Originally posted by: Sairat
I never thought , I would share this but..Its shameful but its true.. I understand what you are saying because a woman appears strong , people think she cannot be manipulated..I was once in the same situation as Sai and I have lived that hell hole for complete two whole years and it took extra 4 years to take the courage to try and rebuild myself again.
It was after total 6 years when I was able to leave and not look back, in those 4 years yet I knew , I should not have expected anything from that person, at even every normal gesture my hope would rekindle only to be dashed next moment.
I am telling you this so you understand..
I will not give you details because even today after 6 years of moving ahead , I cannot share it but I will try to make you understand the POV.
When Sai aaba died he gave her responsibility to Virat and that alone gave expectation to Sai that this man was chosen by her father ; and after marriage whqtever she says about Aai or anyone the only relation she has is with Virat every other relation comes from him or with him..and
Having a single person in this whole entire world, even strong people need that anchor or more likely they start thinking of that person as an anchor after being repetetively hurt , they go back to that person because that person gives her the sense of belonging.
And yes intelligent woman like Sai, me and others do pretty stupid things to get their validation , to just make them tell , yes they are as important to them as Virat is to her..
That is the reason Sai craves Virat's acknowledgement , her mind says Virat can never be hers but that heart looks for hope in every cranny, to look for the relation which is sometimes not even there.
Its a constant battle heart and mind..
This is not even the worst part unknowingly, you give these people a pedastal in your life which they do not deserve and they knowingly and unknowingly use it for worse..
They do not even realise but the number they put you through well its suffice to say
Death looks a lot better prospect at manier times.
And its like a never ending cycle where you are keep getting sucked at the centre.
The things takes a turn for worse when the person who is your only living kin gives the authority to someone else to hurt you by not protecting or giving in the other persons manipulation.
And I know because I speak from experience, nothing hurts like the one person who is supposed to be your saviour keeps mum when someone hurts you infront of them and sometimes joins them to hurt you.
I don't know if that is a age thing because I renember being 18 when it happened to me and it struck me to move out ..but the courage took another 4 years.
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