OUR LAST MOMENTS
Chand ghadiyaan yehi hain jo aazad hain…
Raavi was sitting on her cot heartbroken as tomorrow was Shiva’s engagement with Disha, she remembers their marriage and events from their marriage till now passes through her eyes.
She was feeling like to runway from here as she was not able to absorb the pain she was suffering through. Everyone had departed to their rooms to sleep half an hour back.Raavi wanted to share her pain to somebody but, with whom, she questioned herself, she had no one by her .Raavi had an urge to go to their, sorry Shiva’s room for last time.This broke something in her heart.She walked to Shiva’s room.
Shiva’s condition was no less than Raavi. He didn’t want to get married again.His heart only belonged to his chipkali. But his mother was adamant him to get him married again, and his also Dhara bhabhi could not help him this time.He was thinking of her, what would be she thinking about this, is she happy or sad like him. He didn’t know but it was late now. Nothing can be done.
Thinking that it written in their fate, he decided to call the night. He saw Raavi coming towards the room so he quickly closed his eyes pretending to be asleep.He did not have any idea, why was she coming to the room, to sleep with him ? No Shiva that can happen only in your dreams.Had she left something of her as today morning his mother had ordered her to shift her belongings from his room as their room now his room will be belonged to him and Disha. He had not interacted with Disha much nor he was interested to.
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
Yun hi pehlu mein baithe raho
Yun hi pehlu mein baithe raho
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
Raavi entered the room to find Shiva sleeping on the floor. She came sat near him on the floor.
She looked at Shiva trying to memorise his features for last time because from tomorrow she couldn’t, he will belong to Disha now. This ached her heart. Though Disha was a kind girl, Raavi hated her and was jealous of her. She caresses Shiva’s cheek with her soft palms and remembers the slap.She feels guilty and hurt for slapping him that day.Shiva felt warmth of her palm spread over his cheek.
Her eyes moistens.“Kya se kya bann gaye hum Shiva, sab theek chal raha tha hamare beech lekin jabse Sneha mili hume market mein tabse tu gussa hai mujhse lekin Shiva mein usse dosti tod di uska number bhi block kar diya, lekin tu kyu uski baaton par apne dil par le raha hai woh pagal hai woh tujhe nahi janti lekin mein janti hoon tu kaisa hai.Hamari shaadi ki baad hi mujhe ehsaas hua ki logo ko unke bahari roop se nahi dekhna chahiye na hi parakhna chahiye . Aur maine bhi woh galti Dev ke saath ki mujhe laga tha ki woh accha insaan hai jo mera dil kabhi nahi dukhayega lekin woh swarthi hua jab usne mujhe mandap mein chod diya Rishita keliye abhi uska mujhe koi gham nahi hai lekin tab mera dil zaroor tuta tha ,aur tere saath bhi mein galt kiya tujhe judje karke lekin tune hamesha mera saath diya mandap mera haath thama, kidnapping ke waqt meri suraksha ki aur kandar mein meri jaan bhi bachai. Shiva Dhara di sahi kehti hai tu khara sona hai aurr tera jo dil hai woh bada hai kyuki maine dekha hai woh tera pyaar tere parivaar waalon keliye .Tu bohot accha insaan hai Shiva.”She smiled while saying the last line.
“ Tune meri diary padhi tab se sab bigaad ne laga.Shiva woh meri shaadi ke pehle ki diary thi aurr tujhe bhi pata tha usmein woh mein jo likha tha woh shaadi ke pehle mein sochti thi.Maine tujhse kitna samjhaya ki hum nayi shuruaat karte hai , nayi yaadein bana sakte hai ki puraani yadein hum bhool jaate. Phir tune mujhe ignore karna start kiya, tujhe bata nahi sakti ki mere dil ko kitni takleef hui Shiva. Mera purana wala Shiva kahi Kho gaya, jo mujhse masti karta tha jhagda karta tha mujhe chipkali aurr chudail pukaarta tha. “ She said these while remembering their moments before they met Sneha.
