OS : HIS PARIKSHA

My 4th OS.

Sorry if this hurts anyone or if there are mistakes.

"I am sorry priye" he said...

while he wiped his tears...

Ram : "Maa"

Koushalya : " I can understand you Ram, ... Don't worry"

Ram : "how can I be normal Maa... How unabatingly I have behaved with siya...how bad she would have felt.. "

Koushalya : "nahi...nahi Putra... Nothing like that,...ram.. Calm down first.."

Ram " as a stri,,...arent you supposed to be angry on me Maa... How much it would have hurt her... Your son did a mistake Maa.. ."

Koushalya : ".. Definitely not Ram... You are man of principles, you can never be unjust to anyone... That is why people of ayodhya love you.,..."

Ram "... Siya..."

He laid his head on his mother's shoulder and cried... Thinking of his siya...

Koushalya : " there is no one than Siya to understand u well ram, Like me, she will also be sure that you can't be wrong,... She will definitely understand you Putra... Don't feel....."

Ram : " but Maa..."

Koushalya : " did you talk to her?..."

Ram nodded in negative

Koushalya : " are you sure that she is upset on what all happened or you are asumming her to be upset? "

Ram : "Asking her to prove her chastity would have Def shaken her Maa..."

Koushalya : " Ram talk to her first... Only she can be the medicine to you wounds"

Ram : "I want to meet her now MAa..."

Koushalya : "She is getting ready Ram, you get ready too, the function is to start soon, once it is all over, pour your heart out to her, incase if she is worried, she will definitely understand you... Don't worry... ."

Ram :" can I meet her now "

Koushalya :" it's getting late Ram,... Don't carry everything to your mind,... Relax and get ready first... "

Ram," OK maa... "

Though he agreed to get ready, he was mentally not ready for the coronation as his mind was thinking of his siya all the time..

Koushlya understood that...

Koushalya," OK, go meet her, get things solved, come back soon and get ready, it's getting late... "

She said...

Ram, being correct in everything he does, obeyed his mother.

Ram :" I will get ready for the function Maa.. Will talk to her at once it is over... "

Koushalya :" OK... Take care Ram... "

Ram :" will she forgive me Maa"

Koushalya smiled, she touched his cheeks...

Koushalya :" Definitely she will dear, now go and get ready.... "

Ram took his mother's blessing.

Koushlaya left the room.

Ram said to himself :" even though she forgives, I will not forgive myself ... "

" swami... " he heard her voice.

I want to talk to you raghunandhan....."

She was almost ready...

Koushalya came there to check whether her bahu is ready.

Koushalya :" putri,...you look beautiful as always my dear"

Siya got her blessings, but found rays of worries on her face.

Siya :" what happened Mata?... "

Koushalya was surprised as her daughter in law has caught her mind right...

Koushalya :" nothing putri,... "

Siya wasnot convinced...

Koushlaya was about to leave...

Siya stopped her...

Siya :" Mata... Anything is bothering you?... Is raghunan...." she hesitated

She wanted to ask about her raghunandhan... She felt that her better half was in some trouble which eventually could have worried Mata too.

Siya :" Mata,... Raghunandhan "...

Koushlaya" nothing putri, till the function gets over, I will be quite tensed as everything has to happen without any flaw... Rituals are important right??? "

Koushalya smiled... So does siya...

Koushalya :" get ready soon ...i have to go now "

Siya nodded...

She sat in front of the mirror and saw her raghunandhans reflection n the mirror.

" swamiii"... She said while a tear drop flowed from her eyes.

Ram looked at the sky and said," how am I going to face you sitae,...

You are angry on me right? ... Else why did you not come to me till now?... How am I gonna handle your parents?... How will I answer them if I am unanswerable to my own conscience..... "

He started to recall the same incident of his Sita taking agnipariksha... That visual stuck his mind and added more pain.

Sita felt restless. The thought of her raghunandhan being upset made her fidgety.

Sita couldn't sit there anymore and rushed to see him...

His head ache increased. His throat soaked, his heart ached more than the head.

He was confused, worried, grieved altogether.

" I am sorry sitae..... " he said...

" No need to be sorry swami.... "...

Ram was hesitant to wrap his arms around. But his love overpowered his guilt and he hugged her as tight as he could...

After few minutes, he released her out of his lock and turned back without facing her.

Sita frowned.

Sita :" Swami??... "

Ram:"I am so..."

Sita stopped him from completing it...

Sita : I really don't know Swami..."

Ram was confused.

Sita : I am totally unaware for what are you sorry Swami... "

" what have you done to feel sorry?.....

Ram : "Sitae please... Please don't forgive me so easily, it will elevate my guilt..."

Sita, " Swami... What is your problem...."

Ram held her hand...

Ram, " I did not doubt you Sitae,but... I wanted to"

Sita " who said you are doubting me Swami..."

Ram : " how could have you felt when I asked you to... You would have expecting a lot of affectionate and lovely words from me after relieving from the tortures undergone in Lanka, but what I did was...

