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Hello everyone one...
Well, generally I make VMs but for the first time I am trying my hand in story writing.This is my first ever OS... actually this first ever story I have ever written anywhere... 😆😆 So I apologize for grammar mistakes or any other things. This a musical OS... I love this song and I wanted to make a VM on it but I didn't got appropriate scenes for it, So instead of it, I wrote this thing.. ☺️😳. Please share your views...😳
"I promise Swara, I will come back to you, sweetheart"
Kisi roz barish jo aaye
Samajh lena boondon mein main hoon
Subah dhoop tumko sataaye
Samajh lena kirnon mein main hoon
"Please come back to me, love..."
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
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Well, generally I make VMs but for the first time I am trying my hand in story writing.This is my first ever OS... actually this first ever story I have ever written anywhere... 😆😆 So I apologize for grammar mistakes or any other things. This a musical OS... I love this song and I wanted to make a VM on it but I didn't got appropriate scenes for it, So instead of it, I wrote this thing.. ☺️😳. Please share your views...😳
Bas Itna Hai Tumse Kehna
Main rahoon ya na rahoon
Tum mujhmein baaki rehna
Mujhe neend aaye jo aakhiri
Tum khwaabon mein aate rehna
Tum mujhmein baaki rehna
Mujhe neend aaye jo aakhiri
Tum khwaabon mein aate rehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Main rahoon ya na rahoon
Tum mujh mein baaki rehna
Tum mujh mein baaki rehna
Doctor's words still echoed in Swara's ears as she made her way down the hospital corridor towards ICU .
"Mrs. Maheshwari, If your husband didn't gain consciousness within next 24-hours then chances are either he will slip into coma or worse he will not survive."
Tears blurred her vision as memories and images flashed through her mind in a jumbled clips of an unedited movie but she made no attempt to either wipe her tears or to sort out those memories. She just blindly stumbled through the bleak corridors of hospital until she reached the ICU where Sanskaar laid unconscious fighting for his life.
Seeing him like lying like that barely breathing, hooked with numerous machines and wires brought a new round of tears and along with them, a strong wave of guilt and self hatred.
Memories of Annapurna and Sujata accusing her of bringing bad luck to everyone around her came to front. They were right though, she thought miserably, all she had done is to bring pain to her loved one. First because of her, her mother had to tolerate so much humiliation of being single mother. Then because of her, her sister marriage broke and still keeps on crumbling. And now she is the reason why Sanskaar is in this condition. She was the reason Sanskaar decided to go out so late in night because she had decided to confront Sanskaar about the doubt that he kidnapped Ragini.
The painful and heartbroken look Sanskaar had given her when she had literally accused him kept on haunting her. It was very brief yet she saw that before he had donned a neutral mask and told her in a detached and cold voice that if she thinks so then he have nothing to say more to her. His words still rings clearly in her mind.
**~Flashback~**
"Swara, I have nothing to say to you. If you have already came to this conclusion even after knowing me for so long now then nothing I say matters anymore."
And with that he left the room and went to guest room leaving her with her guilt ridden jumbled thoughts. In her heart, she knew that Sanskaar will never do such thing yet at that time she did what her mind told, ignoring her heart but now she was regretting for even thinking about it. After few moments she heard a vase shattering from guest room and the door being slammed open. Alarmed and panicked, she rushed out of the room just in time to see him moving towards staircase. Even before the first syllable came out of her mouth, he told her tensely that he needed sometime alone and will be back soon. But that hadn't reassured her at all. She was guilty and watching him leaving was sending her heart into frenzy, like something wrong was going to happen. So she tried her best to stop him.
"But Sanskaar, its raining so heavily outside".
He stopped at the first stair down and turned half way toward her. Seeing her almost in tears had made him concerned. He then relaxed his tense gait and replied softly;
"Swara, I really need some time alone. I promise I will be back soon"
She once again tried to protest but again he smiled a sad smile and told her;
"I promise Swara, I will come back to you, sweetheart"
And then he realised what he called her so he quickly turned and fled down the stairs and out of the main door. And once again she was left with uneasy feeling.
**~Flashback ends~**
After that she had retreated to her room to sit near window which gave view of the driveway. Two hours had passed then but he had not returned. She had tried his cell phone numerous times after first hour and by then she was panicking. She was going to dial his number again when his name flashed on her cell as a incoming call. And with that her living nightmare began.
She doesn't remember much after the person on other side told her that he found this cell phone with the man who laid bleeding on street with a burnt car few feet away from him in a ditch. All she remembered was running to Bade Papa's room and after that suddenly she was in hospital waiting outside ICU.
