ARSHI OS- LITTLE

To
The new father,

That jiffy when you came to know I had conceived, how you ran across room shouting with excitement, hopping like a little kid who just received his favorite toy. You looked hilarious, more of a sibling than a father to the anticipated child; you looked just like a child.

Yelling and dancing I had seen you become oblivious to the world. I tried hard to remember when you were this happy. I think that was when I had said yes' to you, that time also you jumped around screaming like a little kid.

This attitude of yours sometimes worries me too, I wonder if you start behaving like a child along with young one. How will you ever be strict to him and teach him discipline! Thinking to what extend you will spoil the kid, I sigh.
But deep inside I have the assurance that you will be a great father, a father our child will look up to someday.

How I laugh remembering that 9 months! It had all, my mood swings, my pain, my nausea, my fights, our fights, your fights, your care, your scolding, your love, our love, my love. A smile almost instantly approaches my face; despite of the unbearable pain I thank God for granting females the boon of child birth, it helped me to find you again.

You remember the time, when we fought if the baby would be a girl or a boy. While I stressed all the time that it would be a boy, I know, I'm the mother and you continuously said that you have always wanted a girl child and you will throw the kid in case he is a boy. How angry I got!
You really tried to take hold of the situation, saying it was merely a joke. But my body had already released too much of the anger hormone by then. Too bad! I know I had made the next two days hell for you!

In those nine months I realized that the first time you become a mother, it is a very special feeling, unexplainable, it's like so many emotions into one. You have anxiety, happiness, fears, reliefs and an agglomeration of a hundred little words! First child is indeed very special!
How I blamed my mother all life for loving my elder brother more!
I know our first child irrespective of being a girl or a boy; will be equally special for you, for it's the first time that you are going through stages of being a father. I really hope it is the first time: P (kidding!)

There are numerous little journeys we travelled together during this time. For nights we talked about the big questions like if we will be able to prove our worth as parents, how will be able to cope up with the work and the new member to the numerous small issues like the names, schooling, career and also what will happen if the child is born ugly like you. :P

Travelling all these journeys together I know you must have got habitual to me. But from here on, after the nine months, I would no longer be with you. But the good part is that you won't be alone in this, you will have our' little someone with you now. He or she will travel with you. I wanted to trace the journey of growing up of our first child together but I was helpless. Seeing your happiness after I broke the news of my pregnancy, I was not able to sum up enough courage to tell you that this child will be life threatening to me. Doctor had warned me against this child, I know this was something of our' decision rather than just mine'. But I knew had I told you anything about this you would have forced me to terminate my pregnancy.

I really wanted this child, for you, for me, for our love, a sign that's half you, half me!

Happy fathering!
My love

Yours forever,
Yes! Forever's come to an end!
Khushi

P.S. Please take equally good care if it is a boy! :P
He too is ours like your unborn daughter would have been.

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I am glad it touched you. :)

Yes, this story is a bit high on emotions, not every love story is pink forever. :)

I am glad it touched you, that's the most important thing for a writer that his/her stories touch people's heart.😊

True, that is why I quoted, some infinities are greater than other infinities. :)