Sumo, my Sumo.
I don't know If this is right or wrong. How I just take a pen to a paper whenever I really need to talk to you. You would think I have learned my lesson from 10 years ago. When I thought "Is this love ?" Of course, it wasn't love. This isn't love. I still may be holding onto that book that holds my forgotten feelings, only because I want to remind myself of how this isn't love...how this can never be love.
Forget the fact that just the idea of losing my memories of you sends me in a panic. I have held onto every piece of what connected me to you. I have to remind myself never to be that Shravan again. I have to remind of myself that this isn't love. This can't be love. That's why I still have the letter tucked in the dictionary.
Forget the fact I simply can' stand the fact that Verma had his dirty eye on you...forget the fact that I have the urge to plow my fist right through his face. Forget the fact that I am so angry with Verma's wrong intentions towards you. This isn't love. This can't be love. I just want you safe. I just need you to be happy. That isn't love, right ?
Forget the fact that the worry just wouldn't let me rest. Forget the fact that I just had to see you...even at 2 at night. That makes me wonder how I am going to cope not being able to see your gorgeous face when I am back in London. But that isn't love..is it ? Of course not, Shravan Maltorta does not believe in the idiocy of love.
It isn't love that I remember our special knock, its just memories..just our memories. Memories that won't let me forget you, memories that don't let me hate you. Memories that make me want to be the old Shravan for his Sumo. After all, you aren't the same Sumo anymore. But yet somehow you are. Sometimes, you still see right though me. Sometimes, you pull my indifference mask off and see me. And the other times, I feel like you never see past what I show you. I show you this isn't love and you believe me.
Because this isn't love. Is it love, Sumo ? Do I still love you all these years later ? I guess you will never be able to tell me..because this will be yet another letter you will never read.
Shravan
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Hola hola *waves* Reya this side. I am realtively new to the show...i just caught all the episodes over the weekend and today was my first genuine waiting for the episode to air experience..lol. Today's episode was damn awesome..i was compelled to scribble a few lines. Shravan stole the show today !
Anywho...if you have dropped in..say hi or something 😆
- Reya <3
