VANI OS :-
Hey guys this OS will be continuation from the previous episode after Veers behaviour towards Bani
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The feeling of being ignored is one of the worst feeling which can bring down one’s confidence, strength and make them feel so low. It make us feels unwanted or unworthy to spend a minute with .
The biggest pain that strikes your heart directly is when you are being ignored by loved one.
The one who was behind her , beside her all these days is now not even near her.
He hates to see her or even to stand in the same place as her.
He was one of the most important person in her life whom she fears to lose after her Meera di and Chachu.
Her Chachi has always hated her and taunted her. Even after trying these years she couldn’t create a soft spot in her Chachi’s heart. No matter how much effort she tries to put , she could never get along her sisters - Mehek and Dehek. She has always been ignored by them.
Was she so bad that everyone who she loves start to leave her ??
The only person who was constant in her life for a long time is her Meera di. It’s one of the reason why she is so attached to her .
Is it really her fault that she grew up without the prior knowledge about feeling - the feeling of an feeling , realisation of a feeling, embracing a feeling , acceptance of feeling, rejection of feelings.
After a lots of ups and downs , confusion , inner turmoils she finally came to the conclusion. To accept her feeling and move on with her Veeranshu. But looks like fate has another plan.
Sometimes it make me think that Would he have done the same if she was the old fierce bani ?? Is he doing this because she is melting. ??
They say ignorance is bliss , but is it really ??
Every coin have two sides , similarly the outcome of being ignored - becoming more weak or emerging as a strong person.
Which one is she going to choose ??
Is she going to be coward and run away from this situation or face this strongly ??
She recollects all her moments with her Veeranshu - when he was strong in the decision of marrying her against his dad , when he protected her Singhanias found about Teers and Monil’s death , when he was fighting against his mom for her.
In all those situations even he had options to fight or ignore. But he fought for her , his love , for them.
When he can fight for their relationship, then why can’t she ??
Even when you have misunderstood & treated him badly and ignored him. He fought for their relationship.
No Bani you can’t give up without trying , when you ignored him all these days , did he ever give up , NO. Then why should you ?!
She leaves to talk to Veer because no problem can be solved without having a proper conversation.
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In their room,
Bani : Veeranshu , what has happened to you ?? You were fine in the morning and now what had gotten into you that you are behaving like this ??
Veer : why do you care ?? I will behave according to my wish . Why do you want me to control me also like that dhabewala. ?? In fact you were asking right , what happened to me .... just now I understood all the things happening around me , look how blind I was all these days.??
Bani : why are not answering straight to my question ??
Veer : oh really , I heard that you don’t like straight forward answers??
Bani : Veeranshu please ....
( she goes towards him )
Veer : Stop right there . Don’t even think of coming near me . You have lost that right. There is nothing between us now.
Bani : Oh really , do you really think that our relationship is over ??
Veer : I don’t think , it is. And anyways two shapeshifters from two different clan can never be together. Mainly us because we are mortal enemies. And will remain the same.
Bani : then what about your feelings , the bond between us ?? And why can’t two shapeshifters of different clan be together. We can create a new history together. And feelings doesn’t know about different clans.
Veer : If there is something between us then there is only one feeling of hate. And yes we will create a new history of Hate - a new way of hate, anger & revenge.
And now just leave from here before I do something.
Bani : Veeranshu, even if you wish you can’t hurt me.
Veer : Why not . Just because you are Adinaagin doesn’t means that you are superior to everyone. Don’t forget that I more powerful than you - the prince of Cheel.
Bani : why are you taking different meaning of everything I speak.
Veer : oh really.
Bani : what I meant was not because i am a Adinaagin, it’s because of the trust & passion you have in our relationship. I also know that , it’s not you the real Veeranshu.
Because he can’t behave like this with me , and never do.
Veer : are you taking about that relationship which was ended few hours ago ??
Bani looks on
Veer : let me remind you something Mrs. Oops so Miss. Bani Sharma , you doesn’t mean anything to me. You don’t even have the right to speak to me , you don’t deserve a happiness in your life and most importantly you don’t deserve me. That dhabewala loser will be the perfect match for you. And the day you will leave this mansion , from my life will be the happiest day of my life. I don’t even care even if you live or die. Just get lost.
Veer leaves the room in anger.
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Bani who listened to his words was really hurt. Was he her Veeranshu??
