#3 FF: Love Starts After Marriage-2 (Epilogue, pg.119, dt.03/05) - Page 51

Originally posted by: sanju1205

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yeh sbhi part mai se zyada sad or emotional part hai...

feeling very sad for rk...

bechara hr chiz akele sambhal rha hai...

i think madhu ko v rk ke pov se sochna chahiya...

bt fir v madhu zyada galti nhi h..

i wish nxt update mai unhi sari khushi mile..

Originally posted by: vasavi_sri

Nice update

Roshan I thought he is Rk's and Madhu kid

But I was not expecting this very big shock

They r worried so much for the kid

It's only three yrs

Rk at the end it's a big shocking thing

Madhu wants divorce giving him a real

Heart attack

Originally posted by: Gudiyaaa

Arghhh 😡 i just hate dis madhu ... LOL.. its only 3years yar it's nt such a long period to worry abt d baby !!...yeah right... but they are married for five yrs.. u are missing her two yrs aussie time... even that time they did the deed without protection at times but nothing worked LOL... when she will stop thinking only abt herself she only think abt herself.. can't she only once think abt rk's happiness ,can't she understand dis only one little thing tht his happiness is lies wid her only but no. LOL... she thinks only divorce is a solution for all probs... LOL... she has to use her stupid brain .at a time she hurts rk and then after tht says tht "i didn't hurt u intentionally " lol... that's right... we shld think before we talk... she has committed the mistake again... ,this is really nt fair yar...and their parants ,goooddd 😔 atleast they can behave like a matured yar... LOL.. u have so many fair points... no one is being sensitive here... my poor baby rk 😭 where he has been stuck ,nowhere is peace for him ... LOL... don't worry baby... he will get happiness & peace... thanks for ur lovely comment...

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Part 44 - Welcome Back!!

"I Am Hurt, I Am Alone, I Am Depressed, I Cry Myself To Sleep, I Hate Myself All Because Of You. But I Hope You Are Doing Okay Because I Love You."

(Madhu's POV)

"Madhu..." I hear Sultan's voice so I look up at him. I am waiting outside the ER for the Doctors to come out & declare that my Rishu is well and good. He has been taken in for quite a some time & he fell unconscious while I brought him here, which scares me more. I just wish the doctors come out soon & put an end to my wait & let me see my Rishu.
"Sultan" I throw myself at him & hug him tightly as I start sobbing.
"Hey! Stop crying Madhu... what's happened? You didn't tell me what's wrong when you called me & now also you are crying... you are making me worry" he says as he ruffles my hair to soothe me from crying.
"It's Rishu..." I couldn't bring the words.
"What the hell has happened to him? What did you do to him?" he accuses me as he holds me at arms length.
"He came home really tensed & stressed out. He didn't bother to freshen up but kept working... he didn't even talk much to me but I..." I start to tell about our unsettling conversation to him but he didn't let me finish.
"Yeah, I know... he lost two f**king deals which cost him high... so he must be really tensed over that issue" Oh! This is news! Why the hell Rishu didn't tell me anything about this?
"I didn't know" I whisper.
"He didn't want to make you worry" he says casually knowing Rishu's nature well. He shares only his happiness but bury all his worries within himself. I hate that quality about him.
"So what the Doctor's said?"
"I don't know... they are not telling me anything... I am so scared Sultan" I start crying again as I put my head in my hands.
"Hey! Be strong. He will be fine" Sultans drapes his arm around my shoulder & leads me to the waiting room.
"Did you inform his parents & yours?" Sultan asks as he sits next to me & takes my hand in his.
"No, Rishu told me to inform you first..." I couldn't speak as a huge lump forms in my throat.
"Okay, I will inform them." he says. I nod.
"Shit. You are freezing" Sultan rubs my palm with his to give some warmth but nothing works. I am so cold. I am so scared. I need my Rishu.

