(T)HE Smoke(d) I choke(d)....My Dude.. Suraj Rajvanshi..

(T)HE Smoke(d)... I choke(d)... Suraj Rajvanshi...

I was seeing the episode with a neutral mind near my drawing room window, with fresh air, taking things as it was striding, with heavy heart as I saw the glimpses of my dude in her thoughts...

Raaghav's eyes the respect and admiration and I was taking it for he wants to turn himself into Suraj for Chakor.

Suddenly I choked as there was smoke, and that voice "Chakor just that and nothing else but uncontrollable tears rolled down my eyes (even now as I type) and that smoke, I literally choked to see my dude Suraj Rajvanshi stand there, with that magical smile and that eyes full of love for his Chakor... I am unable to explain that feeling, that emotion. The Mahiyaa at the background made me go completely uncontrollable.

I know many are making peace with the fresh air, Raaghav, I too don't have qualms as him individually I like him a lot, love him too to an extent that he goes all the way to bring happiness and smile in everyone's face.

So I thought I am moving on...trying to make myself believe... I am enjoying the fresh air but suddenly that smoke, my dude brought me that realization that I have not moved on for this fresh air is good but that too chokes me for it comes gushing on my face...

I realized that I choke with this fresh air too as I realized the truth that I enjoy my breeze, my Sunlight...My dude... the one and only Suraj Rajvanshi...

But, Is he really gone? will he come only in smoke? When I see the smoke I choke but I rather get choked.. be with the smoke as I can see my dude there and wait for that breeze to clear the smoke as only breeze can clear the smoke while gush of fresh air swirls the smoke..

So, Should Chakor also stay behind and not embrace the fresh air but long for the breeze which has turned its path to the North, heavenly abode? ( I hope not)

No Chakor, I will not stop you as In the fresh air you felt a bit of breeze in it as you reminisced Suraj while with Raaghav... is it wrong? No...

Chakor, my birdie, You may move on with the fresh air, I will not stop you for you too need to live your life but I will not and shall not move on as I will be in the smoke, choked waiting for the breeze to embrace me, if miracle happens!

I realized myself that yes it is VJ the versatile actor who is playing both Raaghav and Suraj so I should like him, whatever it is but it is not true, my heart adores and admires and love only Suraj Rajvanshi.

I realized that I have indeed fallen for SR, this character more than the actor himself. Yes it is MeeJay who are playing but my SuKor, my adories takes a step ahead than MeeJay, Raaghav and Chakor.

I don't know what he is going to say tomorrow...Will he say Chakor move on or will he say "DP I love you and no one can love you as I can I am sure I will be wrong as many are thinking he will ask his Chakor to move on but ...

Suraj, will the breeze breeze to clear the smoke? Or will I remain Choked...

Yes its Smoke and I am Choked but I will not and cannot Move On.

I rest my pen but not my tears!

Originally posted by: 77nikita

Moved with your post dear... fantafab👏 as always... title too simply awesome.

Wish tomorrow he says what you want😳

Just that "chakor" was enough to give goosebumps.

I can imagine it will be very difficult to move on.

Let's hope for the best

Originally posted by: binivenugopal18

Sooraj is now both a pain and hope for us.

Pain of loosing him and hope of Raghv turning to be Sooraj in one day.

Originally posted by: LuvSSever

Sumi dear...

Such a heartfelt post it was 👏👏😭

title was as always👏

Already today's epi stirred a lot of thoughts and emotions in me.making me more and more confused.

you writing made my eyes welled up.

Many places your writing echoed the same feelings I have.🤗(consoling hug) which I need :)

I too thought it will be normal to move on, with MeeJay in place, but today epi proved its difficult.

Agree totally on the feelings about raghav, chakor and finally Sukor and the thoughts we have about moving on.

lets try to take as it comes and hope for the best as nikki said.

Originally posted by: sumsukor

Thanks Uma for those lovely words and yes we echo very much but have to give in yaar I feel proud that Suraj could bring that feel in you even though you saw the show very late infact when it was going through turbulence but thats my dude's magic na.

Nikki he e she is very piratical like her RR 😉...

Originally posted by: katheriene

Beautiful post🤗

It just moved me

Missing Suraj so much😭

Will miss Sukor but love Meejay