Suraj am in pain with you, but my prayers are with you

Suraj... am in pain with you, but my prayers are with you

Suraj Rajvanshi : The handsome dude, style, swag, humour, charismatic laugh, smartness, shrewdness, Strength, one man army when his Chakor is with him... ultimate dream man for every girl...

Bandhuva Suraj : Still Smart, did not want to lose his self esteem but was ready to give in that too just to safeguard his only comraderie, will-power to braze through all odds just for her... yes his life started only for her... he did not have his own ...

Ghulam Suraj: this Suraj, not smart, no life, not dead nor living, a roboman, has no one, alone all alone... When I wrote this my eyes were just tearing and my heart tearing me apart too.

What he was and what has he become...

I don't know why but after yesterday's episode I felt like going in front of the almighty and just ask one thing, what is the mistake he had done in his life...

a. during the grey days he just wanted his father's love- which he never got through though he did all that he could, do all the wrong doings to get that right love...but...was denied...

during the transitioning days all he wanted was to be that person whom that girl he married by force to accept him... he did all she wanted... Yes he surrendered to her completely..

and now he is neither dead nor alive, no emotion, no pain, no laugh , a blankness, not knowing anyone other than his Malik and Maalkin... He would have better been as a mummy in the Egyptian Tomb... I know I am rude but just that I am unable to bear his pain...

Suraj is being treated like a dirt, dust by his Malkin and Maalik, abused, beaten... can life be rude for he wanted always only love... during the grey days love of his father... During his transitioned days just the love of Chakor, he always used to say just love me and love me nothing else.

Now, he does not have any one... leave alone to love but to be a friend of him, Paakhi whom I thought would have stood by him during this terribly eclipsed days has turned against, the one who stood by her Suraj baiya during all his troubled days, who guided him and also was partner with him now donot even understand him, after well knowing the trauma he had undergone...what happened to her smartness I felt really disappointed...

Suraj needs one person who will be with him inspite of anything, who can make him think, yes he is blank, but needs some one who can talk to him, he is now completely confused...

He had no life, thought, for the past four years and someone comes and says she is his wife, kindles his emotions, his adrenaline but his dormant mind and his physic is not able to understand not able to comprehend , this is making him all the more confused, not even able to talk within him or to himself.

I feel so so pained and bad and also angry with the almighty as even the brutal KN had not been punished so badly, nor Ragini was ever punished... but why this poor soul, my Suraj is being neglected by the almighty, by the Chanduji, by the Daak baba just to get himself to be cocooned within himself.

I am feeling helpless as I am unable to lend my hand to make you emote, to cry as tears are the best for one to self realise, his tears have dried like him.

But, Suraj more than Chakor I feel for you as you have been the most vulnerable soul but I am strong that you will bring back your charismatic smile, you will win yourself back with that smartness and rise again... not only to love your Chakor but also us who are also madly waiting and praying for you...

I am sorry girls just that I felt so much of vacuum yesterday in his eyes which used to express everything his heart used to speak, his mind used to think... But today his eyes did not even close, did not even infuse in that kiss of Chakor which he had always wanted...

But I am sure dude am praying and will pray continuously for you to rise again...

Originally posted by: poojaprabha

what a beautiful writing my dear friend...absolutely feeling sad when i see sukor pain...😭our emotions reflecting in our eyes...miss you their cuteness smile

Originally posted by: 77nikita

Sumi sumi sumi... wonderfully written dear...

Suraj's condition is such that he has no pain... It's only his confused state of mind which is troubling him...but chakor, her pain, must be so immense...she is now feeling for him not only emotionally but physically also...something which was always his forte😉

Everyday seeing him like a robot must be a torcher for her...

God after reading your post l so much want the original Suraj Rajvanshi back yaar sumi😕

Originally posted by: Shreeti.sukor

Wow Sumi.. absolutely!!

But I feel that it's not such that Suraj couldn't feel anything.

If we go by what he gained we may get dejected. But if we go by what he didn't gain, we will definitely feel good.

Confused right??

What I mean is..

Suraj - the gulam who gets annoyed by Chakor didn't get annoyed by her when they both fell on the bed. He gets angry, but he didn't, should I say, he couldn't?? Was he looking disinterested?? No, he wasn't.

It was just PURE CONFUSION! He was confused between the pull from Chakor and his Maalik's orders. The moment she kissed him, the next moment he realised that it was not correct and he got annoyed then, for the first time.

Originally posted by: maithu_

WOW Sumi!

You just carried the plate of story to a new level of wishes and wants with your analyses!

For sure the Sun will rise soon to burn the unwanted elements of it's surroundings!

And that day is not so far as the moon has sent his bird to give a message to the sun by saying, you will rise soon after me!

Enjoyed reading it!

Keep on writing dear!