Sukor ... Rona...Sona...chanduji
"Thu ro rayi thi??? Hamare liye??? ...the shocked and surprised question of Suraj after chakor's mesmerizing first hug during the Jailor Yadav shoot out... "Hum kyo ro rai, aur thumhare liye? was her answer... but that question and her answer lead to their ying yang equation ...
"Chakor aaj thu hamara pass na! hame bi achchi se neend aayengey and he went into the sweet slumber during the mahasivarathri day...
"Chanduji... please hame bi apne jaan so milva dho her innocent heart wrenching request to her Chanduji only a day before...
After yesterday's scintillating emotional episode right through the night the above three scenes were just flashing in my subconscious mind. I don't know I may be right or this is a misnomer... But
I am still in that emotion, exasperated, and not going to pen down that feelings as it's a feeling to be felt, infused, imbibed and only to just be felt... Everyone of us are going through it still... I am sure and no words can be identified to reflect those feelings... as reminiscence of it makes me see different meaning, feelings, perspectives
But after seeing yesterdays only above three was brooding my mind so much...
"Thu ro rayi thi??? Hamare liye??? "Hum kyo ro rai, aur thumhare liye?
The first question Suraj asked after the hug somewhat made me relate to what he asked yesterday
Chot tho hame lagi... Thu kyun ro rahi hai ... ha chot thume lagi par dard hame ho raha hai......
The same strange feeling, the confusion the strong man not moved by the pain but is moved by that single drop of her precious tear... Yes I felt happy the next phase of ying yang has started...
I am not writing anything... emotions were high... Breathings and the pondering of heart was synching...
"Chakor aaj thu hamara pass na! hame bi achchi se neend aayengey and he went into the sweet slumber during the mahasivarathri day...
Yesterday, with his Chakor beside him though not in his arms the sleep fairy was indeed embracing him...
The moment when he just swishhed his eyes I felt that his subconscious mind and his heart felt solace that solace that his soul is back to him and what come may she will be there (as Bini said earlier, once she is with him he is indestructible... true even when he is not in his senses he is still indestructible when she is with him) and he went into his sweet slumber his face was clear completely beautiful like a spotless moon ( I know this does not fit for a man but at that moment I felt him like a kid a little kid finding solace at its mothers lap)... for his angel is back and is on guard so he can sleep... the sleep that he would not have slept all these years, the sleep which would have been to that of a dead person...and always with that bland look for now I felt that sleep will be peaceful that moment and hope continues from that moment...
"Chanduji... please hame bi apne jaan se milva dho
The next what amazed me and my belief (honestly after seeing Udann I literally started to see moon in a different way, infact I started to address as Chanduji only) in my adories' Chanduji grew many folds. Yes Chakor prayed to be with her jaan and yes albeit in a different condition Chanduji ensured that bliss for her in spite of her tough eventualities she is with her jaan and her face was so beautiful, so much of tranquillity of just seeing him sleep, just the feeling of just visualising him...
For one I believed that yes
HIS Love brought him to her and Her love will eventually bring him to HER.
Nothing can stop SUKOR as Sukor's love is completely unique, different and is above all...