Posted:
8 years ago
Unnoticed..
He wondered if she was hurting physically
He walked over to the bed
"Are u in pain?" he asked softly
"Nahi" she said
He wasnt convinced but he walked out anyway... with lingering feelings of dissent still alive in his heart
Maavy shared the duty of holding the angel, he could because there was no Ranjan to compete with
Sam and Akka and Amma called II and when she didnt answer called R&B... he told them she was resting.. they didnt think too much of it
Nivi was so used to being held she refused to be by herself calling out within the 10th minute... when she was left in her crib
"Hey I am new here, how come there is no groups of people dancing around ME?"
It appeared like she slept the whole day, he was on calls mostly, she found her child when she was hungry,
fed and changed her and "returned" her,
Yep! Returned her
"I can return her in 15 minutes she said lifelessly around 7 PM
She struggled trying to understand what Nivi wanted when she cried uncontrollably after her 3 PM feed
"I DONT know" she whispered pacing the room, holding her in her arms
"U probably know" she handed him the baby without a fight...
"I dont think she likes me" II nodded going back to bed
When Ranjan came home first thing he did was come up
Took his grand baby
"Gudiya kithe?" he asked
He muted his wireless headset, unmuted it, spoke in French and muted it again
"Asleep" he said
"ABHI BHI?" Ranjan was stunned
R&B nodded
"Saara din khoon peeya hona hai toone, uska
"Thats not true" he said coldly
"Saara din soyi?" Ranjan asked baffled
"Well she just had a baby" R&B grumbled... unable to squish the feeling himself that something was indeed wrong
"Mere naal aisi sarcastic gallan karan di koi lode nahi hai, samjh mein aayi gall?" Ranjan scolded him tersely
Ranjan turned and walked away holding his grand daughter, she cooed and kicked, sucking on her fist
"Gudiya" he called the room was like a black hole... he hit the recess lights
She sat up pulling the blankets over
"Kee hoya puttar?" "Oh just sleepy Dad... laayiye" she smiled weakly thinking her daughter was crying
"Ro nahi rahi... usne kaha ghanta vi nahi hua... khaaya hai isne" Ranjan lied
"Oh ya" I nodded unawares
"Chaliye jee neeche"
"Its too bright" she said laying back
"Kya matlab" Ranjan asked
"Umm... the sun is too bright" II said
"Raat ke 7 baj gaye gudiya" he said in agony
"Oh" she said
R&B's call had ended he was there too
"Bhejo isko D II... 50 kamre hain, banda koi nahi is ghar mein, naukar neeche rehte hain, tujhe dhele bhar di fiqr nahi" Ranjan growled staring with disbelief at his DIL
Nivi moaned.. and stretched
II turned
"Ro rahi hai?" she asked startled
"No?" R&B said confused
Her eyes were glazed, and tired
Couldnt she hear the baby cooing?
She shut her eyes and turned towards the window, stretching her arm out to where Nivi was laying when she fed
He texted Sam...
"Can u come please?" he asked
"Kya hua? Sofia nahi aayi, she promised she would" Sam was upset
"Hey how soon can u" he was focussed
"Bachi theek hai?" Sam asked
As if even she couldnt see beyond the new arrival
"Main Iyer saab nu call karanga... pehle Doc naal gallan kariye.." he ordered
Walked over to the bed
"Khaaya kuch?" he asked
II looked at him confused
"Rabba" he groaned
Hitting the intercom
"Beta khaana lekar aao"
"She hasnt eaten" he turned to his son
"She knows how to do that" "when shes hungry" R&B was being cocky
Ranjan glared... and didnt say a word
R&B walked over to the bed
And she turned... they gazed at each other for the longest time
"U can hold her" she said graciously
Mahavir brought dinner, she ate... famished
Dr Gupta came in
Dr asked her series of questions, the answers? A common theme... II's expression of inadequacy at being a good mom
and in the end confirmed their suspicion that it was indeed post partum depression and ordered II should be cared for and be surrounded by people
It appeared like II wasnt even affected by that prognosis
She fed and changed Nivi and lay down... giving up on trying to be a good mom, she had accepted her failure?
Dr looked at Ranjan and R&B meaningfully
"Can u two work from home for a bit? this house is too big and lonely... it must accentuate feelings of despair" she noted
"He works from home... he takes really good care of Nivi" II spoke somberly
"Dad cant really work from home" she declared
Sam finally showed up with no kids
Shocked to discover II's condition
He stayed with II as Sam offered the Doc some dinner, Ranjan held Nivi
"Lets go down" he offered gently
Vendaam... its too dark" she said
"Did she bother u during the day?" she asked
"No" he smiled
"Shes a good kid" II nodded sadly.. "I am not a good mommy but shes a good kid" she sobbed uncontrollably
He sat by her and gathered her close... shushing her
"U are the best" he whispered
"Thats why u no longer even sleep with me" she almost gagged sobbing
He chuckled... and hugged her tight "U drive me crazy" he explained
She didnt come back with a feisty response like she usually did
He sighed not letting go...
"She is going to hate me" she declared
He lay her down, laying down by her... wiping her tears
"I am going to let u tell me whats bothering u... but we have to go down for a bit" he said
"U were right u have never tried to show off ur wealth.. I shudnt have said that"
"I am not talking about that" he groaned helplessly
"U were also right... its bothers me.. it bothers me... why Athim and I cant be best friends"
"II" he cut her off
"Only u can make Nivi quieten down" she said, pulling away
He sat up
"Thats not true" he begged
"U are a natural..." she smiled weakly... laying down "I am not"