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Psycho Analysis
So today's episode had me in itself like never before. I loved it way to much.
Here is my take on it:
Shravan
He felt a certain uneasiness which she had seemed to grow in her as she moved herself away from him. He was left confused and surprised by this particular action of hers but as soon as he saw his father and brother coming from the other side he decided to ignore the uneasiness and concentrate on the happiness he had got right before that.He zipped his mouth,determined on not to hell her name because he knew if he would do so then she would end up being blamed which of course he wouldn't want when he knew that it was him who had persuaded her and demanded to not hang up the phone until she slept.
Next morning he came to Tiwari Kill,himself shaken up because of Nanu but gathering himself and staying positive he now got back with him trying to keep up Nanu's as well as his spirit up.
He knocked her door not wanting to invade her privacy and on entering straight away stated that he wanted to have a talk with her.She told him that they could talk some other day but today he had to bring to her awareness before it was to late and so declining her request he went on stating what he wanted to say.
He warned her about Aditya's intentions ,his over friendly gestures and his buckets of lies but she refused to believe him.She spoke on how even the talked to her like Aditya did,so did it mean even he loved her causing an awkward silence sincerely because that was the truth that without knowing was known to each other.
Later on when she went comparing Aditya to him,his blood boiled,both in anger and disbelief.Where one side was him,her constant,her bestfriend for about 11 years and the other who she had just met few times and happened to meet him again few days ago and still she had she had the courage within her,the guts to compare them when he knew who held a stronger and longer connection/bond.
It had pained him and all the frustration and the confusion bottled up inside him now bubbled up till the brim and erupted like a hot volcano. He went on telling her how her right and wrong had affected him and how this particular ego of her's was not just killing their happiness but along with it her's too.A relationship worked from both sides but when she was on a mission to decide what was wrong or right for both without even considerating once,how was it supposed to keep him or her or anybody happy?
She shooed of his statements yet again rudely and sat ignoring him.He had had enough and warning her one last time,telling her that she would be guilty of her actions soon he left.
Already irritated self he decided to ignore the small meeting that happened to be happening on the dining table and head for his room but being stopped by his Chacha who he could definitely not deny,he sat on the table agreeing to eat the kheer prepared by Aditya.
Everytime Aditya talked some nonsense he rolled his eyes but as soon as he heard about her from his mouth his expressions changed from being pissed to being aware and frustrated.It irked him when Aditya talked about how his and her jodi would rock and it grew further as his chacha too agreed.How could he sit here and feel nothing when he knew that there was something!
Suman
As soon as she was hit with realization seeing his father coming from the other way she pulled herself away from her,knowing that her heart had wanted more and knowing it too that he would be left confused.
She knew his father would be angry at her for the little scene he had witnessed and so quietly without speaking a word she followed herself.She was stopped by his father and asked again if she had not forgotten her promise.It irked her,here she loved him,which he knew to and there he very vaguely reminding her about the promise not caring about the amount of pain he was putting her through.Loosing her calmness and composure a bit,she told how it had scared her maybe less than his father(cause he was his father) to think about him being in a bad condition and how relieved and happy she was to see him fit and fine.She had promised his father to not let him know her feelings but she hadn't promise to put a stop on hers.Her feeling were not just binded with friendship but with love and who had control on it?Love was something that would just happen,anywhere and anytime,there was no way one could control him.Before leaving she warned his father telling him that his son was very stubborn and he would keep trying which alas would result in failure of his plotting and that he should be concerned o that and take care of it because he could control her but not his son.
She was stopped inside her house and asked about his and her relationship to which she relied that all they had within themselves was just friendship,trying to pacify herself and her bleeding heart.
Next morning on visiting her Nanu she found him there and she smiled on how he had tried to lift up her Nanu's mood and succeed almost fully.She admired the relationship they shared.
She sat admiring his picture,the only part of the way where she could open up herself to him but as soon as she saw him at her door,she shut her laptop in order of not being caught.He said that he wanted to talk but she denied,she knew about what he wanted to talk about and she even knew that she wasn't ready for it atleast today.But it looked as if he was hell bent on telling her something that he even declined her request.He spoke how Aditya had no right intentions towards her,she took that lightly and joked a bit telling about how they both talked to her but didn't mean that he loved her too only stop at an awkward silence when the word'love' came.
He began growing the Aditya matter and she started trying hard to control it.She knew he was right at his side but she had to put up her mask not wanting to hurt him by few words or promises that alas could not really come true. Ignoring him,hurting herself inside she let him go.
She sat down remembering how even during their childhood he was possessive and she smiled as she realized that even after 10 years he had not changed remained the same"JAL KUKDE".She was confused as to why was he disturbed when she was his just his.
She was all his and there was no doubt in that but she would not tell him that simply because she had made a promise to his dad which she would not break but she had made one promise to herself to and that the moment he would realize that he loved her,she would break all the barriers,all the strings of promises and all relationships that came their way and just be with him.Funnily what she didn't know was that this was the case,he knew he loved her,she knew he loved him but both didn't that the other loved each other.
Authors Part- If you notice clearly the dialogue says "TUMHARI SUMO SIRF TUMHARI HAI" Here Sumo has already given herslef to him,long back maybe from the very begging and what is already someones cannot be other's,it will always remain theirs.
This particular line had the deepest meaning for me today.
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-Mitali❤️
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