I always wondered why I felt so connected with your Shiva and guess the answer is here:
"I feared having my heart broken, and yet I stand here, alone, something I do not like but have to get habituated to." This is the connection
This is me and this is Shiva and I truly relate myself to whatever he said about how does it feel being alone. 
This letter to Raavi doesn't only have his fears but also an insight of what made him held onto her so much all these years. Although he named it as nafrat but na it was not that it was never
You were my only friend here, and now that you are gone
This broke me into tears 
I felt like giving a tight hug to him.
I can understand maami's reaction that's how parents mostly behave in such situations. So it's fine she is normal.
Coming to Raavi ki diary,
I always felt she somewhere had those feelings for him but never acknowledged them due to her pagalpan for Dev.
And this Because please tell me that I am not crushing on Shiva Pandya legit proves it
All I want now is them coming together with lots of khushiyan and love in their life. My babies deserves it
I so loved it Rochiiee!!
Sending a big virtual hug to you for being so thoughtful and amazing 

Edited by Nicky-nish - 3 years ago