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Jai Venella O S
.: J u d a a i :.
Ranjhan dhoondhan main chaleya
Ranjhan mileya naa ye...
Jigraan vichon agan laga ke Rabba
Laqeeran vich likh di judaai
Kho gaya, gum ho gaya
Waqt se churaya tha jo
Apna banaya tha..
Ho tera, woh mera
Saath nibhaaya tha jo
Apna banaya tha..
Chadariya jheeni re jheeni
Chadariya jheeni re jheeni
Aankhein bheeni ye bheeni ye bheeni
Yaadein jheeni re jheeni re jheeni (x2)
Jai-Jaana zaroori hai?
Venella-hmm thora thora...
J-ahh..dont leave me like this...
V-Jai...you know na its been more than a year I went to amma's place...how would they feel...
J-amma's place? ahaa
V-yeah..as now this is my place only...right na bavaa..
J-you know..your going to be my death..one day...
She placed her hand on his lips which he kissed in return...
V-if I ever had to ask for something from God I will ask him to let that good for nothing death face me..first...
He engulfed her in his arms and this mere thought of not having her beside him every morning and night was a torture for him...
J-Listen..Chennai pohochte hee mujhe call karna and apna khyal rakhna...rashes ho jaate hai tmhe to wahan ki garmi mein kum kaprey pehenne ki koshish karna but ghar mein jab koi na ho to hee warna main ajaunga...khaaney peene ka khyal rakhna...raat ko jaldi so jana aur subah der se nahi utna...aurr😆
V-aurr tumhe bilkul yaad na karna...right?
J-haaa..seems like you have already forgotten me...
How can she think of resisting that cute pout of her husband..who looked dull since morning...
V-saase lena bhul sakti hu...per tumhe...kabhi nahi..meri zindagi ka hissa nahi ...zindagi ho tum mere bangaram😆...samjhe..
She kissed his cheeks which made him smile finally...
J-I love you...
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3 months later
I wish that day would have never come in our life..The moments we spent..the last time you touched me..kissed me..made me feel Iam yours and only yours..why did you do this Jai..I hate you...how can u forget me so easily Jai..how..
Aisa bhi kya milna, saath hoke tanha
Aisi kyun sazaa humne hai paayi, Ranjhana ve
Phir se mujhe jeena, tujhpe hai marna
Phir se dil ne di hai ye duhaai, Saajnaa ve
Laqeeron pe likh di kyun judaai..
Gair sa hua khud se bhi, na koi mera
Dard se karle chal yaari, dil ye keh raha
Kholun jo baahein, bas gham ye simat rahe hain
Aankhon ke aage lamhe ye kyun ghat rahe hain
Jaane kaise koi sehta Judaaiyaan.
Chadariya jheeni re jheeni
Chadariya jheeni re jheeni
Aankhein bheeni ye bheeni ye bheeni
Yaadein jheeni re jheeni re jheeni (x2)
Ranjhan dhoondhan main chaleya
Ranjhan mileya naa ye...
Jigraan vichon agan laga ke Rabba
Lakeeran vich likh di judaai
Well your husband seems to be perfectly fine now..you can take him home..but..I hope you know this very well he wont be able to handle any kind of stress or pressure...it would affect his brain..and
Venella-Dont worry doctor I will take care of that..thankyou...
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Him:Humm..so where are we heading to?
Her:home...
Him:at my place??
She stared at him while he was giving her a blank look...
Him:hmm..at your place...
Her:That same place which used to be ours..you have forgotten everything Jai..but I haven't..how can you call it your place..it was ours..where we started the most beautiful phase of our life.. shared love happiness every single day being there for eachother..
She wiped the lone tear that escaped from her eyes and looked towards the empty road...Life is going to be difficult..
...
J-haaa..seems like you have already forgotten me...
How can she think of resisting that cute pout of her husband..who looked dull since morning...
V-saase lena bhul sakti hu...per tumhe...kabhi nahi..meri zindagi ka hissa nahi ...zindagi ho tum mere bangaram😆...samjhe..
She kissed his cheeks which made him smile finally..
J-I love you...
She kept looking at him for long as he was throwing flying kisses to her...he looked madly in love and she was asking him to stop looking here and there...and for a moment everything stopped in front of her eyes...a big car came in the view leaving him in pool of blood...he was lying lifeless in the road giving that one last look to her...
J-Vvvenella...
V-Jaiii..
She woke up...with sweat and erratic heartbeats...still not over that moment when her world came to an end...every night she gets to see the same thing...
