Whispa you lied , this wasn't a good episode it was a sad depressing yet oddly calming episode ...a few days ago i started a post on memo pad and decided to finish it online , but lost it ...
This is going to be that post with what ever happened yesterday ...
Roses are red violets are blue
Vitharv is heart broken
On valentines day and
So am I...š„ŗ
Hey my loves happy valentines day... Much love and kisses to you all...ā¤ļø
It's funny don't you think... We have been planning for this day since last year...
I mean in every TV show... The lead couple always gives us something ...
And I was sure vitharv wouldn't disappoint... But her we are... *sigh*
Atharva sujata has literally vitharv-blocked us... Hasn't he??
It's their wedding celebration , they should be giving us hadli part 2-4 but they look as if it's a funeral...
Forget about the self proclaimed wedding planner, who fails to see that, all this is actually for HIM... ravish don't lie to your self please... There is a limit to all things...
If this wasn't for your mahaamness you would realise that, having your wedding with people who literally told you, they don't want it to happen is not joyful... Ie suman.
You should have asked... Don't you think vv would have wanted to also plan and decorate her own wedding, maybe choose a date themselves Oh wait and the venue too...
With the amount of trauma and hatred directed at this couple in that house, why would they EVER want to have their wedding there... But vitharv have to be grateful...
I won't even talk about the divorce paper shenanigans... For a self employed wedding planner... Way to lay on the guilt my bradder...
But I don't have time any more for you... Whatever you want just do...
But I have time for Atharva my man, my life my baby...
Julie said something that struck a cord in me... Atharva once promised vividha that whatever vividha wanted she would have it as no one will ever stand in her way and he will help her get it...
Atharva asked her put me aside but our vows aside, and think about YOU... What do you want...
He believes in his vows, he knows she believes them, but what if that's why she is stuck... "vividha knows how to keep relationships" he said
What if she is just keeping this relationship for him... He doesn't want her to be sad... It's about vv whether he is right or wrong... It's all about vv... That's another weird contrast... Between the brothers... Its all about ravish for ravish ... But v fo atharva...
I won't talk about the reasons for his doubt we have discussed that in length... To to me I wasn't really interested in Atharva's reasons until the car ride and scarf thing... And for me I would have preferred that if someone had to say something it should have been vividha... Ravish is no one he isn't in said relationship it's none of his beeswax...
dear ravish
The words need to go from vv's mouth to God's ears and atharva's too... To my ears...
I didn't see why ravish couldn't just say. We now divorced full stop.. He had to go narrate the past present future and past participle of vitharv to the world... To show us how understanding dear "h*sband" is...
Good for him... Now back to where this post is going...
For some reason am more at peace with this phase than most... Will tell you why later...
From where Atharv stands his life is crumbling around him...
Even with all this am sorry but atharva is making me angry... Because he has no right...š”
This Man no matter how much I love him... How much I will NEVER stop loving him.. No matter the fact that I will tear you into little pieces and burn you if you pock my bad day to talk bulls hit about him, especially if you don't know what you are talking about...
No matter all this facts, I have an uncontrollable rage on me...
Atharva sujata has no right to put me through this...
He has no right to put himself through this...
He has no right to put vv through this...
I want to shake him I want to scream
He has no right to make me cry as he does something so painful to him self ...
As he cuts his own heart out , all for the fact that he suddenly realised he needs to be a Big "brother" ... and he ravish just climbs on the stupid train ... and i sit here most of time thinking at atharva
I want to shake him and tell him please don't do this don't go down this path ...
But who am i ... what can i do .. this is Atharva ... not the Atharva i know but this is Atharva ... this is the weak Atharva the scared little boy , who was abandon by his father , whose mother was sad her entire life , this is the Atharva who had accepted that he would be alone forever and the fact that Vividha was a blessing he didn't deserve in the first place ...
