Episode 28
Before I write anything, I will just say that it felt so good that finally they started the real journey, which was about Farhad and which is supposed to be about his love and loss, I had lost hopes that we would ever get a proper unfolding or build up of how he transcends from a bitter soul to a more humble one, but well we are lucky that we are getting one, and the episode was indeed beautiful, things happened so subtly that I felt like all the pieces were perfectly fitting the empty puzzle.
Farhad's first scene of that terrace eye lock and that immediate shock which his eye beholds and slowly it flows through his entire body like a slow poison, that disbelief that he actually saw Mahi again, and I loved how subtle it was, like he did not drop the water container or the tanweez from his hand but indeed ran with the stuff still tightly gripped in his hands, that was a minor one but I loved that continuity. I did not expect a one to one mini introduction between Amma sai and Farhad though, but it was pleasant that his whole body was outright shaking, his voice was shaking, he felt terrible to even make an eye contact with Amma sai, and the way he mumbled and blabbed out 'ye tanweez and paani, take it and blah bla', like the way his shock was so visible and convincing, kudos, I love the fact that how a minor scene left a huge impact, I like how Amma sai also felt that it was unusual the way he looked in a hurry to leave, also the emphasis on how young he was and how he embraced the life of a jog was kind of a reminder that such people are usually considered to be different because they end up as being devotees.
One of the major points of the episode was Farhad learning about the epic death of Taimoor, boy how badly i waited for this and how I am glad that they blended it in between all the shock he suddenly received, because that would have a greater impact I believe. I loved how when the guy who starts saying that 'Mahi is unlucky and all', Farhad just cuts him off, shuts him up and without any delay 'Ladki ko kya huya bolo', like he was so pissed and desperate that he did not want to hear about anyone but his Mahi, even the thought of Mahi being unwell or upset had triggered all the nerves, and as soon as he hears that she is a widow, the very first thing he does is look at the mazaar with his ice cold eyes visibly moist but with a reflection and reminder of the curse which he himself gave her. Isn't it ironic that at times we do not realize that how much our words can damage our own existence and conscience unless fate hits us this badly? I liked how once again he did not go berserk being melodramatic, but subtly went into that zone of silence, where the curse echoed in his mind and he gets jolted, shakes his head, nods his head and is trying to tell himself that 'No, this cannot be true, I cannot do this to Mahi'. It broke me, because Farhad visibly never wanted anyone to die, that too not someone who could define Mahi's colorful future , here a man who was tormented that his plea and love was mocked, gets traumatized with a harsh truth that somehow his curse of seeing the woman suffer has ended up being true, what can he do? What can he say? How can he take this? I really have no answer, but keeping all my bias aside, I do not think that after trying to hide himself and cut himself completely off from everyone, he needed another reason to go into more ruins. I mean yes he definitely needs to regret the curse which he is and he will, but knowing how the entire tragedy has played out and how Mahi has indeed not suffered a heart break, the curse's effect being redundant just as his prayers were, everything makes me say that if Farhad's plea for Mahi was never heard that his curse wouldn't be heard too, if Allah did not fulfill an innocent heart's love, then no way he would fulfill that heart's curse, there is no bias in His doors, which everyone is sure here. The way he sees flashes of the library conversation and then her terrace face, her widowed self reflecting in front of his eyes and then he just hides his face, everything is more like he himself is in denial that whatever he learnt can be true. he had nothing left with him, only his love and her bead, today his love itself looked like escaping away from his existence, because neither he can unlove her, nor can he stop her suffering, nor he can take his curse back, and he cannot even witness all this, it is more like suicide would be a better option than being in a situation where you hate what you suffered, but you hate yourself too, you want to fix someone else but you are damaged beyond repair to do anything now 🥺
I like how Mahi stopped remembering the curse, and remembers a happy and full of life Farhad when she holds the tanweez, the only object which reminded her of his presence, and then at the end when she again sees his traumatized face in her mind, she feels like a part inside her broke, I liked how she is so restless and cannot process that how can someone love her so much? What did she ever do to get infected with someone's immense affection towards her? I love how for the first time, his suffering is bothering her and not the curse, she idealizes the baddua because she is guilty but it is only his suffering that triggered her, she cannot tolerate seeing him suffer every second like a homeless in her love and it bothers her because she acknowledges his love, I have no doubt in here, whether she accepts or denies her feelings, I am very much clear that his come back and his suffering triggered the dormant affection she always had for him, as i had always claimed, he was the first man to ever do everything for her, be it a silly prank, be it his ever so silly and daring love confession, be it risking his whole life and career just for her acknowledgement or even the fact that he gave her worst misery too (baddua), he is her everything, a woman can be very strong, but she can never ignore or forget her first love, first crush, first date, first kiss, first moments, these are very subtle and life changing events for anyone, I have always said that Farhad was the first boy with whom Mahi shook her hand with, it cannot be as simple as they showed, it had to be heightened, just how Farhad himself went berserk over that handshake, it had to be vice versa, but the writer sadly did not think putting depth into Mahi. I am glad, how not only Mahi but even Sahiba said that 'Farhad's condition has jolted me too', it was a collective guilt, they know that they somehow contributed in the ruining of a completely faultless man, and cannot undo it.
