Chapter 60A Both were in separate room, separate homes, away from each other yet thinking about the same thing. Had they really gotten this second chance? They had and they had taken this chance unknowingly and fallen in love. The love they were once scared of, thought they would never get was now in their lives without them even knowing. Both thought about how this time they took so long to admit it when they love was so much better than before. It was nothing like before, there was so much more to love than what they had thought. And this time it was just what they had once thought love was supposed to be like...
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"Love...Ishita Bhalla is my love..." he repeated to himself a few times as his own words sunk in slowly. This was really happening and the more he said it to himself, the wider his smile grew. And then he remembered his mother's words, that she also shared the same feelings. He became eager like a small child to know whether she knew that what they shared was more than mere attraction, that it was love. And what if she did know, but never admitted it to him...he would need to know what was going on in her mind and heart as well. And so for the first time since she left, he was genuinely excited and got out of bed hoping to get the answer to his question today...
On the other hand, Ishita couldn't be any happier. Her mother was right, this time this felt like love. She thought of love as something that made you feel content and cherished, but all her expectations of getting that love left with her ex. When Raman came she never thought she would find herself falling in love with him. But it was happening...it had already happened without them knowing. Or did he know? Did he already know he was in love with her or was he also aware of her feelings like Amma and Mummyji were and she was the only one who didn't know? She just couldn't wait for all the answers to her questions. And so excitedly she got out of bed when suddenly she thought of something...
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Their day was full of mixed emotions...Both wanted to talk to each other and miss the other just like the day before, but adding the word love to their relationship changed it. They were both hesitant to talk over the phone or message as they dealt with all that came with their acceptance of their love. Both had similar questions in mind...did the other know about my feelings? Or is he/she unaware of her own feelings like I was? What should I do now? I need to tell, but what if I get a bad reaction...I need to do something...
He paced back and forth in his cabin trying to think of what needs to happen now. Should he try and talk to her first, figure out what she was feeling, how she would take it if he admitted to her and whether or not she even knew about her feelings herself or should he be honest and let her know what was going on with him and how he had finally given his feelings a name and what he truly felt for her. All this while he could only think of how she would react to everything, he just wanted this to work out for the better, not make their relationship go in the opposite direction...
She sat with her laptop open looking blankly at her open document while all she could think of was figuring out what to do...should she wait for him to make a move and start by talking about his feelings so she could get an idea of what he was feeling or should she go ahead and make that move by talking to him about what she felt for him...She shook her head trying to snap out of his thoughts and focus on her work, but she found herself again trying to imagine the possible outcomes of her two options. All she knew was she wanted their relationship to improve with anything she did, not go backwards...
They both thought for hours, distracting them from that separation that they hated so much. They worried about the effect their newly accepted feeling would have on the other persona and their relationship. And how would they even have a talk about this? They couldn't just simply go up to each other and say I love you, but how long would they be able to see the other and not show their newly discovered love. Something had to be done about this and fast. And so after hours of thinking, they were both able to think of something that they thought would be the best way to bring out the other's feelings and admit theirs...
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All this time, they had been so engrossed in their thoughts and plans, they couldn't contact each other all day. He called when she was in the shower or having a nap and she called while he was busying in a lunch meeting, so they weren't able to talk over the phone. She texted him about Ruhi and he had checked the messages sneakily in between his video call, but wasn't able to reply making her think he was ignoring her because of her not going with him the day before while he had tried to text back, but she was busy with her Amma and didn't see the message till the evening when there was no point in texting back to answer his question on whether he should come visit or not...
He on the other hand thought her not replying to his message meant she didn't want him to visit and he didn't know what to do. He had planned something out and now since he wouldn't even be able to visit her since she didn't want him to, he would have to wait until tomorrow and that's when the separation hit him again. Of course he would have to wait, because his wife wasn't at home. He couldn't rush home and excitedly put his plan into action and watch them try to take their relationship ahead, instead he would have another quiet, lonely, and tormenting night alone with belongings of hers and the kids. His happiness from the day faded as he walked out of his office building and dragged his feet to his car. The whole trip home he was on the verge on calling her and blasting her on the phone for not talking to him once all day. His excitement and happiness on his realization and the plan to make her admit her feelings was gone in moments as the thought of her ignoring him for some unknown reason was killing him and he wanted to know what happened overnight that she stopped talking to him...
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He walked into his quiet house dreading the hours that awaited him in his silent room. Without bothering to look into the kitchen for dinner, he loosened his tie and dragged himself to the couch in a horrible mood. He walked with a lowered head and threw his things onto a chair as he sat down, head held in his hands. It was then when he felt someone moving behind him that got his attention and soon he almost felt a kick by his back and turned around. There was his Ruhi trying to grab his attention and let him know she was there while he was sulking on. He couldn't believe his eyes when she giggled looking at surprised face and moved her arms frantically reaching out to him. He picked her with happily shocked at finding her home and hugged her when he realized if Ruhi was home...she was home as well. He placed Ruhi onto her chair and showed her different toys that rotated above her distracting her from him so he could go and see where Ishita was.
