Hai dil ko teri aarzu
Par main tujhe na paa sakun
Hai dil ko teri justaju
Par main tujhe na paa sakun
Main hoon shab tu subah
Dono jud ke judaa
Main hoon labh tu dua
Dono jud ke judaa..
Kayi khwaab dil tujhko le kar sajaaye
Par khauf yeh bhi kahin par sataaye
Ghar yeh bhi tootey toh phir hoga kya re
Mujhe raas aati hain khushiyaan kahan re
Kyon dil ko dukhana bewajah madno re
Kyon dil ko dukhana bewajah
Phir aansu bahana ik dafa
Phir aansu bahana ik dafa
Dono jud ke judaa
Main hoon labh tu dua
Dono jud ke judaa
Lamhon ki inn zanjeeron mein
Tu hi to har dam raha hai
Khwaabon ki har taaberon mein
Tu hi to har din dikha hai
Dhundli ujali tasveeron mein
Tere hi to hai khusbu mujh mein haan
Ab tu hi to har su har jagah
Ab tu hi to har su har jagah
Hai dil ko teri aarzu
Par main tujhe na paa sakun
Hai dil ko teri justaju
Par main tujhe na paa sakun
____________ Madno.
Maybe he should take a decisive stand.
Maybe he should get out of his self pity mode.
Maybe he should roar and let everybody know in no uncertain terms that YES! He needs, wants and gonna BE with Naina.
Maybe..
But...
Maybe he should gather the shards, slivers, pieces of his own broken heart first.
Maybe he should pierce back his torn soul first.
Maybe he should fight the darkness that engulfed his light first.
Maybe he should just ... Breakdown, throw things around, curse, accuse, judge and finally ... just.. cry his heart out.
What a heart breaking scene!
From seeing her.
To gather courage and going out to see her. The door that separated them could be a gulf for him. But he tried.
Curling into a ball and talking to his tanhai... wishing for his friend to be with him. So what if there is this barrier of umbrella between them.. atleast he knew that she is there by his side.
and that she is alright.
and that she is with him.
Silently watching her from sidelines with serene smile;
then hiding lest she sees him.
then taking a step forward to meet her.
and then walking back.
Waiting in the room wishing for her to come to him.
and then cursing himself for wishing for what that can't and shouldn't be.
That convincing himself: Yes! this is my life. And i should make peace with it.
and then raging in fury at the injustice of life and destiny.
Him tearing himself into two.
A part of him.. wishing nothing more than reaching the girl and being with her.
another one ... forbidding him from wishing that wish.
and then that breaking down.
everything is a lie. then why did i thought that you would... letting the words remain in his soul.
that you would stand by me.
stay with me.
now and forever.
Why did i hope and wish for that?
And then came tears.
and they just won't stop.
how could they? every seen a cloud not breaking down when the burden gets too much?
The man is holding a storm in his heart.
Let him rage, let him rain.. Let him be.
Maybe... He shall embrace the sunshine soon when he finds peace. When he finds her in his heart.
When he finds himself.
For now.. let him be lost.
for the truth staring at him.. that she is no longer in his life... is too much for him to bear.
What a heartbreaking episode!