Suman,
Once again you send me a rose only to get back thorns from me.Once again a letter will be written only to be safely kept in a drawer far away from everyone but me.
I am not strong,not even 1% of what you are.I don't have the courage in my to fight and express what I feel.I am just a mere puppet in the hands of my friends.I agree I have no spine,I agree that I am a jerk and I accept that it is no quality to feel happy or even satisfied about.
I know it hurts you very bad,I know it kills you inside every time you see me with Urvashi,I see how your eyes and face falls when you receive those humiliating glares from my friends everytime you cross our path and trust me there is not a single time I do not regret what I am doing to you.Forgive me if it is even possible.
I notice the 100 volt smile that adorns your face whenever I pass by you,the way color makes their way to your cheeks when your friends tease you or how beautiful your eyes twinkle when someone tells you that I am near and trust me every time you react this way my heart swells up and all it wishes to is too go and hug you.
Nothing makes my day better than seeing those dimples on your cheeks and when you speak your voice fills me up in a way that I feel complete.Everytime when I see you in the assembly or in the canteen I purposely make my way near to you cause I know even if not with you but besides you would give me energy and happiness.
And haan don't think I don't notice anything about you!From your hair to shoes and the sly tricks you use to be near me are very wisely noticed by me and yes don't get embarrassed cause you may never know if I play the same tricks or not.Ever wondered how everytime we end up in the same palce on the same time?Give it a thought once ;)
Anger irrupts in me like lava in a volcano whenever your topic comes up amongst my friends(if they even deserve to be called that) and all they do is insult or laugh at you.You may now feel as if I am lyig and ask me if this is the case then why don't I do anything?! I have a fear Suman,fear of being left out and the fear of not being accepted in a group cause of not being the so called cool' and thus fear drives me to do things which I never want to.
I hope you understand,I really do.I know nothing justifies my act but I hope and pray that one day I am forgiven atleast for the sake of love,our love.
Feed one thing in your mind,these sly looks ain't going to stop cause "Ankhon ko teri aadat hai,tuu dikhe na toh inhe shikayat hai!"
All the Love
The Coward
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-Mitali❤️
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