Now, the scene that was indeed the most valuable and the best one of the episode, the entire conversation between Farhad and Baba sai. Let us give credits where due, Farhad my boi has no chill literally 🤪, he is possessed by our souls and no wonder why even after his stupidities, we connect with him the most. He asked Baba 20 questions today 🤣, Aap kon hai, kyu kiya aise, kaise jante hai mere bare mein, ishq huya apko, mai kaise yakeen dilau, ishq kya hota hai, kyu milaya usse mujko, kya milega aapko?..I was like, my boi please ask him that does he also know about the curse? 🤣.. For a moment i thought, Farhad asked so many questions because he himself thought that whether everything was really happening to him? Matlab Farhad was more like in a trance that how did everything happen so smoothly and how his life again went upside down 😭
Baba sai genuinely cares for him, he knows that how Farhad is half dead and as he said, being half dead is worse than being completely dead, killing yourself to decrease your suffering is more like cancer, it eats you up slowly and causes you immense suffering and Farhad does not deserve one, he needs to face the cause of his suffering and let go, and it has started.
I am glad that Farhad clarified here, he came to the shrine so that nobody can ever mock or dhutkaro him again and he even said Baba sai that 'If people see you are mentoring me, then you will be humiliated too', this broke me, that he actually thinks that anyone connected with him will also face the humiliation which he did, not once but multiple times, it is just so unfair 🥺
Baba sai repeatedly telling Farhad that love is true when your heart has no malice, and when you keep loving beyond consequences and desires, Farhad was stunned that how can one love and not ask for it in return, Baba sai ensures, love is the purest form of emotion, a heart which loves unconditionally conquers the love which is beyond expectations, it was a beautiful way to make Farhad realize that he expected too much and he has to let go. Did you guys notice that how when Baba sai tells that a heart with dishonesty and lust cannot love and Farhad immediately looking down at his heart? Farhad was taken into another zone where he immediately asked himself that 'Was I dishonest or lust for anything?', I really loved that bit. I love how Farhad in his mind keeps questioning that 'Why me?, why was I chosen to be the one, did I ask for this'?, but sadly that is the beauty and as well as the misery of this story, we all suffer through big losses and ask Him that why us, we will never know, may be Allah chooses his favorites to test them the most, Farhad is just another one like that. The best bit of this conversation was Farhad asking 'How do I prove that my love was genuine and not dishonest'? and Baba sai responding, that you do not need to, it is not necessary that everyone will see the goodness in you, Allah has seen it and love is love, acceptance or rejection, you cannot and should not ever expect for consequences. It was a beautiful insight and a very articulated lesson for Farhad to transcend into the zone of ish e haqiqi which has started only now. I am glad that Farhad's spirituality is not about losing his love and banging his head on a prayer mat, but it is more like a process here, where everyday the tragedies in his life makes him hit a new emotional low only to be healed by valuable lessons by the mentor here. And it is no shocker that Baba sai is indeed healing Farhad here, the Farhad who had killed himself is actually asking questions and looking for answers. Farhad and Baba sai are the main leads of this story and not Farhad-Mahi, so here goes our answer to the question that what kind of love story it is, it is a love story between a heart broken man and his rebuilding the foundation of faith in the supreme power, and Baba sai is the one who is influencing the central lead Farhad here, Mahi is a trigger only, and she will always remain integral to Farhad's ishq e mujazi.
I loved the episode, Feroze-Noor Hassan has some subtle chemistry as the mentor mentee, and at times I feel like their conversations should last longer given how genuinely insightful it has been today, we all knew these lessons, but at times it feels so good when the hero of our story takes the seat of a listener and becomes the face of the audience where we can get hope that yes creator exists and we must ask and ask and never doubt his greatness. I am so glad that the writer has not only cleared that dua-baddua is all superstitious and any normal human being has no power to change fates, but he has also established that restoring of faith and trust in Allah does not need any age or phase, it only needs a little self insight and self reflection, we all have both good and bad, we always choose the good side because we know that some day we have to answer Him and disappointing Him is our worst fear.
I wrote so much that my finger tips are sore now, I will stop here🤪 and if I have missed anything, will write again
Edited by SteFanSalvaTor - 4 years ago
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