~~0~~

"Was my baby in so much pain?" Radha aunty asks me crying. Our family have arrived ten minutes back to the hospital. They all probed me to tell them what exactly has happened to Rishu but I couldn't tell without choking up so Sultan came into my rescue & patiently answer all their questions.
"Yes" I nod. I know he was in pain though he didn't show it out much. It must be severe that's why he went unconscious & that's my major concern.
"I am sorry, Aunty" I whisper. She turns & looks at me, puzzled. "I am no good for your son" I tell ashamed. "I couldn't look after him well. I failed as a wife. He is here because of me."
"I told him not to worry too much for you but he didn't listen to me... see, where it brought him to?" Mohan uncle takes the chance to taunt me.
"Mohan!" Radha aunty silences him & shakes her head indicating him that this is not the place or time to accuse or argue. Mohan uncles stares at her for a minute then he walks away & my dad follows him. I can say by their looks that they are mad at me. Hell! I am mad at myself.

~~0~~

After what feels like an eternity the Doctors emerge out of the ER. I stagger at my feet but the room momentarily spins. I clutch Sultan's arm to steady myself.
"You okay?" Sultan asks me concerned. I nod & we walk towards the Doctors.
"How is Rishu... I mean Rishab kundra... My husband" I ask frantically.
"Relax Mrs. Kundra. He is doing good so don't worry." A young lady Doctor says in a calming tone.
"Is he awake?" I ask. I want to see him. I want to apologize to him.
"No. He had a severe angina..." She says. I frown not understanding her terminology. "Um... severe chest pain..." She amends. "so he fainted when you brought him in & later he gained partial consciousness & he was calling for one Madhu... I suppose its you." She says smiling. I nod. "... but then we have sedated him as he needs rest. He is so stressed out."
I don't know what to say or to ask. I feel short of breathe. My vision is getting blurry. I should not faint. I should not faint. I mutter in my head. I m grateful that Sultan is holding me or else I might fall.
"So what's the prognosis?" Sultan asks. I see Radha aunty crying silently & Mohan uncle has his hand around her shoulder holding her securely.
"You are his??" The lady Doctor asks to Sultan.
"My brother. My husband's best friend" I answer without any hesitance. I never had a brother of my own but Sultan fills in the place.
"Oh! Well... We need to go for an angiogram as we suspect that he might be suffering a coronary heart disease..."
"What? He is only 33 yrs old?" my father in law, Mohan asks astonished. He finds it impossible for a man of such young age to get heart problems.
"Age is not a criteria for getting heart problems, Sir. Even small kids do get CHD, CAD problems." She says in a calm professional tone. She knows her job well i guess. Initially I was worried when I saw her testing my husband as she seems so young & inexperienced but she is good at her job. I trust her to be the best person to cure my husband. I blink my eyes to read her name from her I-card. Dr. Naira Sharma.
"Does he drinks?" Naira asks.
"On occasions. He is a social drinker."
"I see. Any other habits like smoking..."
"No no... Nothing like that. He is an anti smoker & no other habits which are harmful to health."
"Does he do rigorous workouts?" She is fishing for clues. Rishu do workouts but just to keep him fit... Nothing more rigorous.
"When he is upset, frustrated or highly stressed then he performs rigorous workouts. He treads pretty fast. Lift weights till it aches..." Sultan says. He knows his friend too well. Seems like he takes his anger or frustrations on the exercising equipments.
"Well that says a lot for his sudden angina. Angina is mostly triggered to a person by exercise, excitement or emotional distress. We will find more from the test." She says.
"When you will be doing the angiogram?" I ask.
"We have scheduled tomorrow morning for him."
"Oh! Okay. Can I see him now?" Radha aunty asks, hopefully. She is aching to see her beloved son. She hasn't stopped crying since she has arrived. I have never seen her like this before. She is such a strong fun loving person... But now? Of course I do know that her son means the world to her. And he means the world to me. I cant exist in this world without my Rishu. I want him hale & hearty.
"Sure. We will be shifting him to the ICU & from there you can see but one at a time" She instructs. she nods her assent.
"Thanks, Doctor." I mutter in a weak voice. I m totally drained with all the crying.

