Memories - TWINJ FF new part Page 52! - Page 28

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Unres

Oh God! what I was going to miss.

Just finish the reading of all parts without giving a pause.

Old habit did strikes me.Habit of readings of full story without pausing.

Thank u farah.

Your FF are able to reminisce me with my old habit.

I feel so emotional after reading it.You beautifully penned this two characters and their emotion.

Special mention to Twinkle's poem.I know you sketch that.Simply Awesome.👏

Eagerly waiting for next update.

I stared outside my window... rain was pouring down.. how much I loved rain.. how much I loved to dance when it rained...and how I would drag Kunj for a drive... he was the one with car and license...before everything happened.. before it all went downhill.. the friendship was soo pure.. so peaceful.. so...perfect ...

I looked at the empty pizza box...  was this the start...? Start of everything going back to what it was.. can I get everything back the way it was?

I stared at my diary... I had been wanting to write it all down.. maybe it would help me in clearing my head.. but as I watched rain... I fell deep in thought... Memories of past captured me again... and I was once again drowning in them... and then my phone rang ...

Even before I looked at the screen I knew...it was him...

A smile automatically appeared on my face... but halfway it changed into anger...then into apprehensiveness..

I asked myself again... could I get everything back ?

I felt butterflies in my stomach.. but their hopes were different compared to what my mind and heart wished for...

I could not go to that road.. just friendship is what I seek.. I firmly told myself..

Silencing the butterflies I picked up the phone

"Hello..."

"Hi... Twinkle.. good morning.."

His deep husky voice... Made my butterflies flutter again...

I argued again and shut them up..

"good morning..."

"What are your plans for Sunday ?"

"Umm.. nothing much..."

"Lunch ?"

He said hesitating.. and unable to make a sentence

" What?"

He didn't reply.. I knew what he meant... but was it all not soo quick ?

I remembered the innumerable lunch outings we have had.. and yet this was different.. because there was a  6 year pause between the last one and this one...

As my butterflies tried to flutter.. my heart hinted me of the pain .. and my mind being the logical one wanted to say no... and yet...my entire body ... repelled the  no ...

"Umm today can we go for lunch ?"

He said finally and his voice brought me back..

"Ok..."

"Great... thanks cu .."

My brain cursed me... my heart cried...and well the butterflies seemed to flutter even more...

Something broken cannot be fixed ... my brain reasoned... my heart reminded me of every painful memory...

And yet.. somewhere ..some part of me..yearned for his presence...

I realized as much as I wanted to escape.. I wanted him as well..

It's like every piece of my soul that was  torn apart lay in front of me... and I knew my soul... could only be sown together by his presence..his friendship... him..

The long aching soul.. which I had avoided all these years.. I came in terms of it..

Even then I just wanted his presence .. as a friend... nothing more.. just his presence... that is all I had ever wished.. even if I did love him at some point.. the friendship ...I had never found again... always won in front of love..

And here he was holding out his hand to begin it all again.. then why  not ?

It grew windy and my diary fell down..

I went and picked it ...

I looked at the page...

As years go by...some memories I remember

Some memories I cherish and some I fear...

As tears role down...every smile I remember

Some of his and some of mine

As days pass by ...every pain I remember

Some scars remain and some have healed

But what I don't remember ... Is when did I lose it all

When did it all end...and why was my soul left...aching... why ??

 

I had written this 2 years back... probably on my birthday.. my pain had never disappeared.. I haad just learned to mask it...The over dried page of my diary truly spoke of the many tears wasted that day...

How do I forgive someone who has made me cry for 5 years? How do I move on ?

I know he is pleading for it... but am I that weak.. don't I owe anything to my tears my pain?

What about all those times I promised myself ... that I would no more let this affect me...what about all those days I lay on bed wishing and hoping that his memories were forgotten

Am I so weak ? that having just a cup of coffee and few exchange of words would just make me forget everything and accept him...

But he means what he said.. he is making effort.. my brain surprisingly reasoned with my growing angry heart...

But I am not asking you to forgive him straight away... but U also know that you cant just move on..

My brain was being more than sensible than what I wanted it to be...

And it kept going..

Pick your diary.. in the last 10 years have you written about anyone except him...you have given yourself...your heart.. your soul to him even when he was not around,... he existed in you.. in your thoughts...

The brain was being logical .. I threw  my diary aside and sat on the floor..

As much as logical my brain sounded...and as much as my soul ached for him...

My frustration of forgiving him so easily was rising again 5 years... 5 years... I had spent .. trying to forget him..trying to heal my wounds...and here he was expecting it all to disappear in a day?

My phone beeped

"Thanks for giving me a second chance..."

And slowly a tear fell from my eyes...

My brain had won...

for now...

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griffy

Part 15b 

Unres

I thought I will read it late night but l can't help to read now.

Griffy Its terrific.

Twinkle's pain since 5 years is so visible in your pen;I am flattened already by your writing.

Yes It's very tough for Kunj to heal the pain ofTwunkle which is given by himself but he had to try his best .

And at last A Big Thank You...

To Write it.

I am soo all happy to read the update.

In fact I left my hope to read it's update again;thought it got same destiny just like our Twinj...AADHA ADHURI.

Loveee u.

Waiting for next update.