Tiny little drops of water starts to fall on her face. Those little tear droplets felt heavy on her. She couldn’t face this Veeranshu. No matter how much hard she tried to pretend , to be strong , she couldn’t. No bani you have to be strong to get back your Veeranshu back.
She kept on trying different ways to know the real reason behind his weird behaviour and to convince him. But all her attempts went in vain. She arranged a simple dinner date to surprise him , but thanks to his brothers that he went to a late night party and came to next day by when the arrangements were spoiled by the heavy rain and wind. Then she again tried to initiate a conversation with him , which was again foiled due to his business meeting. And whenever she tried to talk or do something for him all she got in return was an insult along with his taunt. his new rude behaviour was something she could accept. So finally she decided to pen down her thoughts and feeling.
She wrote a letter to Veeranshu and kept it in their room. With the gift she bought- the couple rings which got made exclusively for them. And left the room remembering all the moments they had in that room. Who knows , will she be back to his mansion or not. After taking a final look of their room and mansion she left the mansion.
Veeranshu who came to the room after spending his time alone in the woods , found the letter in the bed with a small gift box. He looked around the room for his Sweetheart....sorry Bani. But after finding that she is not present there. He began to read her letter.
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“Dear Veeranshu ,
I am writing this letter to let you know my feelings. I know I have been very arrogant and rude to you in the past and i seriously don’t know how did you withstand my behaviour. But I am sorry I just couldn’t bear your anger and hatred towards me. Maybe it’s because I have always seen another side of you. Even if I try to accept your new attitude & behaviour...I just can’t. The Veeranshu who I know is someone else not this. What happened to you suddenly. I wish this is some bad horrible dream which would be gone once i wake up from my sleep, but it’s not. Everything is changed. I know that I have hurted you a lot with my words and actions , I am really sorry for that. Maybe it’s all because we had met in such a situation. Things would have been different if our first meeting was different under different circumstances.
When I first met you in Noor’s nikah I had an intense hate on you , for breaking my friends wedding , for hurting her feeling and for snatching her from me forever.
And when you and your brothers tried to erase the evidences by killing the witness and erasing the video , it just added fuel to my anger and hate towards Singhania’s.
Then when you came to Jay’s restaurant with your family and partied there , it irritated me to the core and the hate increased. The thought in my mind was- how can you party & chill after killing my friend , snatching her life.
When I saw Naina and other girls in the truck , I felt disgusted of your family’s illegal work.
And the way you came to Chachi’s house with Meera di ‘s weeding proposal , I was stunned and scared for her life.
When I saw you and your brothers push Jay off the cliff.
All my anger from the past and the present filled my mind and blinded my eyes with hatred.
And I have always seen you as a bad , sarcastic, spoilt , irritating one.
Maybe it’s because I had portrayed you as such in my mind after all those events.
So everytime when I see you , I always see you with my hatred vision. Maybe if had tried to Change my vision , perspective, then things would have changed long back. If only I had seen you from another perspective ....
Every time when you have protected & supported me - from your family, mom , Shakura. My heart always said that you are not as portrayed in my mind , there is a different real Veeranshu hidden from the real world who is really the apple of eye of the Singhanias, the little mumma’s boy , the one who has lot of love stored for his loved one.
The trust that i see in your eyes for me , creates a unknown feeling in me. When you revealed your true self , when you trusted me when I said I didn’t kill Monil. I was stunned and shocked over how much you you trust me blindly. Why do you trust me so much ?? Even when I had always been rude to you.
Anyways now no use of thinking about all those things. Because along with time everything changes , and it also changed.
But a lot of questions in my mind about you still remain unanswered.
My life has always been a riddle to me , I had to solve a riddles and problems in which there is very few riddles which I have solved successfully. Creating a place for me in my foster family was a difficult riddle for me. Because it’s not easy to crack or find out what is going on everyone’s mind. Everyone’s mind is complicated. I have tried everything to create a place for myself in my Chachi’s mind which I was unsuccessful, then Mehek and Dehak who always in their own world. Chachu always considered my as his own but its not possible for him to fight for me against Chachi. Meera di was the only one to whom I was able to connect with , she was my diary , my guide , my strength , my support system, my everything. Without her I don’t know how would I have been now.
Veeranshu you knew about your self when you were young , and you had your family to guide you develop in your skills. But have you ever thought about me.??
