Its a sad state to be in. Imagine his mental state at that point. The man should have been so distraught where he puts in all the efforts only to be sidelined or all his efforts sidelined. Even the successful ones not given any validation. The desperation to be acknowledged, to be accepted by the industry he was in, to walk into a party but feeling alone.
On top of that, his movies being canceled or pushed to direct online release, to see his movie shelved, then comes the smear campaign. That takes a toll. if he was ailing already, its even more deadly.
Seriously who was behind those blinds and was this news of biggies deciding to boycott his movies true???
The entire last year I was in my own personal mess so I hadn't been into much of bollywood news, therefore, I am a little clueless about the specificities of the blind items but I do remember over the years his image taking a turn and now when I look back a narrative was clearly being set to paint him in a bad light. There was a systematic campaign to defame and demotivate him which further broke him from inside. How horrible and disconcerting it must have felt to be brutally ambushed from all sides for absolutely no fault of his. Being constantly mocked, made fun of, humiliated for just wanting to do what he loved sincerely. One doesn't have to follow bollywood news religiously to find out if a film is a massive hit or not because enough noise is generated through journalists, articles, PR, tweets from other actors to let everyone know when a film is a huge success - all the noise around Gully boy is a good example. But, I honestly had no idea that Chichore was such a big hit till the last two days. Why wasn't there similar noise around Chichore? Heck! I didn't even know that in his 10 films career, 6 were hits. Imagine a star kid in Sushant's place. He would have swept all the award functions year after year.
I was a school going kid when PV used to air and we girls sometimes used to discuss it but I wasn't a fan. Then Jhalak happened and I and my family realized he was an excellent dancer yet no special corner for him in the heart. Then few years later Kai po che happened and I was taken aback by his mesmerizing performance. I cried a river while coming back from the theater and now when I look back I believe that's when I developed a soft corner for him. Though I still wasn't a fan but for some reason over the years I have found myself randomly heading over to his Instagram profile (I don't follow any celebs) to just take a glance at his life. Back then when I started doing this his Instagram was all about lovely pictures with Ankita at her current flat where I believe they used to live in together. Even in the month of May I had taken a peak to see what's up with him. Now it breaks my heart into a million pieces to realize that there wont be anything to look forward to except sadness the next time I head there. It also infuriates me to see some of his colleagues and journalists trying to shift our focus from what happened to him by asking us to celebrate and remember only the good part of his life. No! I refuse to forget how tragically he ended his life and how utterly alone and in despair, he was in his last days. It is a cruel reminder of what was done to him and how he was hounded by these torturous wolves.
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