~~0~~

"You go. Sit with him. He will wish to see you first when he comes around." Radha aunty says. I let her see her son first as I know she has more right on him than I do. She went in & was with him for nearly half an hour while I anxiously wait for her to come out so that I can see him.
"You see him & come out quick. Then you go home with your parents." Mohan uncle orders me. He sounds rude.
"I am not going anywhere leaving my Rishu alone here." I retort. See, I might be the reason for Rishu's health issues but I know he needs me & I know he loves me despite of me being a headache to him.
"We are here for him. His parents."
"I am is wife & I will take care of him." I argue.
"I can see how nicely you took care of him" he smirks at me sarcastically. What's wrong with him? Why he is demonizing me? I m already upset over the happenings.
"You don't say that, please." I say acidly & turn my face irately. Even he is one of the reason for why Rishu is here. He made my Rishu work like a maniac. I am sure he would have upset Rishu by seething his anger at him for losing two big deals.
"Madhu, this is not how you talk with elders" my mom scolds me. I know even Rishu will not appreciate my tone but I don't care. I want to stay with him.
"Mohan, let her stay. You go see him & come then we will go home & come by morning" my mom-in-law says in a no nonsense tone. I actually like her more... More than my parents.
"You look tired. You need rest too dear." She says caressing my head. I feel like crying all over again. I hug her tight & fight my tears back.
"He will be fine." She says softly. I nod.
Later when they leave I ask Sultan to leave too as he has family who will want him.
"No! I am not leaving my Rk." He uses the same tone I used to my father-in-law. Shit! He is being possessive.
"Doh!"
"Come on. Rk will kill me if he finds that I left his dear wife alone in the hospital." He says. I know that's true.
"Thanks for being here for me, Sultan"
"Nah! Not for you. For My Rk" he stress the word 'My'. I want to argue with him that he is mine but I m too tired to do so.
"You wait here. I will go get something for you to eat." He says softly.
"No. I don't want anything. I am not hungry." I say & turn my head to the ICU where my love is lying lifelessly.
"God! Don't be stubborn. I am not as patient as Rk & coax you to eat."
"I didn't ask you to coax me or plead me or beg me to eat. No means no."
"At least some coffee or tea?" He is trying his luck.
"Tea" I reluctantly agree as I know I didn't have dinner too. I made Rishu's favorite Dal, roti & chicken but all this trauma took place.

~~0~~

I am sitting beside Rishu's bed on a chair, holding his hand firmly with both my hands. His hand is warmer now. I kiss his hand & place it beneath my cheek as I look at his sleeping form. His low rise & fall of his chest as he breathes. He is still with me. Thank God!
"I am sorry, Rishu. Please get well soon & come back to me. I feel so lonely." I whisper as I silent cry.
Later, a nurse comes to his side & takes his oxygen mask. I have lost track on time. I don't know for how long I have been sitting beside him & staring at him.
"How is he?" I ask.
"His blood pressure was high when you brought him here but now it's stable. His breathing is even too so I was instructed to remove his mask now"
"I see. Thank you." I says weakly.
"Ma'am, why don't you rest too?" The nurse asks.
"Its okay. I m fine" I smile weakly at her. She nods & walks out of the room.
After a while, Rishu stirs & struggles to open his eyes. I stand up from my chair & caress his cheek. "Rishu..." I call his name in a kitten soft voice.
He opens his eyes & blinks twice to adjust with the light.
"Rishu... How are you?" I ask.
"Better" his voice cracks.
"Do you have chest pain?"
He shakes his head in 'No' & that's a huge relief for me. Thank God! I mutter a quick thanks to the Almighty for bring back him to me.
"Rishu, I am sorry. I was so foolish to ask divorce to you. I didn't realize how deeply it would affect you. Its all because of me. I am responsible for the pain you are suffering. I am sorry... Please don't hate me... I... I..."
"Isshhh..." He shushed me. Then mouth's something which I didn't get well.
"What?" I ask as I lean closer to him to hear properly.
"Shut up!" He says weakly.
"Okay. I am sorry. I won't disturb you. I will leave you to rest." I say & turn to walk out of his room so that he can sleep peacefully but he holds my hand & stops me.
"I said you to shut up... Not to leave the room" he breathes. He takes my hand & places it over his chest. I could feel his prickly chest hair beneath my palm.
"Don't leave me... Ever!" He whisper. Its almost a plea.
"I won't." I promise. "I love you." I tell him. He just looks at me but didn't reply me back. I know he is mad at me. I can tell that from his look itself.
"Sit" he says. I sit on the edge of his bed.
"You sleep" I tell him.
"I know!" He says rather rudely.
I try to take my hand from his hold but he tightens his grip.
"Is Sultan with you?" He asks after a long pause.
"He is in the waiting room."
"You go home with him." He says.
"No. I am not leaving you."
"Just do as I say, Madhu. you look awful" he sighs.
"I am awful only. I am an awful wife... I am ..."
"Don't start again... you better keep your big mouth shut."
I press my trembling lips together.
"So?" He asks. I frown.
"What did the good doctor said?" He asks. "About my health" he adds.
"Nothing!" I say as I don't whether should or shouldn't tell him.
He sighs loudly. "Just f**king tell me without irritating me."
"She said you had chest pain... But its not as severe as an heart attack but still they want to do an angiogram to see whether any plague or blockage in the heart blood vessels." I feel a lump forming deep in my throat making me choke to speak any further. I quickly wipe my lone tear drop that peeps out of my eye.
"I see." He says. His expression impassive. He is not giving away much. That's so frustrating. Then we remain in complete silence.
"I am fine. You go home" he insists again. I shake my head in no.
"Stubborn as ever" he mutters & gives in. Then he goes back to sleep again. I resume my position on the chair & rest my head on the bed. I am fully done in.

