Arranged Marriage (ArHi) Thread 10 - thread11 link pg1!

Note for readers

Hey everybody! So for those who do not know me, my name is Krani, or K, or Kay - or whatever floats your boat really.

I had started a story called Arranged Marriage a couple of years ago, however as some are aware, due to a few circumstances I had to leave the forum.

This note is just a way for me to explain everything.

Honestly, I feel that whatever explanation I do give, it will still not be enough to justify how I disappeared without a note. But I know this is the least the readers (at least the ones from the very start) deserve, so here it goes.

Okay, so as some of - or most of- you are aware, stuff happened in my life. I am not saying all of it was bad, but a lot of it was (at least for me).

I am not going to go into details about what happened, because I am not comfortable baring my personal life here. But it was like...

It's kind of like...when you're faced with a particular issue, or a problem, something that you hadn't planned for, or you hadn't expected, or anything- you need to focus your energies on that. To either resolve it, or move on from it.

So it started in 2013, where a lot of things happened together, and as a result, I could not bring myself to focus on writing. Every time I would open my word document, I would blankly stare at the words Part 52, close the document, and go ahead doing my own thing.

I just...couldn't. And it didn't feel right for me to just write anything for the sake of writing just to appease everyone. I wanted to force myself to get in the zone, but I just couldn't.

Anyway, fast forward to when I left that note for you guys - things had started looking up - kinda - and I felt that I could return.

But just as I sent that to you, honestly, life took a different turn. And I just got swept up in the waves of everything.

My attention was required elsewhere in my life, and that was so important to me, that if I hadn't, I would probably still not be here, writing this note to you all.

Honestly, for a girl who used to visit IF multiple times in a day - I would even use my phone if I did not have my laptop with me - it is actually a major thing that I did not visit this forum for years, and went off twitter for more than a good year.

Forget even coming on the forum, or going off twitter - the email account that I had made for my online stuff, such as IF, twitter etc - I stopped checking that.

At that time, I don't know if it was because of the guilt, or because I believed that I would only be able to check once I had the time.

Now when I look back at it, I think it was because of my guilt. I knew that the way I had left the forum, left all of you without a note, and broken my promise of finishing my story - it was not right.

After all that, I once again made an appearance on my Twitter (ages had gone by); I was persuaded to continue with the story. I'll be honest, even at that time, I had conciliated with the fact that I had disappointed my readers, and had considered having my account permanently deleted.

But I was persuaded to continue, and so I did. I opened my document, and again for a while, I could not remember what I had thought of as a writer, the characters were not connecting with me like they had initially.

So I took my time. I read over my whole story, went over my storyline, and then slowly started writing. I made a promise to myself that I won't post any parts till my exams were finished, and till I had a few parts ready in my bank, so I knew I was serious about this.

I really did not want to just leave without an explanation, nor did I want to leave everyone in a lurch.

I really don't know how many people are still here to read - I know that there are quite a few who have been so loyal, so caring that they are still messaging me - and I have no words to say to that. I just feel terrible, and I am sorry about what happened.

There were quite a lot of familiar names that used to float around the forum, but I hardly recognise most names now - so hopefully I'll get to know a few more people here, but I also hope that some of the old people have stuck around :)

Please don't ask me what went wrong, or what happened - I won't discuss it. I am not fishing for sympathy, or...trying to do anything. I am just trying to explain that...life kinda got in the way.

I will definitely try my hardest to get this ball rolling once again and bringing closure to this story - however with the way Arnav and Khushi are behaving it might be a while!

Also I started writing this wayyy before we got the news that IPKKND was returning, and so I guess it just seemed more apt for me to re-start this story just as they were returning to tell us their story. I promise this decision was not because the show is back on-air. Although seeing Barun on screen again... *faints*

*edit*

I would like to make a special mention to those readers that continuously PM-ed me, scrapped me, tweeted to me, and every other possible means of communication to get me back. I am catching up on some of the PMs now, and honestly some of them have left me completely speechless - and yes, that ball of guilt has become worse. I just hope I am able to do justice to it all. I really hope that you all enjoy this story exactly like how you have enjoyed it so far.

Thank you to all of you all. And to those others - you already know who you are, and all I can say is, thank you for sticking around. I...thank you :)