FF ON MEHRYA 'SOCHA NA THA'ch18 on pg 141dt 19/12 - Page 84

Chapter 16

It was mid night . sleep was no near to my mind . since the time I came from party I am lost . I am not talking to anyone , I had answer their question with this excuse that I was tired . I just changed and got in side the bed . nehal has joined me in bed around one hour ago and I could now hear her sleeping sound but I with my face covered with blanket was confused on shutting my eyes . when I shut my eyes , flashes of those moment with shaurya screened in my eyes and if I keep my eyes open . Thousand of question pops out . what was that moment . I can't say he forced me . I never wanted that then why I just went with it . why I couldn't oppose that .' I was tossing and turning inside the blanket only being frustrated from all these queries . " di kyun raat ko kick boxing karne lagi hai yaar( why are you doing kick boxing in the night said nehal in a sleepy yet irritated tone getting disturbed from my moments. I lowered my blanket and saw nehal who was pulling the blanket towards her . " sorry nehal I said apologetically . I covered her properly , patting her hairs . once she was again in her deep sleep . I smiled at my sister and kissed her on left side of her forehead . I got back to my place . I looked at wall clock , it was already 0130 am . tomorrow is diwali . I am having holiday but tomorrow I would be busy with my household works only , dusting whole house and redecorating every corner , making different sweets and lightening candles and diyas and making rangoli my thoughts stopped there only . I remembered that I had promised karuna aunty in the party that I will come to her house in the evening for making rangoli . going to khanna house means seeing shaurya khanna . flashes of his intense stare came in front of eyes . I took a heavy breath to ease the discomfort I felt . that name itself brought goose bumbs all over my body . I closed my eyes . " stop thinking about him I order my mind but it was not listening me . I will not go to khanna house tomorrow , I will apologize to karuna aunty by making some excuse . I am sure she will not be offended . I was determined with this decision . for another 20 minutes I kept my eyes shut but still I was unable to sleep with my mind continuously running with similar thoughts . my eyes were heavy due to lack of sleep and tiredness but my mind didn't let me sleep . getting totally fed up with all this . I got up in a sitting position and reached for my phone and headphones . I got back into my sleeping position and plugged in my headphones and searched for loud music . I smarted humming the lyrics in my mind to get my thoughts busy and after listening continuously to music for about 40 minutes , my eyes and mind too got tired and when I slept I my self don't know .

I gained conscious and rolled my closed eyes . My head was spinning badly that I got up in my bed , holding my head . I balanced my self in a sitting position playing my hands on the bed . I was feeling that much dizzy . " awara, black coffee lao ( bring black coffee) I shouted loudly . after two minutes I heard door of my room being opened . " time kya hua hai awara ( whats the time awara) I asked with my eyes closed they were that tired due to hangover . " dopahar ke 0100 baj rahe hai shaurya ( its 0100 in the afternoon , shaurya ) I heard my mother upset tone . I opened my eyes which still felt heavy . she was standing with glass of lemonade in her hand and with her look I could feel she was very upset with me . " ye piyo aur fresh hokar niche aa jao, jab tumhara hangover khatam ho jaye ( take this , fresh up and come down when your hangover is finished ) she said in an unhappy tone . she kept the glass on the bed side table and turned to leave when I stoped her , maa . she stopped but didn't tuned . " aap naraz ho ( you are upset ) I asked . she turned with disappointment in her eyes which said everything . " maine kal ki party rakhne ke liye isliye kaha tha , tanki diwali ke din ghar main sharab nahi aaye aur kal tu , jo kabhi sharab nahi pita woh sharab pi kar raat ke 12 baje apne chote bhai ke kandhe ka sahara lekar ghar aaya ( I asked to keep yesterday party , so that on diwali day there is so alcohol drinking in the house and yesterday you , who generally doesn't drink, came home ,drunk at 12 o clock in the night that too with the help of your younger brother on his shoulder ) she said in low voice . I had no answer . she sat on the edge of my bed . " tu sharab sirf tabhi pita hai jab tu bahut pareshan hota hai . kuch hua hai bata mujhe( you only drink when you are worried . did something happened . tell me ) she asked me in soft tone . moments of dancing with mehek Sharma flooded my mind . my urged to dance with her . my unplanned steps towards her on the dance floored . holding her hand and caressing it , enjoying that moment . my unknown desired that made me kissed her hairs . I went deep in those memories . shaurya , shuarya ... My mothers voice brought me back to senses which were already lost due to alcohol . " kahan kho gaya tu ( where are u lost ) she asked . I looked at her worried face . I need to behave normal . I gave sleepy smile to my mother . " ek minute maa( one minute ma) I said to her holding her hand . I picked up the lemonade she brought and took a sip and it tasted bitter . kitna ganda taste hai iska ( its taste is so bad) I said making a puking face . " sharab ka taste isse bhi zada kharab hota hai ( alcohol taste bad than this ) she said taunting me . " tumhe kaise pata , tumne bhi pi hai kya ( how do you know , have you ever tasted ) I asked her purposely annoying her . she just shrugged her shoulder . I had the whole drink in one go . though it taste bitter but it was effective . I started feeling well . I kept the glass aside . I took both arms of my mother in mine . " ma , mujhe kuch nahi hua hai . na main pareshan hoon . okay . galti se kal ek cocktail ko mocktail samajh kar pi gaya . actually ek nahi do drinks pi gaya .( ma , nothing happened to me . nor I am worried on anything . okay . by mistake , I had a cocktail thinking it to be a mocktail . actually , not one I had two drinks ) and you know my head can't take even one drink properly . I explained her .she took a sigh and smiled . " thik hai , fresh ho ja , rest karke propely , niche aa ja . okay . main khana bhij wati hoon ( okay , get fresh . take rest properly and come down . okay ,I'll send food . she said placing her hand on my cheek . she got up to leave and stop in mid way . nani ne tere liye blue color ka plain kurta pajama rakha hai , who pahena( nani has kept a blue color plain kurta for you , wear that ) she said . I smiled nodding my head . as she was out of the room . my smile vanished . I lied to her that I drank alcohol by mistake but the truth was I had alcohol to numb my mind from thinking why I danced with mehek Sharma and wanted to kiss her . my hand which was on bed formed into a fist and I got up from my bed and went to my bathroom to get fresh .