Rushing into their room excitedly, he found her stacking her clothes back into the cupboard where they belonged. He almost ran to her engulfing her into a surprise hug. She was startled at first, but smiled to herself and hugged him back. Finally she was home...in his arms. After a few moments they broke apart, but he didn't let go of her hand as if she would leave...
"Ishita..." he looked at her as if she was the world's 8th wonder.
"I'm here!"
"I thought you couldn't come home till tomorrow."
"But I did...for you."
She had decided to ask Amma and Appa to come back by giving the excuse of Ruhi's adjustment problems. They hadn't given it a second thought before letting her go even though they wished she would stay because they were simply being parents. So in minutes she had left her one home and come to the other.
She told Mummyji not to let Raman know and didn't answer his last text for the same reason, now all that was left was to tell him what was in her heart. She had decided to tell him about everything she felt for him because he would be understanding enough to realize you can't stop love from happening and maybe this would bring out his feelings. She needed to take this step since he was just too thoughtful of her past issues and her feelings to bring this up first, she had concluded. And so she had decided to tell him that she loved him...a lot.
He on the other hand wanted to bring out her feelings first for the same reason, he didn't want to make her uncomfortable or make their relationship seem awkward by bringing in love if she wasn't ready to admit it. He was aware she had some memories related to intimacy which made it hard for them, but he was hoping there wasn't any problems when it came to talking about love. So he had decided to bring out her feelings and he also knew he would hurt her and him in the process of what he thought about, but he also knew it would last 5 minutes and if she wasn't able to talk about her feelings, he would take that first step and admit it to her since he couldn't hide it longer anyways, so with that Raman started to prove that Ruhi, their drama queen, was after all his daughter since he was not any less dramatic...
"For me? Why? I was the one being childish so I don't get why you came for me." He let go of her hand which she noticed and looked at him shocked at his a statement and then sadly remembered what she said yesterday...
"Raman! I'm sorry about what I said yesterday...the child part and all...but I came now... I just couldn't go another day not sleeping next to you or seeing you with Ruhi...so I told Amma Appa that I wanted to come back home and they let me..."
"What if they didn't? Would you have stayed away even though you didn't want to?"
"Raman..." tears burned in her eyes as he continued on but after turning away from her because he knew he was hurting her and it hurt him as well...
"I'm just asking, I know I'm being a child again, but I was wondering..."
"No! Raman please don't say that. You don't know how much you've been missed..."
"Did you really miss me? I mean you were so happy there without me, you had Ruhi, Amma and Appa, even Mihika. I was alone, even mom went out yesterday. This huge house was empty and made me feel small. I felt lonely like never before..."
"I never wanted that...I felt terrible and still do for leaving you alone. But I thought you would understand and so I stayed there. Raman they are my parents and I couldn't hurt them..."
"And me?" He questioned and she was now starting to become angry. He knew how mch she had missed him all day yesterday and yet he was asking all this. Didn't he see her love when she saw him after hours yesterday, those hugs, kisses, messages, "I miss yous" were all for him and he was questioning her, now she knew she would have to tell him first since he was not only unaware of her feelings, but thinking completely wrong about what he was for her...
"I wasn't happy without you either. I can't be ever! I missed you whenever any little thing reminded me of you. And everything spoke you, the food, the room, Ruhi, and anything and everything was just a reminder of you. I wanted you with me...I just need you...and you are saying all this to me?"
"Why? Why did you need me?" he turned around as he sensed the anger in her voice and grabbed her shoulders looking into her eyes that were angry and questioned him in returned...
"Do you not know the reason Raman? Tell me honestly."
"No I don't! I don't understand anything at all. Why do you cry for me and want me so much? Why do I matter? Why do you care? Why do you miss me? Why do I even mean anything to you? Why?!"
She had enough of the nonsense he had been speaking for the past few minutes. Here she was trying to tell him how much she loved and how much he meant to her while he was going on about whether he mattered to her and if he did then why so? There was a limit to everything and some anger she would understand from yesterday, but he was just wrong in questioning why he meant anything to her when he was everything. And so losing all the patience she had, she looked right into his eyes with emotions he had never imagined to see, some hurt was visible while passionate anger caught his attention and as she grabbed his shoulder, he tried to hide his small smile as he knew what she felt for him that instant...
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That was all for now! Please like and leave your feedback. So you all know confession is in the next update, what I want to know is who will confess first because I don't know myself yet and I also want to know what you all want. You all leave your feedback and do let me know who you want confessing first because this situation I have left so I can make anyone confess first.
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Edited by smilesforever98 - 9 years ago
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