“Uske baad mein kitna try kiya ki humare beech sab theek ho jaye pehle jaise, Shiva iss shaadi ko mein mauka dena chahti thi.Lekin tujhe adjustment nahi karna tha. Shiva shaadi mein chote mote adjustments sabhi karte kisi ki bhi shaadi perfect nahi hoti aur mein jo karne jaa rahi thi woh khushi se karna chahti thi Shiva na ki koi jor zabardasti se.Lekin tu meri baat sunne aur baat karne ko tayaar hi nahi tha. Phir Yatra mein mere friends mile phir teri aur unki ladaai hui,main nahi janti ki uske piche ka karan Shiva lekin tune mere character par sawaal uthaya Shiva, main nahi chahti kisi gentlemen ko mujhe tu chahiye tha,tu Shiva tere se har judi hui baat chahti thi mein. Aur meri self respect ko tech pohchi isliye gusse mein aa kar mein tujhe thappad mara .Pata hain Shiva mujhe nahi maarna chahiye tha thappad sabke samne bhale hi tune mere character per sawaal uthake ke galat kiya , aur usko mein regret bhi karti hoon , tujhse maafi mang thi hoon mere galti keliye,Plaese teri chipkali ki maaf karde”She bent towards his face and gave him a kiss on his right cheek, not lingering her lips for long,after she said.
Hayee marr jayenge hum toh lut jaenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zidd naa karo
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
“Lekin tune gusse mein aakar hamari shaadi khatam kehkar uska apmaan kiya, Shiva shaadi bhale hi zabardasti se hui thi lekin kya hamari shaadi tere liye kuch maayne rakhti thi ?” She asked him painfully though share knew he is asleep but that was bothering her. “Shiva jab mein maasi ke ghar gayi, tujhe nahi pata mein kitna royi mujhe teri kitni yaad aayi Shiva Agar tu ek baar sirf ek baar mujhse maafi mangta na toh mein daudi chali Pandya Niwas lekin Shiva maine divorce ke bare mein ek baar bhi nahi sochna tha lekin tune mujhe divorce papers bhej diye. Shiva kya main itni buri hoon ? Uske baad bhi mein woh papers sign nahi karna chahti thi lekin Maasima ne mujhe zabardasti Pandya Niwas lekar aayi aur waha tamasha kiya phir bhi maine yeh divorce papers apne dil par patthar rakhkar sign kar diya kyuki tune kaha tujhe mujhse mukti chahiye aur mein tujhe iss rishte mein zabardasti bandh ke rakhna nahi chahti mein dekh hai jab mein tere saath nahi rehti tu muskurahta hai hasta hai khush rehta hai lekin mere saath tu yeh kabhi nahi tha”She cried saying this, she could not give him happiness he deserves, what type of wife she was thought.
Tum hi socho zara kyu na roke tumhe
Jaan jaati hai jab uth ke jaate ho tum
Jaan jaati hai jab uth ke jaate ho tum
Tum ko apni kasam jaane jaaaa
Baat itni meri maan looo
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
Aaj janae ki zidd na karo
“Divorce sign karne baad maasima ne pandit ji ko kaha mere liye rishte dhundhne keliye lekin mein unko bol diya ki mujhe dusri shaadi nahi karni kyuki main tere saath jeena chahti thi Shiva, tujhe apna banana chahti thi, teri hona chahti thi… aur yeh saare khwaahish bas khwab ban ke rahe, toh bhi sahi. Par kisi aurr ke saath main yeh khwaab dekh bhi nahi sakti hoon Shiva”
Shiva felt like he was on top of the world when he listened to her words, he did not believe that she wanted to his only the same way he belonged to her only.
“Aur jab tune Mataraani ka aashirwaad lekar woh tikka lagaya , mujhe laga ki hamara rishta theek ho sakta hai lekin woh meri aasha ki kiran kaki ne mujhse cheen li jab teri dusri shaadi karwane ki thaan li. Main yeh sab tere samne kehna chahti thi lekin woh Haq aur waqt dono mein gawa diya.
Lekin Shiva teri jagah meri zindagi mein koyi nahi le sakta, tu hamesha mere liye special rahega”She wept silently to prevent waking him up.