It was four in the evening I came out of my room . by now my hangover was totally okay . I felt no headache . I was feeling fresh . as I came out I saw my house was all decorated like every year on diwali . I heard my mother shouting on our chef who missed making sugar free laddos for nani . I smiled listening to her threat she gave to chef on my name . I looked down in the hall from the first floor . I saw a girl making rangoli . her face was lowered . I was unable to see her face her hairs were all opened she wore a dark blue color anarkali suits . that color matched with my kurta s color . her form looked familiar to me .another girl walked to her from my dinning hall . I recognized her . she was mehek's friend , what was her name . sonal , jaldi aa( come fast ) I heard the girl in blue anarkali calling her while she was still engrossed in making rangoli . " mehek her name came out my mouth . I recognized her from her voice. " aunty bula rahi thi tujhe , snack ke liye ja ( aunty is calling you for having snacks )" sonal said to mehek . " acha tu yeh bacha hua complete kar . main aati hoon , phir jaldi niklengen ( okay , you complete the left portion , I'll come back . then we we'll move ) mehek said to sonal dusting her colored hands and went to dinning hall direction . I too moved to dinning hall . I saw my nani and mehek on the dinning area having some snacks . they both were laughing on something " phir kya hua nani( then what happened nani) asked mehek cheerfully . " phir ki puttar , kisi ki himath nahi hui mijhse kuch puchne ki . bas chapel utaron , aur mar do ( then what my child , no one had the dare to ask me anything. Just pick up the sandal and hit .) said my nani . I came to know she must be thrilling mehek with her brave school days act of getting the ghost out of people who teased her . I invaded their talks . " hey nanz I said moving close to the chair where my nani was sitting . I side hugged her and wished her " happy diwali ". I looked at miss Sharma . whose casual sitting posture was stiffed after my presence . she lowered her face and put her falling hairs behind her ear . she looked simple and beautiful . " happy diwali , handsome my nanz wish shifted my gaze away from miss Sharma . " kya kar rahe the ( what you were doing ) I asked her . " is pyari se bachi se bate aur teri ma ke sugar free aur cholesterol free snacks ka intezaar ( talking to this sweet girl and waiting for your mothers sugar free and cholesterol free snacks " she said . I smiled on her. " happy diwali miss Sharma . you here I asked her being super casual . " teri maa ke kehne par , apna time nikal kar aayi hai rangoli banane. Itni pasand aa gayi use iski rangoli ( on your ma wish , she has come to make rangoli taking her time out . your mother loved her rangoli that much . replied nani on behalf of miss Sharma . arey tum dono ke kapde to hatch kar gaye ( look , your clothes are matching) said nani cheerfully . I saw mehek Sharma noticing that and that made her act more stiff. "nani , main chalti hoon rangoli complete karne ke liye( nani , I'll go now to complete rangoli ) said mehek Sharma and excused herself. So mehek Sharma was back at ignoring me well that was expected after what happened . she didn't even wished me back . no courtesy . after I am her boss . " badi pyaari bachi hai , mujhe badi pasand hai( she is a very sweet child , I like her a lot ) my nani said about mehek Sharma and I could only respond " hmmm " after talking to my nani for some more time . I walked to hall area where mehek and her friend were making rangoli . as I was near to hall door I saw my mother who was escorting mehek Sharma and her friend to the door of my house . thank you so much beta , tere message ke baad mujhe bahut dar lag gaya ki pata nahi teri tabyat thikh hai ki nahi . main khud shaurya ya vicky ke saath tere ghar aane wali thi , but phir tu khud aa gayi ( after your message , I was very scared that weather you health is okay or not , infact I my self was planning to come to your house with Vicky or shaurya . but then you yourself came) said mom to mehek . " kuch nahi aunty , bas halka sa headache tha , lekin aap ko phone par pareshan sun kar ( nothing aunty , it was a mild headache . but listening you all worried on phone ) I had to come just to make you believe that I am fine. Mehek replied with smile . she was sick' I thought . " yeh ek chota sa gift tere liye aur kuch sweets tum dono ki family ke liye . meri taraf se sab ko diwali wish karna ( this small gift for you and some sweets for both of yours family . wish happy diwali to all from my side ) ma said to mehek giving her some gifts and sweets . " aunty gift ki kya zarurat thi ( aunty there was no need for gift ) mehek replied being hesitant to take the gift . " bado ke pyaar ko na nahi karte ( one doesn't say no to elders love) ma replied . she bowed down to touch ma's feet . " thank you aunty . hum chalte hain ab Mohit gadi main wait kar raha hai ( we should be going now . mohit must be waiting in the car ) . she said and left . I saw my mother moving back to kitchen area . I saw the rangoli mehek Sharma had made from my position . it looked nice from far . I thought to have a clear look so I decided to go near it when I saw mehek Sharma entry my house again in a rush . I saw her from far distance . she didn't noticed my presence . she stood near the place she made a rangoli and started taking its pictures . she was taking pictures from different angles . my foot automatically went towards her . " is photo main light kam aa rahi hai( brightness is less in this picture ) I heard miss Sharma saying . she sat down on her one knee to get a clear picture and I just stood at her back . she was so engrossed in taking the picture that she didn't had any idea who was standing behind her . " yes this photo is nice said mehek Sharma in a happy tone and automatically a smile came on my face . she stood up and was checking her phone only when she turned to me.