~~0~~

"What is that?" Rishu asks seeing the bowl in my hand.

"Porridge"

"Eewww" he makes a face. "I don't want that"

"It's good for health."

"I am not having that."

"Yes. You are. You didn't eat anything since morning so you are having this & you don't have a choice" he was taken to coronary angiogram test so he was asked not to eat anything till the test ends & after that he was drowsy due to the sedatives they have given him & only a short while ago the cloud has got cleared for him.

"I m not saying I won't eat at all. I am just saying I won't eat this shit"

"Don't behave like a kid, Rishu" I sigh. Is this how he feels whenever I throw my tantrums at him? So frustrated? But he has never complained about it. This proves he has more patience than I do.

"Eat" I say firmly & take a spoon full of porridge close to his mouth.

"I can eat on my own" he turns his face.

"Okay" have your way. I place the spoon back on the bowl & push the tray closer to him so he can eat by himself.

"You didn't tell me that the Doctor was so young & pretty?" Rishu pokes me with his words.

"Why?" I ash frowning.

"She has a nice name too. Naira. I like it" he smiles at me.

"Uff! Nisha. Naira. All are my 'N'emies" I growl at him. He smirks & shakes his head.

"Do you think I need a shave?" he asks.

"Why?"

"Because Dr. Naira will come for rounds this evening nah?" he winks. How dare he? Talking about other woman to me? To his wife? "... so I can impress her" he adds. Shit! He is teasing me. Stay calm & play along, Madhu.

"No need for all that, Rishu. Just flash your trade mark smile & she will swoon all over you" I say smiling sweetly.

"So do you think I can win her heart with my charm? Should I propose her?" he asks. I know what he is doing. He is taking revenge on me for asking him to divorce me. Serves you right, Madhu.

"Go ahead" I smile weakly & quickly start to move.

"Where are you going?" he asks. To hell!

"To the pharmacy. To get your meds." I reply without looking at him. He nods.

When I head towards the door I find Radha aunty standing there. Was she listening to us?

"Aunty, make sure he eats fully." I murmur to her & walk out.

"Shit! I forgot my purse." I mutter t myself & walk back but stand still on my place when I hear them talking.

"So what was all that proposal talk?" Radha aunty asks, obviously sounding annoyed.

"I was just teasing her, mom" he grins sheepishly. Yeah! Yeah! You got me there.

"Give me" she asks for the spoon & he lets him feed her. But he didn't let me? How rude!

"What's wrong?" Radha aunty asks. She has picked some clue from her son's face.

"I am scared, Mom" Oh my! My heart clench in pain & in compassion for him. I want to hug him tight & reassure him that he will be okay. We will be fine. But I couldn't as I know he is so mad at me.

"Rishu... my baby... don't be. Everything will be fine" Radha aunty places the bowl on the side table & hugs him.

"I am pretty shaken." he says to her. "I never thought... I don't know how Madhu is coping up with this traumatic phase. Already she has a lot to worry..."

"I know. I know" she caress his head.

"God! She is too young to face all this shit, mom..." he groans. it's almost a sob. Oh my Rishu! Why do you love me this much when I don't deserve it?

"I don't know what will be the test results. I just hope it all shows clear."

"It will" Radha aunty assures him.

"If something happens to me..."

"Nothing will happen to you, my baby boy" aww... he is always a baby to her. Wish I could conceive a baby & be a wonderful mother like her. She is just amazing.