After gulping down a glass of water she took the shawl and wrapped it around herself...it was still cold outside...and not so unusual for her to catch some sleep...she went out sitting on the white swing in the garden area outside...which used to be their favorite place...
white..bluee...white..blueee
V-Jai plzz...
J-whatt..my vanilla ice cream..
V-aghh..stop calling me that..you are wasting your time...bedroom mein white curtains hee ache rahenge...
J-yeah...sweetheart this is our bedroom..and you want to make this a typical place for ghosts to hangout or party hard?...colorful socho...blueee...tabhii to humari life rangeen hogii hmmm
He tried to kiss her cheek when she pushed him so hard that he landed on the floor...
J-ouchh...yeh kya tha?
V-bluee carpet...see its colorful na..now you have to sleep there only till you say yes for white curtains😛...goodnight hubby
J-Vanilla..aghh.u cant do this with me..I can't sleep alone..you know that,right?
V-tchhh I dare you call me by that name again..and i can allow you on bed..say yes for white curtains
J-abey teri tohh..bhaar mein jae curtains
He jumped on her like an angry cat and they fought till the pillows were on the bluee carpet making them sprawl on the big bed...
J-hhh...lagaalo white curtains...I can never win on this...
V-hmm...thats like a good boy...my bangaram
She pulled his cheeks like that of a small baby at which he flinched...
J-hmm..see white curtains and all..I can allow but..promise me you won't wear such dull colors...
He played with her hands..and kissed one by one...
V-as in?
J-as in...I dont like you wearing white or black..they dont go with your personality..colors adorn your beauty..like right now...this white dress of yours..i so feel like...
V-like..?
J-getting rid of this...damn thing
His hand made way to her back slowly tracing the zip of her kurta and pulling it down...she closed her eyes and hid her face in his neck...
V-Jaii...
The tears dried on her cheek and a light smile was playing on her lips...
Aaa..can I get some coffee??
His voice brought her back to the world and she left the swing trying her best to hide her state from him...
V- haa...
...
J-Iam sorry...
V-kis liye?
J-woh..adhi raat ko is tarah se...tumhe coffee ke liye kaha...actually I didn't feel like sleeping..so
V-its ok...
J-if I knew how to make coffee I wouldn't have bugged you...but...
V-its ok Jai...you dont have to be formal...waise bhi main apne liye bana hee rhi thi...
J-hmm...can i ask you something?
V-hmm
J-how do you manage every night..staying wide awake?
V-ahh..sorry?
J-adhi raat ko itney thand mein bahar...yeh to woh insaan hee kar sakta hai jisey neend na ati ho..insomnia?
V-Nahh..actually I feel like sitting on that swing at late hours..thats our favorite place..aa I mean..my...
your coffee..
She tried her best to escape from his eyes..she wont give him any chance to take this relationship as a burden on him..he doesn't remember her or anything related to her..she is happy with the memories..atleast he is with him...
J-Venella..
She stood still hearing her name from his mouth...how she felt like running back to his arms...but she knew she has to control...
V-aa tum coffee peeyo main...mjhe neend arhi hai...goodnight
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He entered the room and slowly closed the door without making any sound...his eyes scanned the whole room...the balcony door was open so moonlight was making the room glow in dark...everything felt so known to him...the touch..the smell and it was as if nothing changed for him...the picture frames on the wall...their engagement...wedding...honeymoon...birthdays...anniversary...
each moment was captured beautifully and he traced them with his hands...
Unknowingly a tear fell down from his eye making him feel helpless...he doesn't remember anything...any moment which they shared together...he got a new life but it was difficult for him to get on with this life...because its somehow incomplete for him...and hell uncomfortable to see everything unknown...
Turning around he saw her sleeping on the bed...
he went to her and knelt down beside the bed...she looks beautiful...her eyes always speak something...he was actually staring at her face...so serene she was...he adjusted the blanket properly on her when his eyes traveled to her neck..he can see her wearing the wedding chain..she looked breathtaking and for once he felt like losing himself ..then he remembered how a week ago he hated her...disliked every part of this truth...of his life...
J-nai...main yeh naii kar sakta...I jst cntt...
V-jai...
She was shocked seeing him there at this hour...since the time he cme back from hospital he never entered this room coz for him it was uncomfortable...to face the truth ...that they are a couple...and she didn't force him to accept anything...she wanted him to be himself...
V-Jai tum
J-.why...I wish...I could remember...a thing...I...
Her heart broke into pieces seeing him breaking down like this...she never saw him in tears...he was emotionally stronger than her and always the one consoling her out...
V-Jai
J-I..cant remember anything
V-Jai shshshs...you don't need to stress yourself..please..its okay..