I stood up after clicking few photo and was happy that I finally got a good one . I turned while I was engaged in my phone only, that I didn't expected someone presence and was startled to find shaurya khanna standing just one step behind me . I just lost my balance and my foot slipped , I was about to fall . my hands were moving in air to hold something when I felt my one hand being held by shaurya khanna . I was looking at the floor with my head on left side . I was breathing fast and short due to this sudden fall and fear of falling . I gulped some air and felt relieved that I didn't fall . " are you okay shaurya asked me . I looked at him . the moment I noticed our raised breath . yesterday night came all back bringing all my restlessness back too. I felt a pull in my arm from him when I stopped him saying " rehne do , mujhe apni taraf mat khichna( leave it , don't pull me towards you ) . he was curiously surprised " are you mad he asked me . he was again gonna pull me . when I stopped him again saying " I said na don't . " diwali ke din ghar ki extra lights jala kar , khud ka fuse uda liya hai kya tumne ( after lightening extra lights , have you fused your mind) he asked me with taunt . I excused my gaze from him. " I don't wanna come near you, after yesterday night incident " I said with embarrassed mind but in a annoyed tone hiding my guilt of giving in yesterday . after saying this I didn't looked at him . . he was balancing me with that same hold only which I felt slippery due to suddenly produced sweat. for few seconds we were in that same position only suddenly I felt the hold getting loosed . I looked at him . he was looking at me with plain expression . I feared he will leave me and I will fall " kya kar rahe ho (what are you doing) I asked him being a little scared . " you said , you don't wanna come near me , so I am leaving you he said in plain voice . I was surprised he was really gonna make me fall . now I was angry on myself for saying those words to this crazy man he can't even take a taunt and make someone other feel a little happy .I was looking for some words to say in attempt to which I opened and closed my mouth few times . the hold was now half loosed . rangoli kharab ho jayegi " I said in a feared tone . " rangoli competition judge nahi kar raha main he said in a nasty tone . " haan? I asked not getting his meaning . he did guessed that " I don't care for rangoli " he replied . I felt him loosing the hold and almost felt edge of my anarkali suit touching the rangoli . he is gonna leave me . I closed my eyes with anticipation of pain I was gonna feel with fall . when I felt his other hand on my wrist and a pull forward. I opened my eyes and saw him getting side from the way of my coming forward . I felt the wrist hold of his hand holding me and balancing me in slightly forward bend position. The moment I balanced myself on my feet properly , he left my wrist and I took a breath of relief . I looked at him . he was looking at me only . I stood straight and that bought us face to face. He saved me without touching me . I was trying to judge his moment when he took a step and now his face was only an inch away from me . as he was taller than me I felt his breath on my face . his intense gaze was back , this time he had annoyance in that . "sharab ke nashe main tumhare karib aaya tha ( in effect of alcohol , I came near you ) he said in a stern voice . his words had no apology . hosh main hota toh kabhi nahi aata( in my senses, I would have never) he added further . I looked into his eyes . he was not in his senses yesterday but I was . what was there yesterday is no where today . I felt hurted . his words felt foul and digging . my eyes became moist once again . I was feeling more remorse on my reaction yesterday to his approaching . I felt a little change in his expression . his eyes softened but he turned and took a step to leave . he can't go that easily . " I tell you one advise mr khanna . I am gonna be there for 2 and half months more in you restaurant . don't you ever drink again . because ,if you came near to me next time . I will slap you . again " saying that in a firm voice I left his house .