This is that Atharva who couldn't say i love you ... this is him ... this is the weak Atharva , this is Atharva with all his weaknesses and fears taking control of his life ... this is the Atharva who isn't fighting , he has accepted that he was never suppose to be happy ... this is the Atharva cvs are giving me ...
It's really no one's fault but mine ... I keep him on a pedestal so high up in the sky that not even birds can reach him .. And he deserve a pedestal that high and even higher if need be ... not because of so called mahaaness , but because some human beings like him , where just born to be that special ...
i wish i could stop him in his tracks , i wish he had gone to sujata not ravish ... sujata would have handled this better...
Dear Atharva if i could i would send my hand into you and pull out this pain and madness you are going through ... i would save you from yourself and show you the right path ... i would do anything to stop your pain , my pain ...
Please don't do this,this weakness is not you , it was never you , please your strength , vividha's love is right there in front of you ... I know you think she is no longer yours but she IS ...you are REFUSING to see it ... you have easily accepted what has been doctrine into you from a young age , your fathers other family always gets the better end of the stick ... that's a lie... your destiny was far more greater than them all ... look at her not them , not their so called pain ... look at her she is in pain for you and only you ... she is not only a blessing but your destiny ... yes your destiny ...
This is not you, these fears have always been in you , but you have always fought them , what happened ?, no don't tell me , you lost three months of your life , i get that but all you lost was time not your family ...
It's funny you see in spite if all these chaos, this is my most comfortable phase... Again tell you why later ...
Phase one was about happiness, love and the euphoria of having that one person who is the world to you ... perfection and fairy-tales ... but i was always afraid waiting for the other shoe to drop ...
How will vv marry someone else ??
Why would she?
Will she fall in love ??
Atharva goes crazy??
How??why?
This phase was of sleepless nights and unanswered questions with worries upon worries...always waiting for the other shoe to drop ...
Phase two was not better .For the most part we were all , on the 'a force marriage is a forced marriage' roller coaster ... trying to remind mankind and cvs they shouldn't pull that crap on us , when vv suddenly seem to sit in one place and acting all perfect bahu and giving wallets ...
Some people threaten to burn their tv ... in phase two you knew what was right , but i could only breath at the end of said phase ...
Phase two broke them , into many little pieces that can be found in every corner of the vashisht house ... phase two took away something from them ...it took away Atharva ability to believe in reality , in what that actually happened ... all Atharva has is "hear say" ... are these really his memories or are these people just telling him thongs ... And all Atharva has known is seeing is believing... That's why he is relying so much on his eyes ... He FELT time hadn't move , but could SEE it had ...
He is doing what he has been doing since he came back , ignore feelings , use eyes...
But he forgets don't judge the book by its cover ...
And phase two took away vividha's innocence ...Unapologetically and without mercy... it took away her father and her sister... it took away her love and it took away her free will ...
And now here we are are with two broken people who have lost sooo much ... and keeping on loosing ...
On one hand we have Atharva who badly wants to remember , he wants to connect the pieces of his life that are missing , he wants to connect those dots that are air borne ... he needs to connect those dots ... he wants to remember ... he NEEDS to remember ...
While on the other hand we have vv that would rather forget , forget the fear , the pain , the betrayal , the imprisonment , the gaslighting ... a vivi that would want to wake up one day and discover that its still the night before her her wedding ... the first one ...
This should be your first sign ... they are not on the same page ... and the saying the grass is always greener on the other side has never made so much sense...
These are people that need to find that common ground that understanding and equality for them to start rebuilding themselves into a stronger unit ... because that's what is going to happen Vitharv will come out stronger...
You can't want them at their best always if you cannot get them at their absolute worse ...
With all these things happening, all am doing is impatiently anticipating the confrontation ... a confrontation that needs to happen ... the cvs are going about it the wrong way ... but if you think about it the result is our goal ... they will finally have that long pending overdue confrontation...