J-it is not..I cant face myself damn it...I can't...I keep on thinking what actually happened to me..Was I a different person back then or..how I used to be with people..with you..how can I forget everything??How can I...tell me...this house..every corner of this place keeps on haunting me..I can't remember a single thing..
V-no Jai..please..calm down...
J-aur tum..your the one bearing everything..my anger..I have become selfish Venella...I have hurt you so much in this process..I don't remember us..but..I don't want to hurt you..trust me..I never wan...
V-sshh..jai please..yahan dekho
J-tumhari aankhon mein pyar dekh sakta hu main...per iske badley main tumhe sirf dard de sakta hu...sirf dard...isse acha to yeh hota main mar hee jata uss din..
V-basss...aur kuch nahi bologe tum...not a word..
She cupped his face in her hands...she knew how difficult it was for him but she wanted him to take it out..for himself...
V-Jai..its okay..I can understand its not your fault..and..i never wanted to force you into anything which your heart doesn't permit...this place..the memories..our love..is all I had with me..and in these 3 months..they gave me the strength to live..tumhe kuch yaad nahi to kya hua..I remember everything Jai..you are with me..I don't need anything else..
J- main...main jaan na chahta hu kya hua tha us din?yeh accident kaise...
V-main Chennai jaane wali thi amma ke paas...aur tumm..mujhe airport chorney aye thay...
raaste mein ek flower shop pe rukey hum..tum wapas a hee rahey thay ke achanak se ek truck...
I saw you lying in a pool of blood Jai..I wished if I would have been in your place..main kuch nahi kar pai Jai..tum...ahh..tumhe khoney ka darr har pal mujhe kamzor bana raha tha..
That was for first time she lost her control and hugged him tight...crying out her fears...feeling her so close to him...he wrapped his arms around her...he did feel something...but that fwas still new to him...
J-how can you love me like thiss?I won't be able to love you back..Venella
V-I don't want anything Jai..I just want to be with you..give me this small place in your life..trust me..I won't cross my limits..ever...
He stared at her face which reflected pain..she loved him unconditionally..but will he be able to give her back this love?That night he kept on fighting with his mind and didn't realize when he felt her body so close hugging him tight...closing his eyes he witnessed this change in his body language..how his mind or body deceived him...his nerves relaxed feeling her closer to him and he slept..finally...after so long..!
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1 month later...
i can still remember those sleepless nights..when I stared at her face all night..trying to discover myself..the lost love I had for her..maybe it was still there in my heart..
She never asked for anything..gave me enough space..to do what I want..I could see the yearning the love for me in her eyes and yet..remain clueless or unaffected..No i wasn't..in fact last few days have been difficult for me..the confusion was lingering on to me..
I felt attracted towards her..started liking the little things she does for me..and the smile I get to see on her face when I complement her..like last night how she cooked my favorite dish and then I learned the perfecting blending of coffee from her...
Every time I see her I feel like getting closer to her..know more about herself and we have been trying that well..I was shown our wedding pictures..how we spent the blissful year of our married life..
I feel much better now..with no force or struggle to recollect those moments which I have forgotten..i wish if I could recall them but..she stops me from doing that..I know how that expression changes on her face if i say or remember something abruptly and then nothing comes out of it..giving her the dejected look... but she is strong..
We do sleep next to each other..but do not share the normal intimacy.. she never stopped me but I had to control hard at times..it is difficult..I wanted to discover this relationship first..the love respect I had for her earlier I wanted to rekindle that..and before that i can't use her for my needs or desires...Being a life partner is not about that particular thing only..and now we have this thing called understanding..I know her alot..better than before..and she.. being the strong force by my side..
V-Jai..kya kar rahe ho..baarish hone wali hai...andar ajao na...
At night they were lying on the bed...he was staring at her face trying to observe something ...
V-aise kya dekh rahe ho
J-ek baat batau..yehh..tumhare chehre ke rang ko feeka kar deta hai
V-??kyaa
J-this dress of yours...white...I don't know for some reason I hate white..aur tumpe to acha lagta hee nahi hai...
She smiled making him confused...
J-what?...
V-you know..you're still that same old Jai of mine..I was wrong..I never lost you..and now..
She felt his finger tracing her lip line and before he could stop his attempt she joined their lips sealing the lost rekindled love they had for eachother...
She settled herself in his arms while he placed a soft kiss on her head trying to live the moment without anything stopping him...
Link to the song..http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2VaF0ZX65w
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I tried a mixture of hindi and english..and was clueless if I would get any readers or not..well...😆
-Laddoo😛
Arjun
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