It was 11 30 pm . thought the fire cracker are banned still I could hear noise of cracker being burned . what a waste of money and time . I got into my bed for sleeping . I took my phone for setting alarm . when I got a facebook notification . MS was online . I smiled . I checked in facebook . she uploaded a status with few pictures of rangoli , some sweets and lightening diyas . with the line " happy diwali to all I thought to chat with her .

kk- happy diwali MS.

MS- happy diwali kk, tum toh bade busy ho gaye yaar . online hote hi nahi .( you seems quite busy . you are never online )

kk- toh tum bahut online rehti ho .( like you are very much online )

ms - J yeah. toh kya kiya diwali par .( so what you did on diwali )

kk- kuch khass nahi( nothing special) , but seems like you had a lot of fun

ms- fun with family . like always . but today I had a fight also with someone

kk- fight , whom you had a fight with . your favorite famous man( I typed in order to tease her )

ms- he is not my favorite famous man . but I just hate him .

kk- okay so your dislike reached to hatred . quite a progress haan.

I laughed while typing this.

Ms- this man made me hate him.

Kk- what he did now.

Ms- just leave it .

Kk tell me .

Ms- nothing . its just that his words hurts me . hurting someone is bad .

I remembered mehek Sharma moist eyes after my words . but what confused me was in what manner she was hurt .

kk- sometimes we hurt someone , without knowing that in what way we are hurting them .

Ms- deliberately hurting is always bad .

kk- sometimes its not in our hand .

ms- I feel we will have different views on this . good night happy diwali .

saying that she went offline . I closed my facebook and went to my phone gallery. last pic was of rangoli that mehek Sharma made . I saw a edge which was spoiled when I holded her . I remembered her so called warning of staying away from her but what stressed me was that she is gonna be there for just 2 and half month more . I closed my eyes with piercing restlessness .

the dress of mehek here is same that samiksha wore on diwali

Unres

Okay this is definitely not my excuse

Ur funny meme Won't let me be on tine😛

Except maya's. They r scary

Congratulations thab for sister's engagement.

Manju u too joined them😆

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So Ms could not sleep as she was ashamed that she responded to him and did not want to go to his hse to do Rangoli.

He drank to forget that he found her desirable so when they met at his hs, he told her he touched her under the influence of drink which hurt her and she asked him to not to drink for 2 and half months while she was there.

But how long is he going to pretend that he is v attracted to her ? pls update soon

SK & MS both of them trying to avoid each other and atthe same time was not able to forget their behaviour in the party night. Both of them are trying to find out rhe actual problem and don't want to admit that they are attracted to each other. 😆 Karuna& Nani intentionally give SK that blue sherwani or not🤔 Both of them want SK to be settled in life so may be they are planning something behind curtains👎🏼 I expect that soon they will identify the actual reason behind this restlessness. 🤣

Continue soon.

Now take rest panda. We will not disturb u for a very few days😆

Me too 😉 But i tried my level best for not to post any scary things🤣 Its not enough Richa😆