Ishita broke the hug in shock and said -yeh kya keh rahe hai aap, Raman??
Raman hugged her again and said -yes, I have decided. Naa ab main tumhe choounga aur naa uncomfortable karunga. I just want u happy .mujhe koi aisi cheez nahi karni ab,joh hum dono ke beech differences laaye. U don't want physical intimacy naa, OK ab main kabhi tumhare paas nahi aaunga.
Ishita -matlab u will not love me now.
Raman -ofcourse I will love u, jaan. Main tumse bahut pyaar karta hoon and will never stop loving u. It's just we will not get intimate. Tumhe uncomfortable nahi karunga. Khud ko koi kaaran hi nahi dunga aisa, joh mujhe tumse dur le jaaye.
Ishita -nahi raman, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Yeh sab hamesha nahi rahega.i am working on it. Very soon everything will be fine and we will be happy forever.
Raman -i am happy, jaan. Main bahut khush hoon tumhare saath. I don't want anything else.
Ishita was about to say something when Raman got up and said -i am very tired, Main fresh hone jaa raha hoon. Kuch khaane ko bana do, kal raat se kuch nahi khaya hai. He said and went to washroom without listening to her.
Ishita was just looking at him and was thinking how everything got ruined because of her.
Ishita -it was me who took the initiative and then it was me only who pushed him. Sab meri galti hai, it is all my fault. Agar Maine khud ko pehle hi mentally prepare kar liya hota toh yeh sab nahi hota. Naa raman aise trauma mein hote aur naa hamara rishta aisa back to square one ho jaata. Hum jahan se shuru hue the wahin aa gaye. Pehle main thi, joh physical hona nahi chahti thi and now it's raman. He don't wanna get physical with me. Yeh kaisi duvidha hai, Murugan. She said looking at the roof and then thought -may be he will be fine after one or two days. She thought and went to make food for her.
After half an hour, Ishra were having food silently all lost in their thoughts. Ishita was thinking how to mend the things while Raman was still feeling guilty for thinking of cheating her. He closed his eyes and thought -now I will make distance from her. I will stop desiring her.naa desire honge aur naa hi koi duri. He thought more determined and finished his food. He got up to go when ishita asked -where r u going??
Raman -i am very tired, going to sleep. Please don't disturb me. He said and went to their room.
Ishita went behind him and saw him sleeping in the couch.
Ishita -bed par so jaiye, Raman.
Raman -nahi, I am fine here.
Ishita -so jaiye, I am not going to sleep now.
Raman nodded and lay down on the bed. He closed his eyes and soon he slept.
Ishita was sitting beside him looking at him. she can clearly see the lines of worry on his face. She touched his face and start caressing his face to release his tension when he said -dont touch me, I can't sleep.
Ishita nodded and got up from her place. She went out of the room while Raman closed his eyes trying hard to sleep but sleep was faraway from his eyes .
Slowly days start passing, Raman has completely distant himself from ishita. Though he was hugging and kissing her forehead before going to office and trying every way to pamper her, but she started missing his warmth, his touch. She wanted to touched by him passionately but he was just stick to his promise. He was loving her with full efficiency but wasnt touching her making her feel hollow without him.
It was one of the normal days, ishita wore one of her best saree and got ready beautifully thinking Raman will love her like before but nothing like that happened. He went kissing her temple like everyday making her almost cry at his rejection.
Ishita went and stood infront of the mirror looking at her reflection.
Ishita-itna taiyaar hui main aaj raman ke liye, he was even so happy seeing me like this but he didn't even touched me. It's more then a week since that incident, aur uss din se aaj tak raman ne mujhe nahi chooya. Yes he is hugging me, kissing me but unki chooyan mein sirf care aur concern hai, passion nahi. Like he has stopped his heart from desiring about me. Now I am getting how Raman must have felt when I pushed him apart everytime. How rejected he must have felt. Ab main kya karun, kaise wapas laaun apne purane raman ko, apne passionate lover husband ko. She was thinking when her phone rang.
Ishita got happy seeing Raman's phone and picked it.
Ishita -hello raman.
Raman -haan ishita, soch raha tha bahut din se kahin baahar nahi gaye. Shaam ko Kahin chale. I mean for dinner.
Ishita got excited and said -haan aaj chalte hai, kal aur parso weekend hai. Pura weekend baahar spend karenge.
Raman -weekend baahar??
Ishita -haan chaliye naa kahin chalte hai, dur ghoomne. Please raman.
Raman thought for a while and said -achcha, kahan chalogi??
Ishita -kasauli chalte hai, suna hai bahut achchi jagah hai. Bahut maza aayega.
Raman -ok, Main arrangement karta hoon. Tum packing kar lo.
Ishita smiled fully and both hung the call.
Ishita fold her hand and said -thank u Murugan, for giving me this chance. Iss baar main raman ko puri tarah se apna bana hi lungi, coz now I know how it feels to be apart. Ab main unhe khud se dur nahi jaane dungi. Will love him with all my heart, body and soul. She thought and went to pack their luggage.
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