love, power or illusion life will always be a test

I was honestly going to stop watching the show after the proposal episode and the saanhj overdose. but I really liked today's episode. just when I thought the cvs where gona spoil the show they brought the interest back in the show for me.i love that goon pandit and the saanhj"s scene as well. even though I think she should still get lost we need to have some arya scenes minus her spoiling it with it with her crying or sad face making everyone around arya feel bad.

but that being said saanhj even in her worst moment still remembered her father and this will be in contrast to maya when she is in her worst moment she will think of no one. I was losing hope with saanhj when she was going mad thinking that she was gona lose arjun and he was in danger.there was a craze and a madness in her that made me think that to get arjun she could go to any extent and ruin anyone in her way. one will have to see whether she will be able cross her limits if she where to think that arjun was in danger.

then there is maya and just when I thought she was seeming abit sane and not crazee this episode made me doubt her again. to get what she wants to what extent will she go and is she really bad and evil? or is she even evil at all.

arjun for the past few episodes has impressed me yes the acting should have been a little by the actor but he is growing so I wouldn't complain much about the acting part. the reason why I am impressed is that since he think he is in love it's seems like his eyes are opening to his behaviour and those around him. he comes across abit more mature with maya and there is real beauty in his character when he is with her coz it feels like he does love her and he will not leave her when she is in trouble.

but he is in love with an illusion coz she is not what she seems she is incomplete and weak and afraid to be herself. I am sure any man near maya the illusionista would fall in love with her including arjun coz of the simple fact that she makes one feel like he is a hero, like he is needed but then she is also independent and powerful and she takes charge and is not clingy. this mix is what is attracting arjun to her the mix of strength and vulnerability is a powerful combo and a powerful ego booster as well.

but this does not mean that I will take his feelings for her for granted and say it is not love coz he has an awareness of her that I feel he does not have with saanhj and it's not about maya being prettier than her and her dress sense. but he connects with her on a deeper level were he feels like their pain connects them as is the same and her words,her experiences in life draws him to her. the one who was professionally aimless and immature is not the same anymore. Maya's friendship, presence in his life has made his life more beautiful. also her money and the opportunity also makes life easy but I do think its more then just life being made easy by that.

the reason why I liked the goon pandit and saanhj scene as well is coz on one hand we have the goon saying that to make us whole again we can't depend on any one else besides ourselves and on the other hand there is saanhj who has to face the fact that arjun is not in love with her and she is all alone and in that moment she has go pick herself up and move on. there is beauty in accepting your life, your situation and yourself and that acceptance by saanhj was beautiful to watch.

maya on the other hand thinks that to be happy,safe,secure she needs arjun with her to protect her and arjun his words his life being good is linked to maya"s presence not money. he sees her as his lucky charm coz he is happy and of the opportunities she is giving him. his happiness is linked to money and power but just like Maya's thoughts that she needs him in her life to be happy and secure is wrong it's the same thing for arjun. he does not need her to be someone important and have the finer things in life. yes she is giving him opportunities and is challenging him but he does not see that he is raising to the challenge.

this episode showed that in life all we need is yourself and everything that we depend on is an illusion. for saanhj to be whole she needs to move on, for maya to be whole she needs to accept herself as she is and love herself faults and all. and arjun needs to see that life with out love is no life at all.

when the goon touched arjun he saw that his aim in life is power and money he did not say or see that maya was not in it coz she is not the love of his life. but the truth being is that even if maya was in it or not power would still be his aim, saanhj would forever be friendzoned even if maya was not around coz he does not see her as a potential love interest as his awareness of her is as a friend only. life with saanhj would be good, safe but the challenge he gets from maya to be the best would not be there.


I was checking for the meaning of each character name and Arjun's means clear at the moment those 2 annoying females have been controlling him and coz he loves them he has allowed them to take the lead and mould him to what they think he is. he has been a clear canvas which they have painted on. but him allowing them to maybe be the stronger in the r\ship does not mean that he is weak he just has been going with the flow. but if he needs to forge his path away from these 2 he will.

staying or leaving Maya will be the biggest test for arjun. the reasons he stays with her will show whether he is in love with the illusional or the person. if he leaves her the reason will also be important whether it's for love or money.

my only hope is that kushal starts doing a better job as arjun and saanhj scene time is limited and Maya's character is not ruined for trps lol