Shiva wanted to console and comfort her by taking her in his arms but before that she kissed his forehead and got up. She observed their room, their bed they shared for the last time.Shiva slowly opened his eyes for watching her actions. He saw her going towards the cupboard and she opened it and after shuffling through it. She took out the black shirt she had gifted him and his light blue vest.He didn’t understand her actions. “Shiva yeh shirt main tere liye laayi thi iss khayal se nahi ki tu gandi shirts phenta hai lekin iss wajah se ki tujhe woh Gaumbi ne laayi hui light purple waali shirt pasand nahi aayi thi .Bohot pyaar se laayi thi tera favourite colour hai na black lekin tu ne kabhi pehna hi nahi lekin theek hai main ab yeh mere saath lekar jaane wali hoon aur kya main teri yeh light blue colour ki ganji lekar jau ismein teri mehnat ki khushboo hai ab kal se toh mera tere par koyi Haq nahi rahega aur nahi teri yeh mehnth ki khushboo main ehasaas kar paaoongi lekin yeh toh le ja sakti hoon na tujhe pata jab main pag phere ke waqt mera bag pack kar rahi thi tab usmein yeh aagayi thi galti se uss waqt nahi leke gayi thi lekin iss baar lekar jaungi. “She said while smelling his vest which gave her comfort.He quickly closed his eyes when she turned facing him now and motioned towards their door while weeping silently.
Waqt ki qaid mein zindagi hai magar
Chand ghadiyaan yahi hai jo azaad hai
Chand ghadiyaan yahi hai jo aazad hai
Inko kyon kar meri jaane jaa
Umr bar na taraste raho
Aaj jaane ne ki zidd na karo
Yun hi pehlu mein baithe karo
Yun hi pehlu mein baithe karo
Aaj jaane ki zidd na karo
Raavi with tears in her eyes was walking towards the door but Shiva held her wrist and she got shocked being caught by him.Did he hear everything she said or did he woke up by the noise of opening of the cupboard, she thought.She started to wipe her tears to hide it from him.
Then he gently turned her as if she was a glass which would break if not handled properly and then softly brushed his thumb to wipe her tears as her tears effected him a lot.
He hugged her tightly, first she stiffened then relaxed.Shiva gave a peck on her forehead.They stayed in that position for some time. Shiva broke the hug and lead her towards their bed.Then he apologised for his accusations and told her that he never meant them but his anger took him to say that. He opened up to her about his feelings from haveli time till now, about his insecurities and how he wanted their marriage to work out.Raavi was shocked listening him, she felt guilty for calling him names and insulting him various times.She doubted if she deserve the love and care of such selfless man but she brushed it off by promising herself that she would give this man every happiness he deserves.
They were sitting together in each other’s arms on bed, thats when Shiva looks at her with glint of mischief in his eyes and imitates Raavi “ Ek jawaan ladka aur ek jawan ladki jinke beech rishta hai ya nahi yahi nahi pata woh iss tarah se iss kamre mein akele ek dusre ke saath“while she pouts at him but then gets up while Shiva says in middle of his laugh “Aree kaha ja rahi hai chipkali main toh mazaak kar raha tha” .While Raavi goes and opens their cupboard takes out some papers and comes back to Shiva.Standing near Shiva she tores the divorce papers and says “Pati aurr Patni ki ek saath kya badnami “Shiva smiles remembering when she had said the same during their walk at night at Haveli.“Toh tujhe yeh bhi pata rahega ki pati patni room mein kya karte“Shiva says by pulling her by waist and eyeing her lips.Raavi is surprised to see Shiva’s this side but then god knows what comes to her mind she loops her hands around his neck and pecks his lips. It would be an understatement to say Shiva was shocked, as he had expected Raavi to blush and run away or hit me playfully. Even Raavi was surprised with herself for doing that but she didn’t regret nor felt uncomfortable.She quietly made her way to sleep in his arms.Shiva happily embraced her .Both of them closed their eyes feeling peace after a long time and dreaming about their beautiful future together.
The end which leads to the beginning of a beautiful journey of love and passion.
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Guys this is my first OS.I will be very grateful to Sathya ❤️for helping and encouraging me to write it.I would love to read your reviews.Criticism is welcomed.Thank you Swastu, Pooh and Monika for encouraging me to write the story.😊
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