He dint complete a single sentence fully...

Sita smiled

Sita : "not even a bit Swami... I know you trust me... Our relationship is bounded by trust, belief, love, respect and what not Swami..."

Sita, " in fact you proved to the society that pure, none can question or doubt my chastity hereafter"

She neared him...

Sita " I know it would have been more difficult for you to ask me to undergo agnipariksha,...the real Pariksha was for you... How hard it would have been to ask me to... .."

He cried...

She wiped his tears...

Sita, " leave that swami... What should I do to make you believe that I am not hurt..."

Ram did not speak a word...

After some time of silence.,...

Sita, "I wasn't worried at that time Swami... But now..."

She moved away from him... He frowned...

Ram " sitae"...

Sita :" did you really think that your Sita will mistake you?? "

Ram nodded in negative

Sita" you thought that I would be angry on you right? "

While saying this, she cried...

Ram, " no Sitae,... I did not...."

He stopped...

Sita : " do you know how did I come here now???"

He just then realized her timely entry on knowing his worried state...

Sita :"I couldn't be there anymore swami... I had an intuition that you are disturbed...something is bothering you... I couldn't be away from you after knowing that... So I came here for soothing you...

Ram cried now out of happiness. He was proud of having got a perfect, understanding, lovable and caring wife...

Sita :" I am broken now swami... It hurts me more whenever I come to know that I am the reason of your worries...it happened before during our initial period of vanvaas.. I was the source of your worries then... And also now ... It's better I leave you instead of keep on worrying you, being nearby... .. "

His anger reached its peak, he held her cheeks

Ram," Stop it... that's the limit, I say... Stop it... "

She faced him.. His voice tone startled her...

Ram," I have repeated the same during vanvaas that... Don't have a thought of leaving me, you understand... "

He raised his voice even more...

Sita," I am sorry... But I did not mean it swami... "

She said...

He neared her and made her face him...

On seeing her love in the eyes... He composed himself... She cried...

Ram : it's not like that priye... Please don't cry...

It hurts me more when you cry... And that is the reason of our argument now... After undergoing so much in Lanka, like adding fuel to the fire, I amplified your pain... "

Sita :" if I was worried and undergoing pain, then you would have also known that immediately as how I got to know yours now... Right.."

Ram smiled at her childlike talks when he was speaking on a serious note... ...

Sita: " dont smile swami... we are connected by all means... Then why did you undergo such trauma unnecessarily .... ."

Ram, "it is because, I can't see you in pain... I can't forgive anyone who gives you pain.. Even if it is me....."

Sita " no..."

Ram "let me complete Sitae... Deep inside, I hated myself... Thats the reason for all the inner weird feelings..."

Sita, "no such hard feelings hereafter, please... I am blessed to be your wife swami..."

Ram," even I am "

She stopped him..

Sita," now let me complete ... Plz"

He stopped ... And signed her to continue...

Sita said sternly, "swami, , you cant make any mistake... Whatever you do will not hurt anyone... And especially me... I will stand right by you in whatever you do..."

Ram.,"why so???? "

Sita, " because you are maryadha purushotham and I trust and believe you...more than I believe in myself "

Ram was touched...

Ram," I trust you, belive you and also LOVE you... "

Saying this he hugged her tight...

She hugged him too...

Siya," I LOVE YOU Too swami.... "

Ram," are you still angry on me "

Sita" are you still worried about me"

They both smiled...

Ram, "Maa is right...."

Sita, "what?..."

Ram, "you are the only medicine to my wounds Siya..." he tightened his grip...

Sita, "you are my everything..."

Ram, " don't get away from me Sitae, not even a minute..."

Sita, "I don't wish to.. And I promise... I won't..."

They heard their mothers call

Koushalya : "Sita... Putri... Where are you"

Sita remembered Mata asking her to get ready soon...

But she was only half done in getting ready... She tries to run

Ram, " where are you going?"

Sita, "I want to get ready swami... Mata Is going to scold me now..."

Ram observed her fully and lovingly said...

Ram, " you are already beautiful... No need to add more beauty now... It's saturated...."

He teased her...

Sita" swami... Don't tease me...got to go now.. "

Sita was about to leave but she couldn't move a bit... He wasn't allowing her...

Sitae "swami.. Leave me.. Mata is calling..."

Ram, "just now you promised to not leave me, you are breaking your promise immediately dear..."

Ram pouted...

Sita, " leave me swami... Please Mata is waiting.. I will be late... Please..."

He releases his hands...

And showed fake anger...

Sita, " are you angry...."

Ram, "No, you go... Your Mata will be waiting...please go now... "

Sita smiled...

Sita, "okay.. What shall I do now...."

He blocked her way and signed her to go...

Sita, " how can I go if you block my way...."

Sita laughed...

Ram, " find a way and go... It's getting late...."

She understood what was he up to...

He saw her with love filled eyes.

The end.

Ps :sorry if this hurts anyone...

Just my imagination :)