Vitharva are on a journey of love, we are finally at that stage in a relation when we lose faith just to gain it ten times more ... they are realistic , everything cannot always go on a smooth slide... here we have two broken people ...
Phase three is the best thing that could happen to me because am at peace , yes we are at war in our own ship but in the end all that matters is love ... love conquers all..
That love will conquer ... if cvs want they can super glue ravish to Vitharv but it will always be vtharv aaannnmnd ravish... this triangle has been failing and will continue failing ...
i mean dont this cvs get it , this triangle cant survive a breeze ... my first thought about cvs and the vashisht household right know is
This is the phase where i can stand and say ...
I will go down with this ship ...
And sure some of you are all
Well
... wouldn't you be ... knowing that your couple are being slowly carefully built to come out better stronger and even more stable than ever...after this do you think Atharva will ever fear that vv will go away from his heart ... after all this do you think vv will ever fear death, when Atharva will always come back to her ...
I tell you sit down breath and watch the build up ... this is a chess game we have our king and queen the rest are just ponds that will eventually loose ... just wait ... this is a build up to our destination ...if you want to focus so much on the details , then look at it closely who at this moment still makes you want to get the moon for them even though they are being stupid
You know the answer ...š
15th episode
Today's episode was actually the vitharv episode ...
The perfection the pain ... This is the realest vitharv have been for a while ...
If I told you I loved it that will be an understatement ...
The episode to me was the cvs wink ... They where telling us hang in there ... We might suck at it , but we know what we are doing ...
I seriously thought , I would hate this baby A shenanigans...
But surprise suprise I love it ... Why ??
Well
Vikram is an actor of a certain standard ...he Is amazing ...
But atharva is another question ... This man is not an actor ... And cvs I applaud you ...
Baby A , was is a joy ... He was a care free happy child , who saw the world in simple terms , was peaceful and had no worries , trustful and willful...
Atharva's plan failing from the get go says a lot ... it was expected to fail , it needed to fail and when it did fail before it even started I sighed in relief ... funny I know ...
That's because this isn't Atharva , atharva doesn't know how to lie , to pretend and I had a ginormous smile when he was failing ... atharva acting wasnt made for you ... and this isn't the same baby A ... it doesn't feel the same baby A gave you soloce but with this one its just pain ...
The scene where he walks away from vv and the sudden change was painful ... how he wipes the tear away and my heart just drops a little because am not happy am in more pain ,
he is doing ^^this to himself ...
This is atharva who can't lie who is going against his basic fundamentals and failing because he was never meant to lie ...
And best of all vv caught him ... i love this fact even more vividha caught him before he even started ... now we get to watch them be stupid ...
Cvs are telling me of course atharva fails , duh
Why wouldn't he ??
And the looks vv was giving him ...
from
when atharva tried and failed to talk his way out of why he looked
like he was dying ... and the joke of the century .. ravish loves vv more than A ...š¤£š¤£...
I love the fact that atharva can't stay as baby a for more than moments because he doesn't even know what he is doing ... and the pain keeps on finding a way out ...
and his
dear in headlights look and did anyone notice for the first few seconds he focused solely on making the plane ...
the dinner was fabulous ... for the mere fact that , vv isn't going after him ...
she just gave him
^^ this look and i knew atharva had it coming ... from this episode and the precap , it shows vv wont go after him , she wont confront she wants him to tell ...
you could see as she proved her theory , her face said it all ...
what i loved was the fact that , everyone realized these two where up to something the tug of war and k-bua ...
was just looking and them like
and i was like NOPE ...
and whispa even aditi shares our sentiments when they discover baby A ...
Remember atharva has always tried figuring out his problems himself and vv has always been the one trying to figure out what the idiot is up to ... so this is atharva making stupid decisions and vv trying to figure out why ??šš...
that was one long post ... cheers ... and remember we will always revolve around atharva the actual hero...
the precap was a check mate ... from vv to atharva ...
suman dear
i will forever love atharva sujata but right now ... i might commit murder ...
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