals? Come on dude, do better.

I was supporting his stance to not explain himself when she left the house, when she confronted him in the office, when she resigned, because she should have known better. But it's not self respect anymore, it's ego- why does he think all the previous goodwill still exists despite what he's doing right now? And the craziest part is, it shouldn't exist but it does...if only these two would actually talk.

Hope they rebuild the basis of their relationship, which is in complete tatters right now, because yikes!

Originally posted by: handlerxsaviour

Was it just me that saw Imlie’s heart break a little more during the Ranjhaa sequence? She was so resolute the whole time to not let him colour her. But when he went against her will and did it despite her strong resolve, and that too after an emotional conversation where she poured her heart out again, told him she trusts him again, and begged him for reassurance again, she became helpless and resigned in that moment again. She couldn’t stop this too from happening, like everything else that’s happening. I felt like I saw her hopelessness. It was too sad.

That’s the beauty of that sequence. It wasn’t sensuous, it was heartbreaking. Unlike Saturday’s episode, Aryan’s smile wasn’t mischievous, it was self-deprecating. No matter what she says, she’s at his whim and she’s miserable. I think that scene just shows how they’re both losing and unhappy in the situation they’re in.

In my post I talked about how Aryan is becoming a part of Imlie but the opposite is also true. It’s been true for a while that Imlie is a part of who he is and like Narmada says, when he lets his revenge destroy the purity of his soul and consume him, he’s also letting it consume Imlie, consume the part of him that’s Aryan&Imlie and that affects them both in ways that’s indescribable. At the end of the day, he and Imlie will be more destroyed that Aditya Tripathi will ever be of this badla.

Idc if he “used” Imlie to hurt Aditya but by bringing her closer to himself, by bringing their relationship into the mix, he’s made her collateral damage.