Kisi roz barish jo aaye
Samajh lena boondon mein main hoon
Subah dhoop tumko sataaye
Samajh lena kirnon mein main hoon
Samajh lena boondon mein main hoon
Subah dhoop tumko sataaye
Samajh lena kirnon mein main hoon
Kisi roz barish jo aaye
Samajh lena boondon mein main hoon
Subah dhoop tumko sataaye
Samajh lena kirnon mein main hoon
Kuchh kahoon ya na kahoon
Tum mujhko sada sunte rehna
Tum mujhko sada sunte rehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
A hand on her shoulder brought her back from her guilt trip to present. She turned toward the one of the two people who stood by her in this whole ordeal. Ram Prasad Maheshwari, the ever silent pillar of Maheshwari clan; became her pillar of strength to survive that night. Both him and Durga Prasad Maheshwari had protected her from taunts of both mothers of Maheshwari clan and made sure she could stay by Sanskaar's side. Durga Prasad had taken other members of family with him ordering her and Ram to be with Sanskaar.
"Its not your fault Swara. Please don't let Bhabhi's and Sujata's words weigh on your heart. Get some rest. It will do you no good to exhaust yourself"
Her father in law's voice once again jostled her out of her memories.
"But Dad they were ri..."
His reprimanding look told her better to not complete her sentence. Sighing she told him;
"I am fine Dad. I am not exhausted at all. I just want that he wakes up soon."
She was greeted by a handkerchief in reply. Surprised she looked up toward Ram. He once again offered her his handkerchief and gestured her to wipe her tears. But when she made no move to take it with a look of fond exasperation, Ram himself wiped her tears. This familiar gesture brought a new round of tears but along with that it also brought a watery smile on her face.
"Swara, he will wake up soon. He is very strong. You know na he doesn't like your tears. So stop crying." Ram gently chided her.
"I know Dad, he had promised me before going out that he will come back to me." She said turning her head toward the see through glass of ICU door.
"Then you should also know that he never breaks his promises. So get hold of yourself Beta, and be at his side."
"I know Dad, I know... but who did all this? There are so many questions revolving around my mind. Is Sanskaar still in danger? You heard the inspector, he said the car was not burnt from impact, it was blasted. Sanskaar, somehow, got out of running car thats why he was on road while car was in that ditch. Who is after his life??..."
She would have rambled off but Ram placed his hand on his head. Giving her an indulgent smile he told her that Durga Prasad and him have their doubts about the conspirator and they are gathering evidences; She and Sanskaar have nothing to worry from now on.
Just then Ram's phone vibrated. Attending it, he told Durga Prasad, he will call him back in few moments.
Before he left, he asked her a promise in a serious voice,
"Swara, Promise me, from now on you will not ask anyone to overlook other's mistakes and crimes."
His this promise once again brought her world to stand still. That single sentence told her who was behind Sanskaar's condition. She shouldn'tbe surprised but still the implication of that sentence left her cold. So she just nodded dumbly to him and watched him going away.
After sometime in early morning, a nurse had came and told her she can visit Sanskaar inside ICU.
As she walked through the doors, seeing him laying there with bandages across his head and right arm, once again brought her guilt and tears to surface.
Sitting beside on chair beside his bed, she fiddled with her duppata and start speaking,
"Sanskaar, I am so sorry. I know this will not be enough. But I really am. I forgot your suggestion and just acted what my mind said. I ignored my heart's voice. My saying sorry doesn't make my mistake any less. But please don't punish me like this. Don't leave me like this. You promised me didn't you? Please wake up Sanskaar... I can't imagine a world where you're not part of it. Please don't go..."
She was left as sobbing mess by the end of her apology. A rumbling thunder brought her eyes toward window. The down pour had started once again. It was like the nature herself was crying with her for him. It was such a contrast of the days, when in the early morning; while she is sleeping, he will come back to their room to get ready to go out for jog. She have habit of keeping windows open at night that is why the early morning sun falls directly on her face but each day he will close the drapes before it actually disturb her enough to wake up. What he didn't know is now-a-days she was always up by the time he does that. He looks so adorable first thing in the morning. It is hard to maintain her composure sometimes and not let him know that she knows the he is staring at her. Her veil of hairs kept her blush hidden as well as the fact that she is also peeking at him. She knows that her feeling for him is changing with each passing moment. And she is damn scared from them. It is also one of the reason that she choose to listen her mind rather than heart because she was scared of the hold Sanskaar had on her heart now. But now she was done fighting them. She doesn't want to think what it is, neither she wants to name these feelings; all she want is him to smile at her and be with her. Slowly with these thoughts, in both her mind and heart she laid her head beside his left hand on bed and drifted to sleep with a whispered plea;
"Please come back to me, love..."
