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I looked at her. But couldn't find the old 'her'. She was someone else;whom I didn't know. Who was completely unknown to me. Everything was the same except that she was all silent-silent like a dead body. I craved for her to smile, to laugh, to talk, to make me irritated with her continuous rubbish words.
But there she was sitting like a statue made of stone and she wouldn't move even a bit. Strange wasn't the appropriate word to describe- I guess awful will be the right word. Cause the girl who used to blow life into others was herself lifeless now. And it pierced my heart and I literally couldn't bear the intolerable pain.
And the worst part was that I was responsible for her state. Yes, the truth is I am the one who forced her to get lost in the darkness. She wanted to spread light everywhere and she tried to enlighten my life, enlighten me and change my aspects. She was the one who tried to break the walls that I had put around myself for so long. She tried to break them and have a peek of what she thought I truly was. She believed that I was a good person,in fact she thought me to be great like a God. And that's what made me loathe her-cause I believed I was the worst person possible and I believed it was the only truth of my life and I wanted her to believe that. But she wouldn't and she was adamant that she will bring out the decent man she had seen in me one day. That's what she believed. I warned her- that she will someday loose her own light in my darkness if she tries to enlighten my world. But as always she didn't pay any heed to my words.
I tried to push her away from myself. But she would always stick to me like super glue. Sometimes I
used to think how can a person be such a callous. I didn't leave a single chance to insult her or taunt her. But she had never taunted me back. She just returned her ever so sweet smile which sometimes compelled me to break my fake anger and smile back unknowingly.
I wanted her to leave;to go away, far away from me. I didn't care where, I didn't even care if she burnt in hell-at least that's what I believed back then. And even if the thought of caring about her sometimes crept up in my mind; I had tried to shove them off.
But I accept now that I do care for her- I always have. And I want her to myself,only her. I accept that I love her. That I had somehow fallen in love with her deeply. But when I realised her importance in my life, it was too late. I found her but lost the real 'her'. She wasn't the same anymore. My angel who made me alive, who enlightened my world wasn't the one anymore I used to know once. She was nothing but a living dead body-lifeless,lost in the darkness forever. She doesn't feel anything,she doesn't react to anything. It seems as if her whole body is paralysed. She is numb-all numb. But if I look at her deeply, I realise that she is not numb-my angel is dead inside.
TBC>>>
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
