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Dear Diary,
Today I deleted even the last vestiges of Lavanya's physical presence in my life, her letters! I won't deny the fact that I did feel that slight tug in my heart when I threw those letters in the dustbin. But for some reason the pain wasn't as searing as I expected it to be. I thought it would tear my soul for I was removing a certain part of it, a part which I loved deeply. A part that was never mine but still ended up becoming my life. A part that broke me into pieces even when I tried my best to stay glued up. A part that just inflicted pain in me!
I wondered about the lack of pain I felt for Lavanya, what could have possibly been the reason behind me letting her go out my life with this ease?
And then, as if planned, my phone buzzed as an answer to the numerous questions popping in my head. The reason' was calling.
A smile approached my lips almost involuntarily.
*KHUSHI* the screen flashed her name.
Words will fall short if I went on to describe her. She is this cute, little and caring angel I met when I was most broken in my life. How full of life she was and how she inflicted that liveliness back in me.
She gave me all the required support and nurtured me back to life. She became my best friend.
There were days when I used to cry for Lavanya for hours at a stretch, and then there were days when Khushi used to make me forget Lavanya completely! Khushi is this magical!
Sometimes I wonder if Lavanya would have been like Khushi then how would life be.
Happier, much more sorted and lovely, I guess.
I wondered about the lack of pain I felt for Lavanya, what could have possibly been the reason behind me letting her go out my life with this ease?
And then, as if planned, my phone buzzed as an answer to the numerous questions popping in my head. The reason' was calling.
A smile approached my lips almost involuntarily.
*KHUSHI* the screen flashed her name.
Words will fall short if I went on to describe her. She is this cute, little and caring angel I met when I was most broken in my life. How full of life she was and how she inflicted that liveliness back in me.
She gave me all the required support and nurtured me back to life. She became my best friend.
There were days when I used to cry for Lavanya for hours at a stretch, and then there were days when Khushi used to make me forget Lavanya completely! Khushi is this magical!
Sometimes I wonder if Lavanya would have been like Khushi then how would life be.
Happier, much more sorted and lovely, I guess.
Khushi is someone anybody can fall for easily. Her nature is catching and her laugh is infectious.
She is so contagious that even I could not stop myself from liking her.
I don't know how and when that happened, how she made me boat through the memories of Lavanya and brought me to her land.
Sometimes I wish to tell her that I like her and ask her if we can be more than friends.
But I'm scared that it might spoil our friendship. After all we are best friends and I simply can't afford to lose her.
It's occasionally but I do see her reciprocating my feelings. But I'm unsure if she really likes me or it's just her care. What if I confess my feelings to her and she ends up saying that she doesn't feel the same way.
It would be saddening but what worries me more is that it might ruin our friendship.
I wish I could tell her someday that how much I like her. How much more she means to me than just a friend. How I wish to keep her by my side all day long. How I longed for someone like her. And how lucky I am to have her in my life to engineer me back together.
How I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say!'
How I wish...!!
Good Night
Love
Arnav
-Manika S
She is so contagious that even I could not stop myself from liking her.
I don't know how and when that happened, how she made me boat through the memories of Lavanya and brought me to her land.
Sometimes I wish to tell her that I like her and ask her if we can be more than friends.
But I'm scared that it might spoil our friendship. After all we are best friends and I simply can't afford to lose her.
It's occasionally but I do see her reciprocating my feelings. But I'm unsure if she really likes me or it's just her care. What if I confess my feelings to her and she ends up saying that she doesn't feel the same way.
It would be saddening but what worries me more is that it might ruin our friendship.
I wish I could tell her someday that how much I like her. How much more she means to me than just a friend. How I wish to keep her by my side all day long. How I longed for someone like her. And how lucky I am to have her in my life to engineer me back together.
How I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say!'
How I wish...!!
Good Night
Love
Arnav
-Manika S
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