Hawaaon mein lipta hua main
Ghuzar jaaunga tumko chhu ke
Agar man ho to rok lena
Thehar jaaunga in labon pe
Ghuzar jaaunga tumko chhu ke
Agar man ho to rok lena
Thehar jaaunga in labon pe
Hawaaon mein lipta hua main
Ghuzar jaaunga tumko chhu ke
Agar man ho to rok lena
Thehar jaaunga in labon pe
Ghuzar jaaunga tumko chhu ke
Agar man ho to rok lena
Thehar jaaunga in labon pe
Main dikhoon ya na dikhoon
Tum mujhko mehsoos karna
Tum mujhko mehsoos karna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Bas itna hai tumse kehna
Beep... Beep... Beep...
That was the first noise Sanskaar heard when he started to gain the consciousness. He wanted to open his eyes or move his hand or even make a noise but his body was not responding to his will. Next he heard was someone talking softly...
No... not just talking the person is crying too.
He tried to focus his senses.
"Sanskaar, I am so sorry. "
Wait he knew that voice ...Its Swara... but why is she crying and why she is apologizing...??
And then he remembered their last talk. He knew that she was just saying that because of the evidences that was putting him in shady light. He understood that perfectly but it hadn't lessened the hurt of her suspecting him even knowing him so well now. The words had just slipped from his mouth unknowingly. He didn't want to say them but it was like he couldn't stop the hurt from pouring out. Thats why he had left for guest room suddenly before he blurt out something else which will damage their relationship. Even after isolating from Swara, he didn't get the peace in that guest room and a vase was broken in his rage. He needed to get out of there thats why he had taken his car keys and was leaving when Swara too had came out from the room. He didn't want her to see him like this thats why he had told her that he is leaving and will be back in sometime. She had raised her concern about raining. He had turned to look at her then. But seeing her almost in tears had brought him to knees as well as warmed his heart... atleast she cares for me. But he still needs to get out for some fresh air. He had gemtly told her again that he will come back soon. Yet she had again protested about him going out this late in while it was raining. The words had once again slipped through his mouth without his permission.
"I promise Swara, I will come back to you, sweetheart"
And then he registered what he had called her so before the situation became anymore awkward... he had fled from there.
He had always loved rains so driving in rain was soothing to him. By the time one and a half an hour passed, his heart's hurt was calmed down. He knew that Swara didn't actually meant to hurt him she was just asking about her doubt. If she had to accuse, she could have done that in front of whole family but she did that alone that means she did give him benefit of doubt and he had blown the things out of proportion. He also felt bad that from last half an hour he was ignoring her calls, so he decided to go back home then. He was on his halfway back to home when suddenly his brakes stopped working and car got out of his control. He desperately tried to control the car but nothing was working. Memories after memories of Swara flashed in front of his eyes. The last memory was of her showing her acceptance of his promise to come back to her. So he did what came to his mind at that moment, he opened the door and jumped out of it. Last thing he remembered was a massive pain that had bloomed in his head but after that he remembered nothing. He once again tried to gauge his surroundings. By the smells of disinfectant and medicines around him, he came to conclusion he must be hospital. His mind was still felt muddled. So rather than smells, he tried to concentrate on the voice of his love.
"Please wake up Sanskaar... "
She was calling to him to wake up. Stupid eyes... open up...
He tried desperately to open his eyes but they felt so heavy.
"I can't imagine a world where you're not part of it. "
Sanskaar felt like his heart just skipped a beat. Those words were spoken with so much warmth, desperation and a word he tried not to think...
"Please don't go..."
He wanted to tell her that he is with her right now but he couldn't do anything. She was sobbing now but he couldn't do anything. In a distance he heard a thunder rumble. It still must be raining or at least there the weather must be cloudy. He didn't likes that as much he love rains, he love the first ray of sun on Swara face more. Every morning, since she came back to Maheshwari's; he likes to watch the first ray of sun make her face glow like an angel. Oh, he knew she now-a-days she just pretend to sleep, her blush gave her away a long time ago. Its one of the reason that he let his heart more free around her because he could sense her growing feeling towards him but recent events have once again raised his doubts on his approach. Maybe he was reading too much. He felt her head near his left hand as her breath fanned over it.
And the next words from her mouth gave him all strength to fight back to consciousness.
"Please come back to me, love..."
They were whispered but he heard them loud and clear...He knew she had fallen asleep by the pattern of her deep and slow breaths. So maybe he was not wrong about her changing feeling for him. And if so, he will woo her for sure.
"I am here sweetheart"
And with a whispered reply and smile, he too let sleep takeover him.
Main rahoon ya na rahoon
Tum mujh mein baaki rehna
Tum mujh mein baaki rehna
Song Link: (in case you can't hear the song here in post)
**Disclaimer : The song, characters used here are not mine. They belong to their rightful creators.
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