"There is a big 'IF', mom... now I feel glad that we don't have a child" he says. What the hell he is talking? "...what she will do with a child? How she will raise our child all alone?" Alone? Why?

"If anything goes wrong... if anything wrong happens to me now or in future... just make sure you remarry Madhu to some other nice guy who will look after her well. I don't want her to be suffering alone."

"Wish I could slap you, Rishu but I have never slapped any gentleman before" I throw his own words which he said last night when I asked him to divorce me & marry someone else, at him. Both Rishu & Radha aunty turns to my side. Radha aunty seems stunned by my outburst. I stride closer to them, glaring at him. How dare he?

"I will let you two to talk alone but Rishu... stay calm." Radha aunty says & walks out. She knows her limits. The respect & love I have for her keeps multiplying.

"What nonsense you were talking?" I shout at him. He rubs his forehead.

"You have the nerve to say that?" I asks angrily.

"Didn't you ask me for divorce? After all the shit we went through? Then what's wrong in me thinking about your future & mind it... I am not ready to let you go when I am alive, okay?"

"I am sorry..."
"You didn't get my meds?" he changes the topic.

"I kept my purse here" I answer him.

"Oh." he turns & takes the purse from the side table & hands it to me.

"Now, go" he says. I stood still & glare at him.

"I am tired. I am going to sleep"

"Rishu, please. We need to talk."
"This is not the time, Madhu. Hope you will understand."

"I know." I agree. Stupid you, Madhu. You shouldn't be arguing with him now. He needs rest. Then I walk out to get his meds.

~~0~~

"Hello, Mr. Kundra" Doctor Naira, greets him with a pretty smile.

"Hello, doc. You have a pretty smile" Rishu compliments her. How the hell he could say exactly what I had in my head?

"Um...Thanks. your reports are here." she says. I clutch Rishu's hand nervously.

"What does it says?" Rishu asks coolly.

"Well, there is a minor blockage in your blood vessel..."
"I see" he listens to her attentively.

"...but it could be treated by medicine so there is no need to worry provided you take your meds promptly, proper exercise, healthy food & mainly if you could avoid stress & tension then your health is perfect."

Rishu relaxes visibly. "Yeah sure. I will follow your instruction. Thank you, Doc" he smiles. I am so relieved to hear that there is nothing serious to worry about his health. But this is my wake up call... I should be really careful in future when it concerns to Rishu's health.

"Now, you happy?" Rishu asks me. I nod as I smile widely. Thank god for giving me yet another chance to live with my Rishu which I should not mess again. He is still cross with me over the divorce issue. I should apologize to him. Yeah! Divorce is not the only solution for every single problem. We should face the problem together & win it.

"So when is my discharge, Doc?" Rishu asks eagerly. Already?

"Not so soon." she smiles & checks his blood pressure.

"You can't let me go so soon, can you?" he asks, flashing his dimpled smile. Ah! He is playing his game. I could see the doctor turning pink.

"Your BP is normal" she tries to hide her blush but fails miserably.

"Well, for a pretty doctor like you, I can stay here all my life" Oh! Really? like I will let you.

"You shouldn't be flirting with me in front of your wife" she warns him playfully.

"She won't mind. Do you, Madhu?" he asks me. What the hell am I supposed to say? I shake my head left & right, then up & down. So is it yes or no?

"See, I told you nah. She is a sport" he takes it as a 'Yes' Oh shut up & let the doctor do her work.

"Shall I take you for coffee someday?" he asks her.

"Sure" she agrees without any hesitance. I feel like crying.

Rishu please stop! I plead him through my eyes & i guess he gets the message.

"Well, you must be having other patients to look too, so I should not keep holding you" finally he shows some pity on me. Thanks goodness.

"It's a pleasure talking to you. Wish you were single!" she sigh & leaves. She can't help saying the last bit, can she?

"What?" Finally Rishu acknowledges my presence.

"You both will make a good pair" I say grudgingly.

"You think?" he beams at me.

"Yes, I do" I smile as sweet as I can while inside I burn in jealousy.

"Rishu..." I sit beside him & I take his face between my hands forcing him to look at me. "I love you... I love you so much...I am so glad you are fine... God! But you really scared me... I can't even imagine my life without you... " I say softly & briefly kiss his lips as we are in hospital.

He smiles a heart melting smile at me.

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