I got to know about my real self after Noors death only. Before that I just felt an attachment with the snakes creatures.And trust in them.
Have you ever thought , how would one feel when you get to know you are a shapeshifter?? Not a normal human. After living more than half of my life as a human. All of a sudden you come to know your reality of life . And the thing which is worse in my case is that I was the first of my kind who received this boon. Do you know how much difficult is it ? Without anyone’s support or proper knowledge about anything. I even doubt that do I know my entire capability. When you are in a higher position it gives you a lot of responsibilities and duties to be fulfilled. But do I really know my duties ?? Am I fulfilling all my duties and responsibilities towards my clan ?? Am I really very responsible about my duties ?? There is always a fear in my mind while doing everything, thinking that I shouldn’t make any mistakes and shouldn’t break any rules. And the pressure put upon me is really very high . Do you know why ?? Because in the past I failed to do my duties, I disappointed my clan & god with my behaviour. And was cursed for 1000 years Veeranshu, 1000 years . Do know how much doesn’t it hurt me ..that makes me think I am unfit for my position. The one thought that runs in my mind always is that I shouldn’t do any mistake or sin that I have to repent again.
There is always a fear and insecurity in me - will I be able to fulfil my duties and responsibilities towards my clan and family successfully? Am I capable to handle both my responsibilities as a Adi-Naagin and a normal human -Bani.
The struggles i face to balance my duties is not any less.
When you are placed in a higher position then you have to live for your clan , for fulfilling the duties towards them. Most of the time we have to forget our own little dreams and wishes and move on forgetting our real simple life. You have mostly seen only the Adi Naagin not the real Bani , who is just a normal human carrying the duties & responsibilities of the Adi Naagin.
Most of the time you say that you know me , understand me very well . Though i can’t say that you don’t understand me , But what if I say that you don’t know me- the real me without the facade of Adi Naagin. In fact no one knows the real me , I guess not even me.
Veeranshu you are one of the few important persons in my life whom I depend on. One the strongest pillar whom I can relay on. After my chachu and Meera di , if I can trust anyone blindly it would be you Veeranshu. I don’t know why I trust you immensely, is it because that whenever I was in any trouble you reach out to my rescue or is it because that you have always been a shield around me. I don’t why but I admire you for being so carefree yet so protective about your family , when you family is in trouble you will be the first to face it. When your mom came back I saw a different version who a child at heart , who lost his mothers love in his childhood, you are the most caring , protective and the most beautiful person I have ever met. You are the one person who have truly loved me , cared for me , fought for me and safeguarded me from everything. If we had met in some other circumstances who knows things would have been very different now. But still we have time to change things.
You always mock me for not being able to express my feeling right. But as you say feelings is an art ,which you have mastered but me .....
Veeranshu I can never become like you - a open book , straight forward with your feelings. Maybe that makes you unique and special.
i don’t know how to express about my feelings hence I writing this to you veer. I don’t know will I be able to say this standing infront of you...
Veeranshu I don’t know how to describe my feelings about you .... but all I can say is that I want you in my life as my veer my soulmate my support my family my everything. I want you to be beside me and guide me. I want to spend my entire life with you. I want to fight with you for silly things and later laugh together. I want to irritate you to the core and later tease you. I want to share my emotions with you. I want to be your sweetheart and your strength. I want to cherish each and every moment of life with you. I want you as my family the one whom I can call my own. Will you be my soul mate forever ?? I .... love you Veer....and will continue to love you forever, maybe I can’t love you like you do but I can try to , and I will.
Will you be My Be the King of my heart Veer ??
Veeranshu I have poured my heart & feelings in this letter.
If you want to give our relationship a chance then come to the “ place which showed me the real you & the place which is very close to your heart “ by 10 pm.along with the gift box.
If not I will set you free from this relationship,considering that you really don’t want to be in this relationship anymore. As you wish I leave this Singhanias Mansion and go far away from this place and try not to interfere in your life anymore with a hope that you will be happy once I leave from here.
And last but not the least ,
Thank you Veeranshu for showering me with your endless love , for giving all the sweet memories to cherish forever, for teaching me to express myself , for being my strength, for boosting me when I was low , for standing on my side always as a shield & protector, for teaching me to cherish life , for everything.
And one last question,
Do you still want to make Veer and Bani one ?? .....as VANI ....
-your forever sweetheart.
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