It is striking 1:40 in the night here (as of when I am posting, thanks to my poor net service). I am exhausted to the bones. And the plan was to hit bed as soon as I finish watching IPK. But then...this happened. This..connection of sorts. And I had to share it. I really really did. And who better than my new found family in here.
Disclaimers:
1. It is an out and out, I legit read and quote, "optimistic-dreamland-drooling post. People allergic to it, now is the time to walk out.
2. There will be a bit of comparisons between IPK1, Tanhaaiyaan and IPK3. People sensitive to it, now is the time to leave.
3. Needless to say, this will be a total and dare I add, highly Barun-ilicious post. People adverse to it, you know the drill.
Note: There'd be two different thinks I'll be talking about in this post. Don't mix them up.
Firstly,
I usually get hyper and way too excited whenever I watch a good episode. And the fact that I am on my periods and am running high on my hormones should actually push me to the precipice and more.
But today...I feel calm. Its..I don't know if I would be able to articulate myself as vivdly as I would like to, but, I felt..content? There's this strange, positive and warm calmness filled up inside me.
When I first watched IPK1, I could not for the love of my ice-creams, connect to Khushi, at all. I do love her, I love her characterization and the wonderful counter part that she is to Arnav (hell, I'm a fan-fic writer. It is an obvious thing that I love ArShi more than I can ever tell or show), but try as much as I may, even to this day, I cant connect with her.
Arnav is someone I am in total sync with. Even before his layers were revealed, right from the first episode, after having a glimpse of his past, I could totally and innately connect with his character. I understood his every move, every thought, every reason behind the way he carried himself; even when he was one hell of a jerk and an asshole.
Its kind of personal but, Arnav felt like home. Seeing Arnav and his layered character is not something really new to me. I've been living with one such man for the past 23 years. And so, Arnav was extremely dear and close to my heart. It was like..watching someone I knew like the back of my hand. I knew his next move. I knew his unspoken words. I just knew him inside out.
But there was this one scene. The construction site one.
Where..Khushi gives it right back. Like, she pushes him at his chest, screams to his face, puts him right in his place and she just opens the lid to her fierce side. And amidst all that, even though she is backed to a wall and held bound and towered, even though she looks like she is cornered, you don't actually see her accepting her defeat or cowering to Arnav's barely held back rage. You see that she is falling weak, that she is physically vulnerable at that point, but that lady wouldn't back off. Her body finally succumbs and she faints. But even then, mentally, she was strong and fierce. A warrior in every sense.
Then comes this one tear that rolls off her eye and over her cheek.
And that...was the moment I felt..I don't know. I think...I fell in love with Khushi's character in that. one. precise moment.
(I am not adding how I felt about Arnav coz I will keep typing for the entire next week and yet I wont be able to finish it.)
And then came Tanhaaiyaan.
And Good Lord. This is the first ever Indian show/series where I could out and out connect with both the leading characters.
Its like I was watching people I really..personally know. I just...Tanhaaiyaan was a series that ran on the lines of how I think and perceive people, relations and basically everything. Haider is love and Meera is...Meera. There wasn't one scene where I went "Oh. Aisa bhi hota hain kya?" It felt as if the series was my genre. My forte and my adda, ya know.
And now, we have IPK3.
Again, like I said, living with a layered man for the past 23 years and seeing him being decoded, understood and loved every single moment of my life; I've gotten pretty used to decoding and understanding layered and complicated people. It comes naturally to me. Like...its just a part of me and who I am.
So, needless to say, Advay is my guy. I see him, I understand him. I know what he thinks. Why he thinks the way he thinks. Why he does whatever he does. I just...know him. And I love that guy. For everything that he is, including his battameez kameenapan.
Like, ever since they gave the backdrop of Advay's character, I just knew this guy. We've connected and bonded. Done.
And when they gave a little peek into Chandni's character, I was hoping I would be able to connect to her. But when the show began, try as much as I may, I kind of cant. Its not that I don't understand her. Hell, I do. I have begun to adore her too. She's a wonderful mix of strength and vulnerability, maturity and mischief, traditional and broadminded. She's a beautiful, layered character. But I..cant feel her they way I feel Advay.
But today...when her Roka happened with Advay, there was this one scene were Advay sets the laal dupatta back in position on her head and she closes her eyes and when she opens them and realizes that she has been engaged to Advay, the little flashes of him asking her to marry him, him asking her if he could carry her and him getting engaged to her...and then she looks at Advay and a silent tear and two run down her cheeks.
That one scene held so much power. There was utter vulnerability. There was a cloud of purity. There was a silent confused torment and yet a hint of acceptance? Acceptance might not be the right word. May be it was a moment where Chandni, for the first time felt connected with Advay, or rather, the Dev in Advay?
There was...it was just magical. Like..sometimes things happen to you that you cant really explain how you are feeling but you know that you are overwhelmed. This was one such scene.
And..I have fallen in love. With Chandni. In that. one. precise moment.
