Seconds turned into minutes and minutes passed to hours while the latter became days which in return turned in to weeks, in other words months.
The rapport between Suraj and Chakor started to change.
Chakor became attached to him.
And same applies to Suraj but he is not ready to differentiate his attraction from need/want equation.
Their days started together with a starter and ended with full meals.
A lot of events occurred which changed their course of life and vision since their first meeting.
******* IN-BETWEEN 3 MONTHS *******
Chakor's magic had not left his PA, Karan who by now looks her like a sister and tries to help her whenever possible.
During these 3 months of relationship, Suraj's brother, Shantanu Rajvanshi appeared in this house twice.
Once it was to take an important meeting file for a contract from his brother.
That is when Chakor came from room calling Suraj to ask him how she looks in the new dress he has bought for her.
As Suraj was in the door way, waiting for his brother with open door, he didn't know she will try the dress at that moment itself.
It's the first gift from HIM to HER in these 6 weeks relationship.
Shantanu took the file and left from there without even sparing a look at her.
Second time when he came, it was 3 weeks before now or it can be said 7 weeks after the first time he came here.
This time she knew he will come, so she went to prepare tea for the brothers.
Shantanu took a place in couch and took a tour of this house with his scanner eyes.
He was telling how their mother wish to see him in their home instead of here with a "Mistress!"
"She care about you, bro!"
"You know what I care about and not!"
"I can see for whom you care more now." indicating Chakor.
All this while, she wasn't aware of being the topic of their talk.
Suraj didn't comment on this topic anymore as he doesn't want to push his only family, his brother away from him.
Shantanu glanced an angry look at Chakor while taking a cup and never turned to her side from then on.
After that, they discussed about business for a long time before Suraj's brother left from there.
As it can be seen, Chakor has took a big place in his so called non-existing heart as time passed.
It's only him who is not noticing anything. Or it can be taken as he doesn't want to notice the changes in him.
Even during her last 2 monthlies he came here just to sleep with her, holding her hands, hugging her, and kissing her on forehead.
She was surprised by his activities but never dare to raise any questions.
Sometimes he stays at their place managing the business through chat, phone calls and mails.
Without his knowledge, little by little he is becoming attached to her, protective towards her and possessive of her.
Attached:
Want to hold her.
Need to feel her.
Which are the definition of the mere attraction for his mind.
Protective:
Keep her away from the outer world.
Keep her away from his brother.
Which will destroy her innocence and soul if not protected.
Possessive:
Enclose her in his embrace from those monsters eyes when he took her for shopping and it was the only time they went out together.
Enclose her from her future and past which she is uncertain and fearful.
Enclose her from her family which sent her to this cruel world.
His action speaks 1000 time more than what he feels and tells.
But never ready to accept it.
In all these months, Chakor started to make this house her home with each passing seconds, collecting all the memories of him within her for the rest of her life when she will be alone.
She has always felt of being alone as an only child, then losing her parents and finally at her aunt's place even when they cared for her.
Alone, a word which she has experienced from the first day of her life until she met him.
Alone, a word which she is feared of since last two and half months.
Alone, a word which makes her feel like a death while breathing.
Her feeling for him turned into LOVE in the beginning of their rapport without any question from her side.
But she tries her best to not take anything to heart which becomes impossible the next second she sees him.
His care, his affection and his ways screamed LOVE and only LOVE to her but each day when they indulge into something more than what she has come for, his insecurities knocks the door which makes him loose his cool manners, provoking him to take the word "MISTRESS!".
The word she is destined to be.
The word she hates to hear.
The word she has to bear.
******* NOW *******
He is dealing a project which is in the state of Do-or-Die for their company.
His work pressure is taking a toll on him.
At the same time, his equation with Chakor is making him go insane when he is alone.
His insecurities of not being able to have a family is pushing him in to hell.
Without no option, Shantanu has come to discuss about that crucial project to Suraj's apartment.
As Suraj hasn't had anything since last night, she is preparing a healthy lunch for him, his brother and for herself.
They were discussing something important when Chakor came out of the kitchen island towards the table where they were seated.
"Lunch is ready!" she said in a whisper.
"You have it!" Suraj said still his eyes on screen in a light tone.
"I will wait!"
Saying that, she started to leave from there.
"We have work!" Shantanu stated the fact in a little higher pitch.
She turned to their side.
"He didn't have anything since last night."
"Chakor, I will have after. You go." Suraj said trying to be calm.
"But"
"Can't you see that we are busy?" asked his brother a little louder.
"Shantanuu!"
"Why can't you tell your Mistress to keep quiet?"
Hearing someone else calling her "Mistress!", she loses her control and tears start to flow down.
"Keep quiet!" said Suraj.
"Why should I? Tell your Mistress!"
Suraj in tension combined with anger took hold of his brother collar, greeting his teeth.
Chakor feeling miserable runs to their room.
"So, Mom was right. She took you away from us."
Leaving his collar and trying to calm himself but still angry written all over his face, Suraj tells "Go to office! I will be there."
Knowing about his brother, Shantanu left from there without uttering a second word by shutting the door like a thunder has hit the house.
In frustration, Suraj took hold of a showpiece and throw it on the floor, making it explodes in millions of pieces like his mind is at that instant.
Hearing the sound, Chakor came running out of the room to see Suraj frustrated and red in anger, running his left hand in his hairs and his right hand on his hip.
Seeing her near him, he started:
"You know your place in my life!" HE said in calm tone but not in a calm way in this tension filled atmosphere.
"No need to repeat it daily!" turning away from HIM.
"If you forget, I have to remember you!"
SHE turned to face HIM with anger coated eyes.
"Thanks to you I will never FORGET that"
"You are my" HE threw his words interrupting her when she completed it by her next word without letting him pronounce it.
"Mistress!" and she fell on the floor with tears rolling down her cheeks.
*** I can never forget that word as that reminds me of my position in your life.
As you never want to accept my position in your heart by giving a name to it. ***
- I don't have nothing to give her expect my pain and my fear.
Pain of not having a future.
Fear of not gaining a future.
She deserves more.
She deserves better.
She deserves best.
I have to make her hate me.
I have to do it. -
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
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