TS-"Tum Se Hi..."
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Shot 1: "Tum Ho ..."
She asked him again-"Kuch hua hai kya, aap theek toh hain Shivaay?"
He looked at her as though trying to figure out how she always knew what lay in the deepest corner of his heart. He dint have to say anything or show any sign she would just know..! A little while back had he been questioning whether he wanted HER or HIS IDEALS..? Hell!! HER Any day..!
And almost on impulse he hugged her, feeling guilty for even thinking of pushing her away from him, just because she came from a lower background. The background could remain at the back, its past, she was his present and He wanted a future with her.No "ifs" and "buts". He felt so protected in her arms. He felt at peace in her arms.
Tum Ho..
Tum Ho Paas Mere
Saath Mere
Tum yoon
Jitna Mehsoos Karoon tumko
Utna Hi Paa Bhi Loon
You are..
You are near me,
with me,
you are..
so much I feel you,
as much I get you too..
She gently caressed his back, as he held on to her as though his life depended on it. Was he all right? She panicked. He felt her panicking; he slowly wiped that lone tear that threatened to fall off his eye. Breaking the hug, he assured her that everything was fine.
A lone tear escaped his eye as he sat away in the darkness thinking about the scene. He had chosen her. But, what happened at the Pooja took him by shock. She was not Saahil's own sister.!! It wouldn't have hurt as much, but it did.!
It tore him to see her like that, the trembling voice she spoke with, her hand clutching the edge of her dupatta, those tears she tried to keep from falling, he had never seen his Anika that weak!
Her words struck him like a sword. "Mera naa koi naam hai, naa Khaandaan, naa Khoon!Sirf Main Hoon...Anika.!"
Pinky's words echoed in his ears-"Shivaay ye toh tere usool hai...Naam , Khoon Khanadan, ye tere liye bahut matters karte hain!" His jaw clenched as he tried to keep himself from screaming, the battle inside him gave him pain, immense pain! He had to walk out before he could do something he would regret later. He walked out of the place to somewhere, isolated.
Now he sat there, alone, engulfed in darkness. Those flashbacks seemed to be playing loop not stopping no matter how hard he tried. Anika's repeating voice gave him goose bumps. He remembered every moment he had spent with her. Why din't she tell him? Once she should have let him known..!
"And what would you do? Insult her a little bit more? Push her still away? Not declare her wife in public..!?" the other Shivaay in front of him spoke up.
"I would have ...managed everything...!"
The other voice chuckled-"Until when? Until, when will you just manage, she kept giving you hints, she said that she was just Anika...did you once try to comprehend what she meant? Once? She kept shooing you away from herself, she was even willing to walk away from you, it was you who stopped her...every time, it was you...you were the one who told she is your wife...YOU..! And now is your loyalty shaken by just this much that she lacks her name , doesn't have a lineage, doesn't know her own parents?"
Is she no longer important? This matters to you more; these stupid ideals that took away happiness from your own sister and now you? Priyanka would have been better off married to Dev, she wouldn't have to go through any of it that she had..!"
"Enough he screamed!" throwing his phone, which broke into pieces.
He looked around there was no one. He held his head in his hands. He needed her. She was his support system, she understood him better. He needed his Anika..!
He walked out, to go back to her.!!
He reached his room and found no one, he called her name, it remained unanswered. Panicking he searched the entire place she was nowhere. Distress and anxiety took over him. He dug into his pocket for his phone, only to realise, he had broken it a while ago. Cursing he went to the landline and called her, her phone rang it was on the couch.
He let out a few curses and reached for the phone. He quickly saw the last dials, 30+ calls to him.! He screwed his eyes shut in regret. "kahan ho Anika, I need you..! Please come back!" He stumped on the couch in despair and scrolled into her messenger, she had sent him a voice message?
He quickly played it.
"Shivaay, please waapas aa jaaiye ...Mujhe nahi pata thaa jo humaare beech thaa..hai...wo iss cheez se badal jaayega...Haan main aanath hoon Shivaay, main kuch nahi kar sakti...mera koi naam khoon khaandaan nahi hai...mere liye meri family sirf Saahil thaa...Mujhe sirf apne Anika hone pe garv thaa...lekin phir aap aaye aur kab meri duniya badal gayi mujhe pata hi nahi chala...main jaanti thii ki aapke liye ye naam waghra bahut maaine lagta hai...lekin kahin ...mujhe lagne laagaaa...ki..." she sobbed."...I m sorry Shivaay...aapne mujhe ek nayi pehchaan di...ek naya naam...diya...ek naya parivaar...ek nayi jeene ki wajah...Main jaanti hoon, aap shayad kabhi mujhe accept nahi kar paayenge...bas aapko Sorry kehna hai...main jaanti hoon maine aapko bahut dard diya Shivaay...I m Sorry" she cried bitterly as the audio ended.
By now a devastated Shivaay sat on the floor beside the couch where she had been sitting and recording a while ago, his hands trembling to hold on to the device. While his tears kept flooding down his cheeks in succession. All he wanted know was to hug her an tell her "Anika , Main Hoon...Tumhaare Liye...Tumhara Shivaay..!!"
Fresh tears rolled down, as his eyes grew red in pain.
Tum Ho Mere Liye
Mere Liye ho Tum yoon
Khud Ko Main Haar Gaya Tum Ko
Tumko main Jeeta Hoon
You are, for me,
for me, in such a way you are,
(that) I lost myself to you,
(and) I have won you (too)..
He dint know how long he had been sitting there like that. He heard Saahil enter and quickly wiped his tears,trying to hide his distress, which was quite evident by the condition of his face.
Saahil-"Aap ro rahe ho?"
Shivaay-"Nahi wo aankh..
Saahil-"Pata hai ro rahe ho...!"
Shivaay looked at the little boy, and sat beside him-"Wo chali gayi!"
Om who had been silently watching, entered-"Aur tu usse jaane dega?"
Shivaay looked up at him, trying to comprehend what he meant. He went into flashback-"Main tumhe chod ke kabhi nahi jaaunga, naa hii tumhe jaane doonga..!" His eyes widened, yes he couldn't break his promise.
He looked up at Om, and then Rudra and then Saahil as though searching for an answer. The three nodded in a yes. He knew.
He was about to go looking for her like that, when he was stopped by Saaahil who asked him to freshen up and go lest his Anika didi should get scare. OmRu giggled while Shiaavy followed the little boy's order.
Finally they told him where Anika was. He was about to turn to leave dressed in the same jamuni coat she loved him in, when Rudra hugged him and whispered-"Bhaiya plz iss baar apni Dil Ki Sunna, Dimaag ki nahi!"
Shivaay looked at his little brother, and smiled proudly, his little boy was now big enough to be his father. Hugging the trio he left to get her back.Kahin Se Kahin Ko Bhi
Aao Bewajah Chalen
Poochhe Bina Kisi Se
Hum Milen
Bandishen Na Rahi Koi Baaki Tum Ho
From anywhere to anywhere
let's go for no reason,
without asking anyone
we should meet
there are no barriers remaining.. (because) you are..
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Tera mujhe, kar jaati hai dooriyan
Sataati hain dooriyan
Tarsaati hain dooriyan
Fanaah ho sabhi dooriyan
The distances between us make's me your's
The distances torment me
The distances make me long
All these distances should finish
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Geet - Hui Sabse Parayee
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Shiv Shakti