And ever since, I just feel so..calm. Like..I don't know..peaceful, I guess? Or may be content.
Secondly,
I am way too overwhelmed right now. More than happy and excited and cheerful, I am bloody overwhelmed.
I saw ASR today. I felt him. Again. In flesh and bones.
ASR is back. Rejuvenated. Reloaded. Renewed.
And I, for the love of my ice-creams, cannot express how I am feeling right now. I am just too overwhelmed. Period.
And Barun Sobti..mukammal kar diya yaar ye banda ne mujhe. Phir se. No one does anger, angst, or any of those emotions that run on the intense sepctrum of emotions, anywhere close to how Barun does, let alone better.
He just..when he acts, you feel it. Like, inside of you. Or atleast I do.
It is so natural and subtle and realistic..I dont think I'd be as effected when Barun would scream as much as I would when he would shake with rage. That silent anger where he turns red, his eyes piercing, his jaw grit and his body slightly shaking? That man can scare me with his silence.
It is insane as to how a fictional character, enacted by an otherwise soft, goofy, happy going guy, has the power to give me goosebumps of fear.
I was too exhausted yesterday and couldn't talk of this particular scene that was telecasted yesterday. Wait, let me also include day before yesterday's episode as well.
As much as I love and drool and hyperventilate over a seducing and oomph factor oozing Barun, I mean, Advay on screen, the enraged shade of him is what I know and connect with. His revenge, his anger, his dark sides...those are what I am uber familiar with. And we had just the right glimpses of it in the end of day before yesterday's episode.
And needless to say. Barun has undoubtedly made me super proud of him. This guy is one of the most underrated actors I've seen. He oozes perfection. He just personifies excellence. I wish, hope and pray he'd get his share of fame, exposure and success, the much deserved ones and more. Amen.
Coming back, there was this one particular scene where Chandni's hand brushes Advay's fleetingly, and the best part, it was unintentional and Chandni just walks away. But Advay here...oh God. Barun slayed it, man.
The evanescent transition of Advay to Dev was..such an extraordinary scene. Remarkably shot and brilliantly executed. Someone please tell this guy that he is killing this character man. He really is. *touchwood*
It so seems that...the fire of love was expunged.
But there's a stubborn little spark still aflame.
Albeit beneath the heavy layers of pain and rage it lay,
Breathing and alive, even to this day.
The amusement Advay sported when Chandni gave him a taste of his own medicine, that hint of pride literally screamed 'dayum, that's my girl. And she's feisty af!'; Barun had to all but smirk and his eyes and his expression and body language...just stole the scene. They were as clear as the morning's Sun. Perfect and bedazzling.
And even today, when Chandni comes and confronts him his transition from the enraged Advay to the amused one was...p-e-r-f-e-c-t!
*cries happy tears* I love Barun Sobti, yaar. He's such a talented actor.
And today...Oh Holy Lord!
Today, the one scene that had me gasping for my breath was Barun's expression during the scene I explained earlier? The Roka one where Chandni looks at him and has a tear and two rolling off her cheek?
The transition of Advay to Dev there?
I just wanna hug this guy, man. I really wanna hug him and tell him how brilliant he is at his work.
Freaking hell. What was that? It was just one scene. And that guy had me gasping for my breath. I could literally feel what he was going through. That's...ridiculously insane!
And then came the scenes that brought back ASR in his effing glory with a capital G! This was such an over whelming moment for me. It was such a wonderful moment, and it felt like I was slapped across my face with the fact as to why I love Arnav Singh Raizada the way I do and why I love Advay Singh Raizada the way I do. For the first few moments, I was just gaping at the screen. I literally had my hands cup my mouth. I was so happy. I mean...it felt..whaaaow. The excitement and craziness kicked in later on and I was all the way seeti-maaring.
That's right, baby. ASR is back. And how!
I am in love, all over again!
Oh and I forgot to mention, the you're the one who loves me followed by Rabba Ve instrumental bit was such a brilliant collab yesterday and it fit so damn perfect.
However, today, may be because of how powerful the scene felt to me, the slow Rabba Ve piano bit when the Roka happened and Chandni had tears and Advay transitioned to Dev?
For the first time ever in IPK3, I felt connected to Rabba Ve.
All these days, I dint mind RabbaVe in the BG Score. It was romantic and I always hoped they had a new BG coz AdNi's love is intense and strong while RabbaVe has a certain soft touch to it.
But today...that slow RabbaVe piano bit had me go all dhak-dhak.
Those are the points I wanted to talk about and share. And with such brilliants scenes we've gotten, I hardly looked at the candy stripped suit that Barun was rolled into. But..
Dammit man, this guy can carry everything like a boss! I mean, I bet he'd look just as effing hot even if he were dressed in a goddamn potato sack!
But...I could hardly take my eyes of Sobti's eyes and face today. He bloody enchants me, yaar.
I just...love Barun.
P.S:
Kindly ignore the typos.
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