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Hey there all the lovely people.
It's a Sunday and no Tu Sooraj tu sanjh piyaji today. So I wrote Uma Shankar's weekend journal. It's his Pov.
It's the most auspicious day of the year.. it's the mahashivratri festival- day lord shiva married Parvati. It's one of the highlights of my entire year. The whole Ladno comes together to celebrate the marriage of Uma Shankar (shiv parvati) and yes that's my name too.
For days now I am running into a girl one way or other. I smell her in the air, feel her yet I never saw her. I had the chance to talk to her when she left me her number but still I waited for only the lord knows what is in store for me/us. I first saw her in a temple in Kerala, I didn't see her but felt her presence the Mehak of chandan was around. We had our share of hits and misses. And today my mind wanders off to her frequently, she is my happy memory and it's only mine to keep. A duppata came over to me in the market place today, and that has kept me longing for more, for it had to be hers... I feel that she is in Ladno. I believe that all this is signs from the Lord that she is the one for me, as I have never thought about the opposite sex before. But this girls has the feels, to be mine. The one to complete me.
I am happy, lost in my celebration of Shivji and Parvati singing and dancing. Suddenly despite there being several people I feel silence, the world around me is mute. She is here, I smile and she falls into my arm - there goes the kumkum from my hand not that I had noticed it flying. But I did see it falling on her head. I see her. Everything stops for me, I look at her taking everything, her face, the kumkum, my ring on her hand and I froze. For I don't remember how long I stood there entangled in garlands with her. Yes in that moment she completed my whole world. She was my universe. I don't know why or how, but I just had a feeling that this girl would be mine.
Being mine is not a possession, I don't want to own her, but crave for her love and attention. For we are two pieces that fit together.
She broke free away from me and walked away. But I knew it was today or never. She had to be my wife. I did talk to massi maa about her consent. I wanted her to agree. I did ask. I sat there waiting in the mandap, where she realized her misunderstanding of our real marriage to a role play. I got up I tried to talk to her. She was pushing me away. I show her the box of her collectibles I had gathered over time... but she called it all a big co incident. Was it just a coincidence, no for me it was signal from Lord that today is the day they start their new life. She walked past me, I try to reason with her. Try to make her understand... she is fire and her refusal makes me more determined. She asks me to choose any one and in that moment I say " I choose you" I hold her hand and pick her up. I had decided we were going to get in this relationship/marriage without further ado. She cried, fought, bit me screamed for help. But I didn't stop I went along with all the rituals. She sobered up I thought she realized, I made her wear the Mangalsutra and sindoor. But she called me mad and pushed as hard as she could and ran away. But I knew she would always be my wife and he knew how to take care of her. He had done according to the dharm he saw right.
My heart broke when I saw her tied up, I couldn't condemn my people enough for using strength at women kids and elders.
I ask her to step out. She is scared and hurriedly got off. She cried uncontrollably, I untie her hands and mouth.. I promise her that there would be no Zor Zabardasti with her. She would want to meet her family and I would take care of her as this relationship is of seven lifetimes. She begged me to release her from this bond, but I refused her that a wife cannot leave without her husbands consent.
I take her to the house. She refuses to do the grahpravesh, I stand by her. I don't understand what is going through her mind. I just stand beside her protecting her from the sunshine when she was restless. I pray the lord to help and she just enters doing all the rasms unconsciously. I explain her the ring finding ritual, but she is lost somewhere.. I notice but I don't vocalize my thoughts. For she need time care and attention. And she would have it all for she is my Dharm Patni. I promise to share with her my wealth status and everything, but more than that my life. She would be the person to complete me, my life and I hers.
We found her mobile ringing in her bag, she threw it in flames so that we couldn't find about her and her family. It's okay i understand she is distressed.
I enter the room, I want to talk to her, ease her out of discomfort but she locks herself in the bathroom, I could have opened the door. But I don't for I believe time is the biggest healer. Time is what brought us together and time is what will keep us together. For we are one, she the fire and I am the light or vice versa.
I couldn't find anything else to do 😆 😆
Enjoy. 😉
CID
Ishaani
