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Hello guys,this one I am writing casually, just for sharing my stupid emotions with my forum friends...for I think that maybe you all would understand me and help in coping with it...actually it is said na,"mann ka dukh kisi ke saath baatne se khatm toh nahi hota,haan par usks bojh kuchh halka zaroor hon jaata hai..."
The thing is,the latest episode has affected me deeply,very very deeply...I am feeling very much depressed...
I am feeling like crying out loud...just imagine a very dear one of yours is in deep pain,how would you feel...feels like the world is crashing down,it feels like if only I could do something...!
The same feeling I got when I saw Suraj...this is the second time in my life that I am so,so deeply attached to the character.I am watching...I am hereby making the most silly confession that,"I AM TOTALLY,DEEPLY,MADLY IN LOVE WITH THE CHARACTER OF SURAJ."...[the last time,I had loved a male character of a fiction tv series was in 2009,I was crazy after 'Mann ki awaaz Pratigya's'...Krishna,still his memories are so much afresh that I vividly remember
each of his scene,each of his dialogue like a verse]...since then 8 long years have passed and I do have watched and liked many other tv shows,and even had a light crush on many other male tv artists as well...BUT THIS IS HAPPENING WITH ME FOR THE SECOND TIME...THAT I LAUGH,CRY,AND FEEL SO MUCH INTENSELY FOR A CHARACTER...
After he made the decision of saving his MIL and sacrificing his mother...and the way he was continuing in his rescue mission,walking and walking,wiping off his tears,,,,,,,,,,,,IT WAS TEARING ME INSIDE...and in the last scene where he finally broke down,and shared his feelings regarding his mother I was completely moved,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,My goodness,the person holds so,so much pain inside him...
And here lies my actual depression,we all discuss about Chakor's hidden feelings as she outpours it whenever intoxicated,but what about Suraj...he never releases his inner demons...but he has inside him a ocean of pain...IMMENSE PAIN...
What the hell wrong has he done to mankind????
Which person's life has been completely destroyed because of him???
Why he has to suffer so much???...WHY???
I am liking him since the day I saw him...and trust me no matter how much hard I tried,I just could not hate the character...I just could not...!
He had never been that bad the way he is being made to suffer,each passing day...he had been chained,humiliated,made to beg for a drop of water,was starved to death...and many more sufferings are still awaiting him...IS HE REALLY WORTH IT...????
I swear,that if a person exactly like Suraj in the condition,would have existed in the real world,,,,,,,,I could not have helped myself falling madly for him...
When he was crying,keeping all the logic at stake,I felt like breaking my TV's glass,jumping inside and just hug him so tightly,console him in such a way that he feels like no pain exists for him in this world...
I want him to be loved,to be respected,,the way he deserves to be loved and respected not by only Chakor,but by everyone else...
I know guys,I am really sounding like a lunatic or psycho case,case but I really cant help it,,,,,,,,,,
I really cant explain it or express it in words,but his pain and sufferings BREAKS ME INSIDE...AND IT HURTS...ðŸ˜
Thank you very much for bearing with me and reading my confused and depressed state of mind...feeling very much relieved now...😊
-Rabia.😔
Anupamaa
